I would like to go school tomorrow!

 Evening

I had to get up just for about 15-20mins til 11:40pm as I needed pain killers and more food. Whats up with me!? literal bottomless pit I can not remember being so starved for days on end. We all get the odd hungry day but this like day 3 of sheer hunger!!!

I did sleep pretty well after that. Dreamed of being a wolf then I had a dream where I went to Mia's craft fair and she asked me to get something from her car, I decided to drive it but I left the handbreak off and it wheeled off by itself and crashed...I didnt know what to do XD so I woke up

I got up at 8am, Tara had messaged me to say she had a great birthday. James had arranged for them to feed the tigers at the zoo! How exciting! That is an experience and a half. She also loved my present. She said she doesnt want to use it but I told her she needs to!!

This morning I did feel quite rotten and didnt have much voice, however I still dragged myself round the supermarket and it about killed me off!! Jack unpacked as always and we brought Oz in for a brew and fruit loaf, our usual sunday routine. Then jack helped me do my soup

He hasnt done much all weekend. He has hoovered and did an hour of gardening but apart from that he has literally just been on his phone. Id be so bored and feel its such a waste of time!! hes only reading too hes not playing games or messaging people. Literally reading crap. Dont know why hes done bugger all this weekend. I didnt have the energy to tell him to do something.

I did a bit more digital drawing for the first time in a long time!!

I made biscuits as I have scoffed them all, I cooked my meat for breakfast for the week and did dinner. So much food!! I have eaten a lot today also. I managed 25mins of yoga. Had an hour's sleep

Jack has said we will see how I am in the morning whether I can go school or not, I have said I am going. He said "we will see" and gave me a look that said 'no arguments' jesus >.> Ive told mum Im going and dropping Oz off for daycare

I thought about Oz and daycare. Mum lives less than 3 streets away, streets that are like 60houses long not 500. She lives a very short journey, no traffic lights ether. Oz needs to suck it up. As if he doesnt go to daycare come winter time, it is dark when we get home from school and before school. I will boot him outside before school as it does get a little brighter towards leaving the house, however I am less happy about him being out after 4pm during the winter. Its cold and dark. So if hes not at mum's during the day he literally will only be going outside for an hour each morning everyday thats it. all other time will be indoors. So he is going daycare damn it. Its for his own well being as he will become lazy and inactive - more so >.>

I had a nice pamper in the bath

we had Oz in for over an hour he loved it

I hope I sleep tonight

tomorrow is school and I would like to go!