Maggots

Evening~~~

Yesterday I was early for work
so I waited at the tram stop for Jack
we walked into the school grounds together and i moved a thorn bush out
my way with my bare hand
he pulled such a face
I said "whats up?"
he said "it had thorns on it!"
i said "yeah and?"
he said "what if it had hurt your hand?"
i said "its only a thorn bush and look im fine, you worry too much"
he said "what if you had cut your hand, saw blood and passed out outside the school gates"
i said "does your mind actually leap to that kinda thing?"
he seems to ask me a lot "do you not think or just not care what happens to you?"
bit of both I guess XD
nice having him look out for me tho

my day went well
it was probably the first day in a while i didnt actually feel faint!
i got through the day alright
the head of biology asked if i wanted company with going to fetch maggots
i said "no no im fine honest"
she was like "i dont mind"
jack said "yeah you two go together it will be good"
damn you jack for volunteering me like that >.>
ive never had a teacher in my car before XD

after school
i went food shopping with jack as we needed food for dinner
and also stuff for work like 40 oranges
and 40 oranges weighs a lot so i suggested to jack get them whilst i was driving instead of him carrying them on tram
then we went to his and i just relaxed in his pajamas
helped make dinner
then lazed
then he and theo wanted to watch some trashy program called "love island"
i went to bed
he crawled up to me an hour later
i woke up in the night, had the rape dream
not had it for a few weeks
it had a different spin on it this time,, really psychotically weird
i woke up panting and sweaty
jack asked if i was alright, i told him id had the rape dream
and he held me
it was a little strange having rape dream and waking up next to someone and hearing all the noises in his apartment i was struggling not scream to make it all go away
but i just listened to his heart beat and after a long while fell asleep

i woke up at 6am and had a shower
leaving jack half dead in bed as per usual
but getting ready together is nice i guess for school for a change
as we both dont have company in the morning as we're just up too early compared to those we live with

got to school and he was busy prepping stuff as he was leaving at 12:15pm to have the internet installed at his flat after waiting 3 months without it
yeah he and theo were well missing internet 
mid morning i had to go out and get maggots...
i went with the teacher and it was fine
the shop stunk
my god i had no idea fishermen shops stunk that bad
and the guy got half a pint of maggots for us
just seeing them wriggle made my stomach flip
but after i looked at them for a few seconds i kinda got used to it i guess
we got back to school just in time for me to say bye to jack
leaving me in charge of the ship
whilst no one was looking i took a photo of the maggots

my job is pretty gross at times
i was sure to send this to my brother
he responded with "eat one"
i had a heart dissection to contend with but only 4 hearts were used
i went to see the art department for paper to paint on
i spoke to the art teacher for a while
she said i was welcome to come during year 7 art club at lunch tomorrow
so im gonna quietly slope off to that without anyone noticing hopefully!
i did some display work
i hope to do a before and after 
cus my god the display work is seriously crap
chemistry want a lot of display work doing
my god so much work!
but its creative so im not complaining

i was ready to leave
cus it was sooooo hot and humid
i had sweated buckets
i got home and showered, again
i havent heard much from jack since hes been reunited with internet XD
i said "try not to watch too much porn"
he said "ill try not leave myself too drained" 
so sick XD we have a sick sense of humour
and im not sure why i laugh at what he says as most girls would be repulsed 
he finds it great i have such a weird and gross sense of humour
certainly not like other girls

i fell asleep for an hour
had dinner
and then saw my pets
mum wants to take millie vets as her skin is a bit dry and shes got two patches of fur missing which is odd and we hope molly hasnt pulled it out

ive had to order another hair dye tonight
as despite doing mine permanent, you cant even see it!!!
so ive tried another brand

school tomorrow
and hopefully yoga
suppose to rain tomorrow
im hoping that means it will be cooler and not just unbearably humid