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 Konbanwa~

Couldnt sleep last night, despite being tired. I kept trying to sleep but got up at 12:45 for pain killers, came to bed and still couldnt sleep so I woke jack. I took yet more pain killers and we watched an episode of black cat - my idea as i needed to take my mind off it all

we went to bed at like 2am T^T

so when we woke up at 8:20am and the electrician was suppose to come at 8:30am, safe to say we had a mad rush to get ready! jack let Oz out but literally as the electrician showed up we heard the tell tale sound of chain saw. My dad and his friend had arrived and had started!! So jack grabbed Oz inside as I didnt want him to freak. Then there was drilling inside cus of new power sockets >< quite a noisy morning!

Oz needed toilet so I put him home and stayed with a few mins to make sure he was ok and not stressed with the noise. But he seemed fine. He had been fine inside too. Cant believe how relaxed he had been actually. So then I decided to do my exercises and went into the bath when I had finished. The electrician left whilst I was in the bath. After I got dressed I cut jack's hair for him. then he had a bath.

We had lunch then rested a bit. we had Oz in a few times he was so sweet :)

I declared I wanted to go out despite being tired, just wanted to get out so we picked up bits from the range I had wanted for a while. All was well, we got a good haul and I spent £50! I brought sweet treats for jack and bath salts for me as my treat XD

we walked to the car and then jumped out my skin as next to my car was a sparrow hawk killing a pigeon. There was blood...I froze just totally transfixed. Jack said not to look at it and went to put the heavy bags in the car. I couldnt move I had frozen. The sparrow hawk had long flown off leaving this pigeon bleeding, coughing up blood. It was suffering. It was horrible. Jack pulled me away, took my bags off me and told me to get in the car. I was in shock i think as i was panting and crying. I just wasnt ready for that!!! Jack drove us home as I was too shook up for that. I stopped shedding tears but I was very drained after that. Jack did tell me as he got in the car the pigeon did fly off.

we got home and he made me tea and got Oz in for me and made sure I was ok

i said "how come you didnt freak out?" 

he said "I saw your reaction and just went into 'make sure Jo is ok' mode" he knows me and how rapidly my body can protest and not function. He knows how to look after me ^^

after I recovered - I ate my sweet juicy pomegranate - we did dinner

I did jack such a good dinner he was so happy with it, omelette, thick bacon, hash browns, beans with sausages in. He loved it XD

we cleared up and came on our computers

i ordered a few bits online like new trainers as mine look tired and i ordered hair bows. Wanted new things really as I havent been able to go out and buy anything cus of lock down :/

all cheap stuff anyway~

I did some drawing, continued from the other night, I want to draw a girl in a bath of blood~

tomorrow

we will get up early for our weekly shop

then I might pop see mum for an hour, and do my weekly weigh in!

I have Oz to clean out, soup to make, bathroom to clean, exercises to do, school to get ready for!