She lost Todd

 Evening

I kinda forgot to do my diary, when I was gonna do it my brother rang then I just forgot!

My monday was ok as far as mondays go

I had a lot on and a practical I had got to get ready but no one thought to tell me they werent actually doing it til wednesday....thanks for that

we saw people queuing for fuel when we left for school and when we came home. Madness.

I couldnt wait to finish school I was tired

I had an easy enough dinner, but didnt feel like exercising. However I still did exercise for 10mins

I also got my occupational health report which Jack read then he gave me the gist as I didnt want to read it really. He says they cant discipline me from reading that so that made me feel better

my brother rang me for 20mins which was nice

we were in bed for 9:10pm I was done 

I didnt sleep too bad but I had been aching in bed and couldnt get off to sleep so at 10:20pm I got up for pain killers and dosed myself up

I didnt want to go to school this morning

my day was hard as I knew it was going to be. Had 6 practicals and the big 2 to get ready for tomorrow as well. Jack has helped me but all day my pain killers have done nothing. Not even touched it. Like they were empty tablets. I even took an extra dose at work but it did nothing but give my liver a harder time. I wanted to cry in the afternoon as I had been in agony all day with no let up. I mean I ache constantly my whole life but pain killers do take the intensity off. This was just awful and it becomes relentless. I have to think and do my job in this state whereas all i want to do is go to sleep so i can escape pain.

we prepped all we could for the morning as we are gonna be late tomorrow morning!

we came home and brought Oz in as it was raining. Jack made me fruit loaf and tea and it was amazing especially combined with a lot of pain killers. I went to lay on the bed for 40mins not that I slept but I just needed the comfort of bed.

I did dinner as it was noodles and I used a sauce instead of making a broth just to save me

I am not exercising tonight, I want an easy night of just soaking in a HOT bath and then having an early night this is what I will do. Self care

tomorrow

its school and we are going to the butchers to pick up 65 pork & lamb hearts. They dont open til 8am and we normally start school at 7:50am. So we will be a bit late. I imagine we will be there for first lesson however we have done as much as possible for first lesson and Julia knows the score.

I just hope I feel better tomorrow and not have another day of this

I was suppose to see mummy today but no way could I do that after school.

Mia sent me sad news whilst at school, Todd her family dog was put to sleep today. He was 17. I really liked Todd. I had known him since the first day she got him and I grew up with him really. He was the only dog I had gotten to know as previously I was quite scared round dogs. He made me put trust in dogs and not just think theyre all out to bite me. She said she is very upset which I can imagine bless her.