what a night but its holidays now!!!

 Evening

What happened last night? like just what happened TT^TT

I was in bed for 9:10pm after having an evening alone, I wouldnt need to get up til 7am so I felt happy knowing I would be getting a good nights sleep for once.

However, this was NOT the case T^T I woke up at 3am and that was that then

I was up. In pain. Like growing pains all over, I took both pain killers but I may as well have taken sugar tablets, they did NOTHING. I didnt know what to do. I had tried going back to bed. When I got up for the 2nd time (after Jack elbowed me in the face T^T) He sat up right in bed

"whats up jo?"

"im getting up for the 2nd time, im in pain and struggling"

"i'll get up with you"

"no no its fine honestly"

he laid back down and as soon as his head hit the pillow he was gone. Like that. Gone

so envious TT^TT

so I stayed up til 5am, then tried to sleep in bed but couldnt really. I looked at the clock and it was 6:45am then next thing I knew my alarm was going off. I had fallen asleep in those final 15mins

how cruel is my life. I felt like death this morning

If it had been a normal school day I wouldnt have gone. My body was shaking. I was shattered. Physically and mentally exhausted

Jack was like "you look bad"

yup white face and lilac lips would get that said to you

"well you know I didnt sleep well"

"no i dont"

"jack you offered to get up with me, you sat up in bed"

"did I?"

yeah I had wondered if he was actually awake, turns out he wasnt! Its very odd. Im talking to someone in their sleep.

We got ready for school, I brushed my hair but didnt do anything with it, no accessory and just whacked very baggy old clothes on. I couldnt care less today

I didnt join in with anything going off with the staff and neither did Jack or Julia for a change. Usually its just me who doesnt bother going to the whole school meeting (I get too anxious)

so it was us 3 but I had my headphones on and did some jobs - somehow

then sat and painted but wasnt enjoying it, was soon running out of the will to live

it was a very slow 4 hours T^T

at 12:20pm we got to leave as we werent staying for lunch

we came home and saw Ozwald and then had lunch

I was in bed for 1:30pm I had in my mind I would go over to mum's 3:30pm

I woke up at 4pm....jesus. I never ever sleep THAT long during the day. but shows my exhaustion

I txt her at 4pm "just woke up! give me 5!"

I went over for an hour to have a brew and a cup cake she made and a sit with the girls

I am seeing her again tomorrow morning as Truffs needs a hair cut desperately 

mum warned me that truffs had got attitude today but as soon as she sat on me she curled up and got cozy I even got licks. She likes me ^^ Was my first guinea sit without molly tho. Usually I get both tilly and truffle and mum has molly. but now mum has tilly and I have truffs. I have to share tilly!

I got home and did the dinner

then after dinner I planned out a rough outline of what I want to do each day in the holiday, then did a 20min work out which was an effort and wasnt even that hard

had a lovely hot bath and now just with Oz

I have had Jack all evening as his gaming got cancelled, dont usually have him on a  friday evening but not complaining. We havent spent much time together so it will be nice to watch anime tonight.

tomorrow

recovery really. Jo needs rest -______- and seeing mum and truffs for hair cut~

thank god its the holidays. Dont think I could have lasted much longer....