going to bed alone tonight

 Evening

Due to me literally dying last night I didnt get to try out my dumbbells or do any exercise for that matter. My stomach stuck out like I was pregnant. It hurt so so much like my intestines were being squeezed. So painful. I just wanted sleep. I took a sleeping tablet but to be honest I hardly slept I woke up so many times it wasnt fair. So I was quite tired when i woke up at 7:30am but I left Jack in bed til 8:15am.

We got up and I made us omelette with the leftover eggs for breakfast as they would go out of date today so that made a change from meat

we went food shopping, then picked up a few bits from B&M then light cable things from B&Q and Jack let me pick up a couple of baby cacti ^^ I was happy :D So I brought them home and watered them well as they were so dry and it has revived them! I was done in from all the shopping tho. Jack packed away and made me a hot drink. he said I had looked like death all morning.

But I got up and Jack helped me make soup, whilst it cooked I cleaned Oz out and cleaned the bathroom. Then had soup. Then I reluctantly went to bed. I didnt want to but I needed to. 

I got up and we had a brew outside with Oz, I suggested to go for a walk but I was tired, I just felt like I needed to do something but it started to rain so that made the decision for me. I came inside and watched stuff on my laptop then made dinner.

We had dinner then Jack went to go game with Harvey and Theo, I told Jack that as its bank holiday, we have nothing to get up for, the weather is suppose to be crap so if he wants to stay up gaming with the guys he is welcome to, I will be alone tonight and I think I can manage that. He did all his admin jobs today which is bill paying, he manages all the money so it doesnt stress me out. He puts up with a lot so I think hes earned a late gaming night here and there. I just hope I dont get disturbed too bad when he comes to bed >< I cant remember the last time I went to bed by myself actually

I didnt die on the toilet this morning which was nice. I dont feel right mentally tho. Just something not quite right somehow. But I will try to keep going

Tonight I would like to have a go with my dumbbells! Then I might have a bit of a pamper~ do my nails as well.

Tomorrow

my dad is coming over at some point to help with the light fittings. Im hoping my mum comes over to visit me too. I have a bit of cooking/baking to do. Not sure what else we will do. Jack has chores to do such as hoovering and painting the walls were the old radiators were.