Moved out

 Evening

So I think last night was my last night at my family home

I went to bed at 9:45pm and then woke up at 1am needing pain killers

so I got up and had a mammoth bowl of cereal and pain killers then went to bed at 2am

but I can tell I didnt sleep all that well

Not only that I had to be over at the bungalow for 7am as we could have our freezer delivered between 7am and 11am, so I set  my alarm for 6:40am

I didnt see mum before I left the bungalow I just told dad what I was doing and left at 6:50am

I saw Jack for a bit before chris came to pick him up for school

then I had my breakfast and a brew by myself, I settled down in front of 3 episodes of 'what we do in the shadows' a series I have been meaning to watch, as I have seen bits

the delivery men came at 9:20am so it wasnt too bad

they dropped it off and left and I somehow managed to unpack it then just left it as the instructions said to, I let jack know it had come. Then I finished painting the porch! so all that is left to do in there is the white wood work which isnt too big a job but I am thinking of doing the door and bathroom door as well as it is filthy.

I came home at 10am and had a shower, and felt exhausted. It had hurt to hold the paint roller and just generally paint, think its from painting yesterday. So I went to bed and woke up 2 and a half hours later....jeez 

so I had my lunch which was soup Jack had made

he had txted me to say he finished school at 1:30pm and was going into the city centre to finish his christmas shopping.

Mum meanwhile helped me pack my stuff, I had a lot to pack as you can imagine. My brother kindly put all the stuff in mine and mum's car. Then we had a brew with Oz and the girls. I could tell mum found packing difficult because she doesnt want me to go. She knows its got to happen and has accepted it but doesnt have to like it.

We dropped all my stuff off at 3:45pm and then Jack turned up 10mins later from the city

and mum said she would leave us to it, my brother left and mum hugged me I hoped she wouldnt cry as I would cry! but she was strong for me

Jack helped me put together my desk and chair that had arrived today ^^ so I have a nice little corner in his study to sit on my laptop :) Its so lucky they came today as they are not due for another week! fate! and then we put some of my stuff away but I havent brought EVERYTHING over as I just havent.

Like I havent got all my clothes or my plush or figures but I will bring them over as and when. I wont bring over craft stuff until I have a craft room. And as for Oz, my parents are still hunting for a cage for him. But I will see him every day.

we then had a minute to rest before we cooked pasta and ate that, but I wish I hadnt as it really hasnt sat well in my stomach. Just not on good terms with food cus of mentalness i guess

so thats it, I am here

I could be here for the rest of my life if I chose.

in this bungalow, with Jack

its still sinking in, Ive shed the odd tear this evening when he hasnt been looking. Its just overload of emotion as I couldnt ask for it any better, the house is practically redecorated, my family is a 5min walk, Oz will join us, I have Jack, I have money to live off, comforts and yeah I need to be happy and grateful and I know I will be I just need to settle down with with all. i feel restless but I havent done any exercise today T^T so i hope I can sleep :/ I am just tired all the time and have to give my energy to more important thing sometimes, like packing today for example

Jack came home with goodies from work, people had gifted him with things for being so amazing. he said many people wished me to get better and a merry chirstmas. which was nice but I feel so distant from work and all that are there. its odd. i want to return but I also dont want to return.

Jo is just overwhelmed with everything right now @.@

I will get there I am sure

I have many to support me

but now my main support has shifted from mum to jack

is he up to the task?

we shall have to see

tomorrow

at 11am Jack has a driving lesson for 2 hours and so mum said she will come over with Oz maybe, then me and jack are going for a walk down the river as we have done nothing together for so long. Then going over to my family's for take away pizza!

Our bed room