Evening
I didn't sleep well last due to bad stomach like real bad stomach. I was up til 1am just dying on the toilet. I felt drained of life.
I got up at 6:30am and felt poorly, like death, I staggered to the toilet, did my teeth and went back to bed. Told Jack id work from home and do it later. I wanted nothing more than to be in a coma for a week. id had enough.
I thought id wake up around 8am. no. I could feel myself trying to wake up and seeing glimmers of the clock on the wall but it was like I had been drugged, I couldnt wake up. I was trying and trying. when I was finally allowed out the dream i was having it was 10:30am
10:30am!!! I felt sooo rough. But thats probably due to me not digesting anything including my meds last, and taking todays medication 4 hours late. I was starting to feel panicked because I felt unwell, and it was already 10:30am and I hadnt actually done any work yet!!! I tried to calm myself down but I could my heart hammering and my I was panting. At this point I rang jack. If anything else I wanted to be well for him so we could play new pokemon together
he calmed me down as I think I was on the verge of a panic attack. He said I could work at any point today it was fine. To eat, take my meds, fuss Oz. Yeah he made me feel better
I ate a bit with my meds and had lunch at midday then I worked til 2pm without a break, yeah I was determined to get stuff done! My mum turned up at this point. So I might do some more work over the weekend. Mum came with new pokemon which arrived at 1:50pm. so I texted Jack to say it was here.
Mum stayed for an hour, I ran a bath and did a 15mins work out video and felt better for moving my body, I think after that I wanna get into work out videos again. They had fallen off the page a bit due to poor health but I wanna try again with them even if I dont complete the whole video.
I had a bath, Jack came in and had a bath. We opened Pokemon together. Did dinner, then Jack washed up. We're gonna take Oz home 40mins early to bed then go food shopping
we'll come home, unpack, get into pyjamas and binge pokemon til midnight. My plan! Jack was up for it. Means we can without interruptions
I will still do stuff tomorrow but Jack has said he is having a pyjama day and playing pokemon which is fair enough.
Oz has been good boy bless him. Being left alone in the living room for 3+ hours this morning! such a good bun.
we finished the second season of science fell in love last night which was good
we're gonna watch second season of cells at work next~
so tomorrow will be pokemon and chores for me
I really hope pokemon scarlet has been worth the wait!
flowers mum got us when we got engaged
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