Konbanwa~~
I could not sleep last night, proper wound with anxiety, was starting to feel sick
so yeah took a while to sleep -______-
This morning I did not want to go school, but seems there was bigger issues at hand
namely that of Jack and his arsehole
in the hour I was up before school he had to literally run to the toilet 4 times, he was pale as well
he said he did not trust his arse in the car to make it to school
I think it was the curry leftovers. I think the curry should have been consumed on the saturday night not the sunday lunch time....especially as one of those items was a yoghurt thing. Yes it was fridged but I still think it maybe shouldnt have been eaten yesterday ^^; he doesnt learn >.>
So I had to go to school by myself!!!!!!
I was ok about this but my body was fuelled by adrenaline, I was sweating, my heart was going out of rhythm and I felt sick.
I DID NOT GET A SINGLE BREAK FOR 4 HOURS
the whole time I was school I was on the go
even our tea break was ruined by teachers, who despite can see you with a brew in one hand and biscuit in the other, still stand there shouting demands at you for things that dont have to be done that very second -_____- I was stressed as hell. I also had an physics demonstration to do for first period which I was why out my depth for so asked head of physics for help. I got the equipment and handed it to hannah there was no way I knew how to set it up.
Julia's daughter - sarah - she came in and she didnt get to do much work with me as Julia kept taking her off but that was fine, I didnt mind. Im sure I will get my time to work with her. We got to talk about anime for all of 3mins.
I left school, and felt like running to my car. I kept it together all the way home
but as soon as I got through the front door and saw Jack I just broke down crying
I had been so stressed and exhausted that I think it just all came out as one release
poor Jack, not what he wanted to see when I get home!
I rang my mum and told her about the day.
We had lunch and then I went to bed
Jack had been to the toilet in the double figures. At 3pm he threw up but said he felt much better after that. He bought his lunch up. But since he has not had to go toilet.
Dinner was really good even if I was the only one eating. Jack later did himself buttered toast, which I didnt hear him do as I had fallen asleep again
He offered for me to have food but I said no as I have been greedy lately but he was able to justify everything I had eaten today so asked
"are you saying these things to make me feel better or am I having an issue about food lately?"
he said "No Jo you have been having food issues lately"
I think I am over eating, over indulging
I need to watch this....
I did a bit of yoga then had a bath
I am hoping that Jack is at school tomorrow I can not face going in alone tomorrow
im sure he's hoping hes feeling better think hes fed up of the bathroom scenery today!
I rang up for my altered hour doctors note to be extended by the doctor until 16th
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