Be grateful for the downgrade I guess

 Evening

I slept pretty well last night and got up at 7:30am

I got ready and went over to mummy's at 9

we went to the shops and were gone like 2 hours -_____- to say we had both had enough was an understatement. We were done!! It was worth the trip tho I got new plant pots ^^ I got garage door paint

we came back here and had a cup of tea and a biscuit.

Then I took the 3 of us up to dad's garage uughhh

the reception was awful. Why is my dad so rude? why does he hate me so much? why is he such an arse hole?

I grabbed the keys and took me and Jack for test drive 1min down the road. 

The car is like a copper Corsa 2003 banger. Like she old. She very uncomfortable. She is a massive down grade to what I had. I finally felt like more of an adult as I had an actual DECENT car. And this....this is just depressing. I came back and told mum the seats feel knackered its super uncomfortable and I want to pay the 2grand to fix my car.

But after my melt down had subsided I understood that throwing money at my car would only be wasteful, it also wouldnt guarantee that £2000 would fix the issue it may need MORE. So it would be a money pit basically. I was also grateful that we even had another car. I could be car-less and have to survive off buses. I also was grateful of the fact that my car hasnt actually exploded yet so I will still have something to sell, not just £400 of scrap metal value.

we came away with both cars.

I had lunch at home

then decided I would have a cry

yup

cus I was tired, stressed out a lot and didnt know which way to turn

I was having a massive down grade in car, in some uncomfortable heap

Its so unfair that my car is dead anyway

I would need to sell my car

SORN my car off the road

Tax 'new' one

Insure 'new' one 

A CLEAN IT

dear god did it need a clean

I had zero energy. I cried til my face stung. I was just stressed and tired

I rang my mum

I told her how it was

I was to go over to hers to start cleaning the car. She was gonna do it alone but I couldnt allow that. I was still upset when Jack found me. I actually was starting to feel dizzy and faint from exhaustion so he said to just go bed and he will clean the car

he rang mum and told her whats what. She came here to help Jack clean the car. I laid on the bed and calmed down. My eyes felt huge and hot my face stung.

After they clean for almost 90mins (just interior for now) mummy went home she was shattered.

We sat a minute then I had a shower, did the dinner. I looked at selling my current one and I got a quote which was £2750 but I doubt that I will receive that much once they see it. They will never give the quote they just give you a high quote to make you bring the car through the door. I am not stupid. Despite never doing this before. 

I am not sure what I am doing the rest of tonight. I have nothing else to give. I didnt even exercise as my body was shaking from exhaustion.

so tomorrow~

wooooo bring on tomorrow -_____-

gotta get up at 7:30am so we can get out early for food shopping. Then I suppose I will have car admin to sort. Then Jack at 1pm is gaming online with Chris and friends. I dont know what I am doing tomorrow afternoon. Sleep and more SLEEP......