150mg

Evening

I couldnt sleep but whats new really
got up about midnight cus id had enough
and went back to bed at 1:30am
woke up at 7:45am to the sound of my dad talking very loudly on the phone...
not what i wanted to wake up to i tell you
couldnt wait for him to leave for work
in fact i stayed upstairs til he had left at 8:15am
couldnt cope with him, but then when can i!

this morning me and mum went to walk to the shops
it made a change, it was a little further than we usually walk
and we ended up buying a fair few needed items
i kept reminding mum "we have this to carry home you know, only get what you need"
but i feel it very much fell on deaf ears...
we had 4 bags full
i only needed a candle and deodorant...

i came back and had a brew with my lad
he happily sat on my knee
then i had a shower and i went to bed as dad came home and i could face it
and i was tired, felt better for a sleep tho


i woke up at 2pm and had my lunch
then i worked on my pumpkin cushion which i did in fact get finished
i will take a photo but i dont currently have a cushion inner to put in it
so i can take a photo of it flat :/ 
still it looks good i think

i sat outside in the garden with mum for a short while
i do try to sit outside but i find outdoor furniture very uncomfortable so it just ends up causing me pain. speaking of pain, i was in a lot of it yesterday and took the most cocodamol i had ever taken before....150mg. thats a fair amount isnt it?
no wonder i felt off but i was desperate to be out of pain

tonight my pain is starting up again 
so i did 20mins of dancing in my room just to loosen a few joints
it had helped a tiny bit, i suppose i could do a bit more dancing 

i started doing a doodle tonight for jack
im gonna post him a doodle as a surprise,, i have his address it wasnt hard to memorise when i have seen his post lying around XD so he wont be expecting it or be expecting that i can memorise his address XD but im doing a doodle of stuff i am looking forward to after the lock down 
its nothing great and i havent spent a lot of time on it but hopefully it will make him smile
he txted once today asking when he could video call me
but i havent responded, i all honesty i didnt want to talk to anyone today
and i didnt want to get arm ache from holding the phone up ether
as yes i do in fact get pain from doing simple things as holding the phone up or holding a book open, great isnt it!

tomorrow
i dont have any crafts i can be getting on with as i am waiting for the clay to arrive in the post
so i might do some drawing as i didnt do any digital drawing today, the pen drawing took over but theres no rush i guess. i will photograph my cushion
i might cut truffles fur tomorrow, she looks a mess and she loves it
adds to her attitude
mum keeps telling Oz off for eating her plants...Oz....such a git 
hes so damn cute
im guessing the plants taste good in spring?