Jack's birthday tomorrow

Evening

I couldnt sleep my pain was too great
my pain killers did nothing
so I got up and was up til 1am
it was a bit dull as i wasnt in the mood to read and didnt have my switch
and i was restless
honestly i pushed myself yesterday to do exercise so i wouldnt ache
i try to help myself and it gets me literally no where
life is not fair at times

i was up at 7:30am
i went for an hours walk at 9am then sat for half hour then did 30mins of dance
then had a shower cus my god i needed it

i texted jack to see if he was alive for his gaming day with theo (theo had today off)
and if he had any news about the house
he asked me to print off a load of stuff from the solicitors and there was a lot, i daren't look at it yet tho, and he said he had been in contact several times with estate agents
so yeah things are moving again
just makes me sick to my stomach, food is not sitting right at all

I wrapped jack's presents up so theyre all ready
his snorlax presents i made during lock down and i even wrapped it in pokemon paper!

i managed lunch then went to sleep
got up and worked on my sewing which is going well actually
i sat home alone and ate my dinner and watched the last episode of Fleabag 
felt good to finish a comedy series, i want to watch now "what we do in the shadows"
i started watching it and havent finished it

tonight im gonna sit with Oz 
then go over to jack's
we probably wont do a lot tonight seeing as it is already 8pm
but tomorrow is his birthday! he will be 27~
so i will wake up with him on his birthday and we will go to a park, have a picnic and a walk then come back to his for a rest then go to his mum's for a BBQ
should be a nice day, we might watch a film in the evening too
i will be home some time wednesday
i just hope he enjoys his birthday and his gifts
im sure he will
its gotta be better than his birthday last year...me getting rushed to hospital in an ambulance cus i had drank alcohol stupidly. those with psychosis should never drink....
lesson well learned that day