Saw dead rats

Evening

didnt sleep too great
woke up at 5:50am and decided to get up
it was cold everywhere
but it wasnt even our coldest morning this winter
just everywhere felt cold and dark

got to school
and jack looked zombiefied so i made him a coffee
and he was alright once that took effect
i managed to make the chemicals up i was unsure of
i got through the busy day
monday is always my busiest day
tuesday is my quietest day tomorrow looks ok
apart from defrosting rats...
i actually upped the courage and went to have a look at them
my heart sank
5 vacuum packed rats bunched together, faces on their front paws and eyes closed 
sickeningly it made me think of what my guinea pigs must look after theyve been put to rest
i hated that scene
i told jack and went to see it
and it said i didnt need to as he'd be fine sorting the rats
but its MY job its biology
if jack wasnt there id get made to do it so i cant rely on him
i will do this
as long as i dont see them cut up i should be fine
so yeah defrosting the buggers tomorrow

on the way home i called in at mias
had walter fall asleep on my lap
what a life that 5 month old puppy has
we had a brew and a catch up
got this table cloth that mia wants making smaller
i can see why...
if you have a table that fits then youre doing bloody well for yourself
its 8m long!!! who has a table that long!?
insane
so im making it smaller and the off cut will be made into a smaller runner for her living room table...more work for Jo

i came home and skipped dinner
couldnt face more stomach ache
i hardly ate over the weekend ether
just had enough of constant stomach ache
i start my new diet on 1st january tho
hopefully it should heal whats up with me

done a bit of dancing in my room
trying to learn a new dance as i was bored really
even tho im shattered

tomorrow is school
jack mentioned yesterday me staying over on tuesday but i havent mentioned it and nether has he so i think i got away with that one~ 
we've been going out 10 months today...