we're just so both tired

 Evening

I couldnt sleep last night, jack got up with me. We went back to bed at 10:30pm but I couldnt sleep. I also didnt have the heart to wake him again. I was up til 1am playing disgaea, anything to distract me from thinking about myself, my pain, the meeting i had had

I woke up at 5:50am and cuddled Jack a little bit but didnt dare fully relax as I was frightened of falling asleep on him and not getting up for school. So I did get up but god the temptation to just cuddle with him in bed for ages was so strong

so this morning I was shattered. I still went to school tho cus I thought I would improve

I noticed Jack was tired,  he wasnt his usual self and was runned off his feet bless him

i kept going but I had no brain power, I was shattered, i hurt everywhere and I had zero energy. I must have looked  like a pale zombie today

It got to 10am and I thought "am I safe to drive home" so I bought this up with Jack and he said "if you went home now could you drive" I said "im not sure" he said "right thats it youre not driving"

so the choice was he ether take me home and go school, so that takes an hour out of his busy day or I ring mummy. I rang mummy. She very kindly picked me up after my shift

I can not tell you how grateful I was 

I got home, got Oz in, put the chicken in the slow cooker, had lunch, bed

woke up 2 hours later and even then I found it very difficult to wake up

I got up and sat round with Ozwald

I then finished a couple of christmas and birthday cards

Jack came home, he was helping with the dinner, I made some banana biscuits, we were in the kitchen a while cus we had to prepare tomorrow's curry. 

we had dinner, Jack had a whisky with his

we were just so exhausted. I said to him that maybe we should have an early night, cuddle up with switchs and just sleep. I found medication sleeping tablets - very rare - in my cupboard. Jack says he will have another whisky and hopefully we will both sleep and feel loads better

we worshiped the loaf after dinner. He loves Jack so much. Jack once again was groomed

Jack took Oz to bed whilst I had a nice hot soak.

doing my diary then yeah, early night.

tomorrow is school

and i am so hoping I can go. Jack has arranged work for me to do at home if needed but I really dont wanna work from home. But just gonna have to see how I am >.>

please let us sleep tonight!