new meds to try

Konbanwa

i got up at 8am
i didnt bother setting my alarm as jack txt me last night saying not to come in
honestly
it was hard resigning myself to a day or boredom
cus what can you do when you sick and home alone
so dull!

but  i had the babies out who were just running wild round the hall
theyre so fast!
they ran everywhere, climbed on shoes, pushed things over
we have our hands full with them
molly followed the once or twice to make sure it was safe
then simply let them burn the energy off
they were panting afterwards
i forget how active and playful they are as babies

i've showered and slept
and thats about my day
i did pick up a book ive been trying to read for a while now
im hoping i can keep continuing with it and move onto other books
i quit reading one on my kindle - the man who lost his shadow
as i totally lost the plot there
and was only half way through the book!

i was gonna go a walk but just felt too wiped out
jack covered for me today but has warned me the prep room is a tip....
not looking forward to seeing the state its in
some biology teachers havent done their practicals because they knew i wasnt in
so they didnt want to stress jack out with it so that was nice of them
i basically have a lot of work ahead of me just for talking a day off
this is why i dont want to go down to part time
its picking up pieces and not knowing what youre going into

i went doctors which was an hour out my day as they are always running late
basically he wants me on 75mg twice a day - my usual dose of pain killer
i wanted 100mg but he wouldnt budge 
he offered morphine but i turned it down
hes put me on another pain killer which isnt as strong but should still help
im not holding out a lot of hope as ive tried a form of them before
and they didnt do anything
but we shall see

ive got all my stuff ready to go school tomorrow
as i cant bare to waste another day of life
and im sure ill be fine tomorrow
it will probably be a hard slog yes but better than spending it in bed