Evening
Did not sleep well
I was so shattered this morning
and didnt to face my day but it aint gonna do its self
i just woke up a complete cripple
my god i ached and usually when i wake up hurting it means its set for the day
and today was no different
i got to school and got straight into my practicals
and it just went tits up it really did
the hours i poured into those bacteria and it went wrong and the most simplest point just due to the fact the technician guide is poorly written and i havent done this before!
i am so re-writing that tech guide after this is done its terrible
so i was annoyed
i didnt get much of a lunch break probably all of 7 mins
as everyone suddenly needed me as it wasnt working
so peeved
i had had enough of everything
bacteria
science
running around
being in constant pain
i had to hold the tears in twice
being tired and in constant pain and not taking a minute
just a bad combo
i left work 5 mins early
id got alll that i could done
and was done
i have a lot to do in order to make things right
but no one was annoyed at me
i got home and relaxed with my Ozwald
then i did 45mins of yoga to try ease my pain and it did help cus i imagine i have been tense today on more than one occasion
then i played on my switch ive practically done kirby
thinking i might move onto disgaea now actually :/
i had a shower to try and relax me a bit
i thought being clean in pyjamas was a way forward
think it has helped a bit
ive got to pack my stuff for jack's tomorrow and do my physio exercises -____-
tomorrow i have 4 practicals
i swear im gonna be dead by the end of this week
im so taking extra pain killers even if it stops my heart
im not having another restless night
me and jack talked about stuff yesterday
basically his rent is up 1st april
his choice is to sign up for 6month contract paying and extra £100 per month
or sign up for another 12 months
he said "im not saying anything im not gonna sway you ether way its got to be your decision"
and i knew straight away we werent there yet, theres no way we could get out crap together and be out in 6months and besides i wanted to look around the end of the year and move out the start of next year which fits in better with the 12 month plan
so i said "12 month as were not there yet are we"
he said "i agree but i wanted to make sure you were happy and not wanting out of your home"
i am ok being at home and i want the year to buy homey things and to not rush it ether i want to find a house that suits us not because we're struggling for time
we have a time limit now next april jack has got to move out
so year this time next year i could be an actual adult and be a home owner!
we have a deadline
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