Cried already at work even tho Im part time!

 Evening

Last night we found out that Jack didnt get the job he interviewed for during easter holidays

I could tell he was disappointed. I feel bad for him but getting a new job is NOT that easy. Yes his current job has been his only job and only place he interviewed for. He practically walked into it. Hes never experienced how job hunting truly is. Me on the other hand - Ive had shed loads of interviews! 

I did feel for him tho as I could he was disappointed

I laid awake in bed thinking about careers for us both and money

im quite stressed out if I am honest

I had anxiety on the journey to school

I broke down in tears around 9:30am at school

I am expected to some how do 8 hours work in 4 hours

i mean we are already doing the work of another person due to school being to tight to high more technicians. We should have 2 more technicians to match the amount of hours of science practicals we do. And now cus of me we have got to do even more work

I broke down

I feel more miserable, unsupported, exploited and stressed than I did before becoming part time. The amount of work  HAS NOT CHANGED and yet I am expected to it? I am gonna make myself so sick in not much time. Honestly today, if I could afford it, I would have handed my notice in then and there. Jack was cut up about it all. Its obviously not nice seeing your loved one so upset but he also feels a bit responsible as hes my line manager.

So we sat down and said that the amount of practical hours has got to match with our technician hours. Julia had 16 washing up bowls of washing up on her prep room floor as she had refused to stay hours late after her shift (no over time paid)  to wash up, she usually does stay and we say GO HOME! but she says "yes but who will do it?" we said today if she sticks to her actual working hours and goes home and leaves the washing up then one day we will run out of clean equipment and maybe people will see how much extra time is needed. Head of science had agreed that if we dont have enough technician hours to fill practical hours then some practicals would need to be cut - he agreed to this when I was off work sick. But I feel it still needs to hold up now.

so Jack emailed head of science as I was leaving saying we are cutting back practicals as we dont have enough technician hours. Head of science hasnt responded....

I broke my back leaning over doing all the micro biology work

I went home exhausted, had a grouch at my poor mum waiting to meet me here

she went home, I ate lunch and went bed for 45mins. I decided not to sleep and to get up and do some painting. I enjoyed myself actually. I needed that tune off time. I also had a look at jobs. Jack has another - better - job to apply for at the weekend. It would be a dream if he got that job!!!!!

I picked Jack up from the chippy he had got a chippy tea and I warmed some korean noodles from the freezer for my dinner

after dinner I did another grow with jo mood boost, brought Oz in for some fuss as he looked like orphan all day. He has loved fuss. He definitely enjoys being inside >.> I had a bath now doing diary. Probably watch anime and go bed.

tomorrow its friday thank god.

i hate my job. I am so unhappy there. so unappreciated. The sooner we both leave the better