Evening
I was able to do my exercises and have a bath then didnt have much longer to wait for jack to finish gaming. However I was aching a lot and struggled to get to sleep, i mean by the time he's come off off his game at 10pm, got hot drinks and had my pain killers, watched inuyasha, got ready for bed. Its like gone 10:30pm then it can take me a good half hour to actually drop off. So its like gone 11pm when i get to sleep. last night it was closer to midnight as I was just aching. But I am having to get up at 6:15am for school so im getting like 7 hours of sleep. i can not sustain this. I need 9 hours. I have a fatigue illness and take many painkillers. And it is slowly but surely draining me. So I have told this Jack and i think he is resigning to the fact that we have got to be in bed earlier = less time gaming. Once again my illness gets in the way of life.
So we got to school and once again school was difficult. I am just so tired. its hard to think or do anything heck this morning I couldnt be bothered to even speak to people!
A science teacher was turning 40 in the holidays and another science teacher came in from maternity leave to say hello to everyone, safe to say, there was a lot of cakes and chocolate....like seriously...-_____- I hate my life. So I was SO SO SO good at resisting all this loveliness. It killed me.
I got through the day anyway. Jack had his treats. Mum met me at home, she washed up for ^^; honestly that woman lives to clean. Oz was happy playing the garden. I announced to mum it was our 4th anniversary so we were talking about baby Ozwald. She had a cup of tea with us and I had my 2nd proper cup of tea of the day! i havent had 2 cups of tea in one day since before my diet. But i was so annoyed with missing out as much as I did today!
she left us and we had our stew, which was really nice. Then I played outside with Oz for the rest of the evening which was nice. I went for what I thought was a wee but my stomach was like "now I have your attention and you're on the toilet" and had other plans for me. And then thats when i died on the toilet. yet again....why!? so I basically skipped out on all those cakes and chocolates today for nothing!!!!! I swear if I have put weight on this week after all this physical and mental torture I will just give this damn diet up!!!!
So its made me later than I would have liked tonight, so I am gonna blitz through my exercises like I usually do then have a quick dip in the bath then let jack have the bath then watch inuyasha and go to god damn sleep.
Tomorrow
It is the last day of term!!! finally
it is also non-uniform for staff and students. Seeing as it is easter this weekend I am gonna wear a cute bunny top and a multicoloured checked skirt, with a bunny hair clip ^^
But I made sure to spend lots of time with Oz today, spoiled him to extra treats. He was shown even more love today X3 I love him so much. He is just my life I live for him. He does so much for me. he is the best and i best have many more anniversaries with him
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