missed the christmas party

Evening

I made it til 11pm last night
but hardly read once in bed as i was just shattered

this morning i got up at 8:30am
feeling like road kill
just mentally and physically exhausted
there was no ignoring my body today

saw my pets
mum kindly dyed my hair
jo now has full on pink hair XD
its taking a bit of getting used to....
then once id sorted that out
i did the tree!
i felt so exhausted doing it all
but its done
and i went straight to bed afterwards where i stayed then for 5 hours

mum said to me i should get up
as i hadnt really drank or eaten much all day
she was right
so i motivated myself and got Oz and a drink
sat with him for a bit
then went for a walk cus i knew if i didnt do anything
i literally wouldnt sleep at all tonight
but sadly got rained on...20% chance of rain my butt

now its 8pm
i havent had any dinner but hoping i can get away with just a hot chocolate
then i will see Oz and go bed

tonight is the school christmas party
i told jack i wasnt able to go but to still go
so he's gone which im glad about
i dont feel too bad about not going as i was only going for him
but the little hes done for me i dont feel that bad
besides he can drink and enjoy it all
i couldnt face looking happy for people, getting dressed up, loud music and loud drunk people
nah not for me
ive wasted £15 but im not bothered 
glad i havent pushed myself to go

jack said he's gonna come see me tomorrow
he also says a lot of things
im secretly hoping he doesnt come over
as i have things to do tomorrow that i didnt get done today
such as a key chain rob asked me to make and starting wrapping presents
besides jack will be hungover 
just see how tomorrow goes
ive not told anyone about my pink hair
i should photograph it

its mia and rob's 10th anniversary today
so i wished her the best this morning
theyve done so well