Bit earlier tonight as Im off to jack's in a bit
Could not sleep again....again up til 2am!!
so frustrating
I couldnt switch off my brain just thinking about stuff that doesnt matter at midnight
then i scratch
i scratch when im stressed and or anxious
its a horrible habit one i do even in my sleep!
so i starting scratching and as weird as it sounds i can just keep scratching despite the pain cus its a different pain to my everyday fibromylgia pain i like to feel a different pain and tune into that instead my 'normal' pain. I suppose a bit like self harmers
so i ended up getting up before i bled in my pyjamas
i played disgaea and ate a couple of biscuits then went to bed at 2am
today i got up and walked to the corner shop with mum
it was empty no milk no bread no nothing really
so we walked home with nothing
we got back and i trimmed truffs's fur
she wasnt very good at being still so its not the best job i have done on her
then we bathed them later on cus they were minging
i mean truffs was bloody grey she was that gross
truffs had her freedom fight in the bath and her claws are sharp so she literally cut my wrists open
it didnt hurt really but i dont know why shes being so feisty today
so now theyre like fluffy toys
i danced for 20mins which i enjoyed
then i showered
i did some more of manga picture
just water coloured it so it has the base colour now
now i have 1000s of dots to do....
im hoping it works
its an idea i had in my head so a bit of an experiment really
i had lunch and went to bed
i was shattered
woke up and made some biscuits woooo
ive been sitting with oz as well today
did a bit of online shopping too, just house stuff for next year cus i have the time to actually browse the world of ebay
i might take pictures of all my goodies when they arrive.
tonight i am staying at jacks
i know that doesnt classify as self isolating but i think id know if jack was sick what with him having asthma so i think i am safe and i miss him and he sounds like hes had a week of it so i wanna make him happy^^ im taking my sketch book to work in as i dont think we will be going out much really. and theres only so much i can play on my switch!
thats it really
oh i got this in the post, its a new cushion cover about 40cm and i won it for £3!! its so cute
its for my house next year
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