Evening
I feel I didn't sleep too well. I kept waking up cold and achy which wasnt nice. I also got up for a wee. I felt tired when i got up this morning.
I was anxious in the car about school
and I have had an off day - mentally - today
I have teared up at work, I got frustrated with myself. I have allowed myself to be mentally drained which has drained my energy. Jack ended up helping me a lot today with my jobs as I was just so done. I felt like I weighed double. Everything was an effort. I couldnt wait to go home
I had a lot of practicals, I got spoken to rudely by a certain teacher who I dont like. She is so rude to me which sets my anxiety off massively. Sometimes I feel stupidly anxious about fetching her stuff in from her classroom as I am worried about what she is going to say to me. Its no bullying, shes just rude.
We got home and I had a tea and some fruit loaf then 50mins in bed as I was done. Jack went to garden with Oz. Wish I had that energy. Then I did 30mins of yoga which was hard but felt better for doing it. We had dinner and now I think I will have a bath.
Doing nothing else tonight anyway
Jack was gaming last night but came to bed the same time as me as Harvey and Theo were tired so they all finished at 9pm! I think Jack is coming to bed with me tonight. I wish to be cuddled up with him.
I want an easy night of nothingness
tomorrow is school
got the same amount of practicals TT^TT
I hope theres no tears tomorrow tho
I wish to have a better day tomorrow
amazing how mental health varies day to day - hour to hour
yesterday I did really well at work. Totally different story today
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