Our first BBQ

 Evening~~~

I cried another time yesterday before I went to sleep. My eyes felt so swollen but I was struggling with negative thoughts, a lot about my dad.

This morning I felt very flat and energyless, great on a day youre suppose to be entertaining!

So we got up and we tidied up a bit, I did a work out and had a shower then cleaned the bathroom. Jack went to the shops once they were open for BBQ meat as we couldnt store it in the fridge as we have a caravan fridge, we couldnt put drinks in the fridge ether cus no room 

His family came over just after 12, I had been laying on my bed for half hour, making the most of being quiet. 

Jack had lit the BBQ but the food should have gone on earlier as I was struggling to cook the damn thing, I got some thinner things cooked but the rest was just being lightly steamed --_____-- I kept saying it to him and in the end he decided to give me more charcoal T^T finally!!! I then could cook and I cooked everything so damn well too~~

Oh but whilst we had been outside something massive happened....we have new neighbours!!!! The house next door to us has been empty about 6+months and today the new owners showed up, some chaved up woman. Yeah they look classy...just hope they havent got brats and dogs. Oh my god the dogs behind us wouldnt shut up all day. The whole morning none stop they barked but then I think the owners did realise we had guests so brought the dogs in. But what they do you see is, rather than take them to the park 1-2mins walk down the road they lock them outside to bark and bark and bark as they are full of energy and dont appreciate being locked out their home. Then once they come inside you can STILL hear them barking and the owners telling them to shut up. Why dont you take your dog for an effing walk huh!? why do people have dogs if they want nothing to do with them. I lose my patience so much to that household. Its the dogs that suffer. but they literally have no control over them and theyre big dogs too.

anyway ^^;

We went into the lounge because it was getting warm outside and my garden has zero shade in the afternoon, so we sat round indoors, I didnt want people to burn despite the sun block 

We had cake they bought round and just talked, it was nice. I was getting exhausted from being social for 4 hours straight 

They eventually left at 4:30pm and then we had the clear up to do which wasnt too bad as we had used disposable forks and plates, they were some Jacks mum had already so we thought it would help with the washing up. 

I went to chill out in the bath and I couldnt wait to rid myself of the smell of smoke as I had been cooking in it. Jack went into the bath and I threw all our clothes in the wash with the towel wash I had delayed til this evening as I usually do it in the morning but I didnt want clothes festering of smoke for days. Jack is gonna do the washing up now. I might do some painting but I just want my bed. I am tired. Its been nice tho and Jack thanked me for today he didnt need to 

Oz tho, my goodness that bun, he was just being overly bunny cute and getting attention. He did find it hard at the start as hes never had a BBQ here before and hes not really used to having people over he did eventually tune off and go to sleep in the room with us

tomorrow

got another long day ahead, do I get an easy day!? -___- suppose to be holidays damn it

should be seeing mia in the morning to do wedding prep

then 4pm I have a massage, mum will probably want to see me between those two.

but not got to cook as theres so much BBQ meat left!!