day of art

Konbanwa~~

I spent my evening with Oz the sofa
he was happily falling asleep
i took him to bed and pretty much went to bed myself 
i was tired

i woke up at midnight tho
aching
took a while to get back off to sleep but some how i achieved it
and didnt hear my brother come in with his girlfriend at 2am

i got up at 8am this morning
did my pet duties
then went for a walk in the woods
i did a little bit of dancing but felt too tired to do much
so went for a shower

cleaned up downstairs ready for mum and dad to come home
then i went to bed because i could XD
i got up and began my picture
didnt take long to draw out, but painting is taking a while
i forget the limitations of traditional art as opposed to digital art
but its kept me quiet and occupied 
not sure where the idea came from it just popped into my head

the katakana says "tick tock" 
i will probably get it finished next weekend

mum and dad came home
mum had brought me a cake
its sooooo sweet, i will finish it before bed XD
i told mum about millie
although millie seems to be eating a bit better today
shes still weeing blood tho...
just keep an eye on her and make sure she doesnt suffer

i decided not to see jack today
he asked if i wanted to go out for lunch
but in all honesty i jusst couldnt be bothered
i just wanted to please myself this weekend and do what i want to do
so i stayed at home
i think hes ok with it but i wont get away with another weekend alone for a while XD
ill see him at work tomorrow
its weird but usually i really want to see him but i havent really missed him this weekend
i havent missed anyone
usually i miss my mum when she goes away
ether ive been fine keeping myself busy or ive been blanking my emotions
that dead cat this week, i felt nothing for it, or for the family that mourned for it
maybe im dissociating myself again
it is hard to cope being in pain and coming off medication
i shouldnt blank myself off from the world tho
i need to try harder
speaking of medication i drop another one tonight....
im already aching but i swear its in my head, its probably the stress and thought of being on less medication and in more pain
but i want to try

tomorrow i have school
i plan to wear my new school trousers and twin tails X3