31c + upping antidepressant

 Evening

It was warm last night @.@ I was aching in bed so I got up and took extra tablets I was only up til 11pm so it wasnt too bad

I dreamed about karen again. My dream was me crying to her husband Si, asking him how hes able to be so strong as I am still upset about losing her. Yeah guess im still healing from losing her ><; 

My legs hurt this morning. i was so disappoints T^T I really thought I would be able to go to school. Jack told me all was well, to stay home and take it easy. I had got work to do but I just wanted to go school with my Jack.

Instead I worked all morning, and got my picture done

Ive been keeping Oz where its coolest, depending on where the sun is! So hes out in the garden as its shaded now. This country isnt able to handle 31c!! Hes been good boy and hasnt been panting much, think the trimmed coat makes a difference!

I had a quick 45min sleep after my lunch and Mum came over for a bit then she took me too reflex as Jack had my car. 

reflex was nice, most relaxed Ive been since errrm my last massage? so yeah it was nice and didnt hurt much at all! I almost fell asleep! She said my glands the make the stress hormone was bad and she said my body felt tired. yup thats me! 

Mum picked me up and she kindly took me to the garden centre as its on the same street. I picked up 4 baby cacti, cacti soil and a plant for my rabbit planter outside ^^ I was very happy but I had managed to 2mm long baby thorns stuck in 3 fingers from a cacti - I didnt buy that one thank god

but i needed to get the thorns out but needed twicers as they were so tiny, I could see my fingers going red and blotchy, I have had a bad reaction to a cacti before in my fingers. Luckily I got home and saw to that, took a while as they were sooo small! Jack was home ^^

we had dinner and sweated to death having dinner -______- then had a cool bath which was nice, I could have slept in that bath!! 

Jack has gone to game upstairs, I hope he doesnt die in the heat up there. But knowing him he will hyper-focus and not notice the heat >.>

As for me, god knows what I will do. Its too hot -___- just too hot. God knows how we will sleep tonight 0.0; 

Tonight I am upping my antidepressant. I currently take 3 tablets a day I am suppose to take 4 I have never taken 4. 4 is the max. once I have got used to 4 and 4 stops working. thats it. I will have to change antidepressant. SOMETHING I DO NOT WANT TO DO! So I have been very hesitant to up my dose as I dont wanna get to the stage of needing to change. I always always get to the stage were medication no longer works. But this has been the best antidepressant I have ever been on and this is my 7th antidepressant to. Venlafaxine. It stops the voices. I am worried about the side effects. it is gonna me VERY tired. always does when I have upped it. But its come to it. I need to.

Tomorrow I have got hair cut in the morning~ and cleaning Oz out too in the morning, maybe do the bathroom too. My biggest bestest thing to do tomorrow tho, it have a mammoth sort out of my cacti!!! going to be so much mess and repotting!!! Might do the food shop in the evening too