in the 2kg section!!

 Evening

Jesus, what a week

Only one day out of the weekdays did I get to rest after work.....

there was just a lot on this week

I went out one day for mum's birthday for tea and cake! yes I had a break from my diet! and it was nice dont get me wrong but yeah I dont feel like im missing 'normal' foods that much anymore. But I had a nice time just doing that with mummy

then another day it was actually mum's birthday so she came to open presents and also a window was changed

another day my brother was going for the DT technician job so I was txting him, mum, Jack. Phone calls all afternoon. Jeez it was stressful. But on the plus my brother got the job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am SO happy I am so pleased for him. his boss wasnt expecting him to get a job so fast! it was brilliant and they let him leave on friday.

Another day I did Julia's daughter's hair (sarah) for picture day at school bless her and did a tiny bit of make up too! shes never had any hair or make up done bless her, she looked so mature! I hope shes happy with that photo but I havent seen her since to ask about it

I ended up having 2 working from home days this week just because work and home life has been full on that I was left a bit burnt out come friday morning. 

I also did mum's hair another day as she was going out for a meal with friends for her other friend's birthday treat. Yeah this week was A LOT!

Im hoping for a much quieter week this week!!!

Today has been A LOT

whats wrong with me this week!? cut me some slack life >.>

we got up for food shop, came home and I cleaned loaf out - oh speaking of loaf! its saturday so bunny slimming world day and so we weighed him and he weighed 2.9kg!!!!! how fantastic is that! hes doing so well and Im helping him through it, its a big achievement to get off the 3kh section!

then I marinated some meat, put other meat in the slow cooker, cleaned the bathroom. Then we realised oz was in a bit a mess so we had to sort his bum out bless him. I know whats done it its that dried apple it goes through him sometimes so I have found locus beans to give him instead. Then we both cleaned the car well just washed it anyway. The roads are filthy this time of year so I dont do it as much in the winter but it was getting to the stage were it was hard to see through the smearing of the windscreen wipers! 

so I was done, fell asleep on my bed for half hour

then I was struggling to motivate myself for exercise so I asked Jack if he'd do a walk with me and so we went for a 40 mins walk, had a bath and did dinner

oh I havent lost weight this week, I didnt feel like I had so that was good. Dont wanna drop it every week otherwise thats not healthy. I dont want to ever be 45kg again. I still have plenty of meat on me but I dont know what I weigh. Jack weighs 73kg and says he weighs more than me so I suppose thats something XD

tomorrow, just got a bit of cooking to do in the morning 

then I hope for a bloody easier day!!!!

next week

we actually dont have anything on

my brother would be allowed to come start his new job at school but hes waiting for his DBS to come through so until then hes got time to himself! id rather get him into school before his anxiety cane build too high....

we have teacher strikes on wednesday something we have never experienced before so that will be odd 

so yeah hopefully an easier week next week!

and hopefully loaf will be 2.8kg!

100g down

 Evening

Ahhhh what a week!!!

Monday I was off school sick I was still suffering massively with the stomach bug. I managed to attend the rest of the week with a huge struggle honestly. I think I am just about over it. After talking to staff about it it was amazing how many of us were off poorly with it! everyone said same thing that it takes like a week to go and had green poo. Awful bug

My brother was offered an interview for the DT technician job which is happening tomorrow at 9am!

I had a massage on friday which crippled me

I weighed my Ozwald this weekend, his first weigh in at Bunny Slimming World XD he lost 100g!!!! how good is that for week one!! But I know it will slow down. So he's gone from 3.1kg to 3kg. I am looking forward to him being in the 2kg section!!! Hopefully next week!

we went to get him some fancy hay today, his 1.5kg box of fancy Norfolk leaves arrived in the week and he likes it and likes making a mess with it. I have been going out everyday but Friday with him. Help him burn those calories

to be honest I have spent A LOT of time with him this week. I know first hand how  much diets SUCK and I know when I am distracted I dont feel the hunger as much so I have spent all my free time with him. Normally when I would do house jobs or art i spent with him, fussing him, playing with him, chilling with him. I am fully supporting his little diet and helping him through it. He has so much choice of food right now too!

I also lost more weight this week. I can tell my body has lost weight from even a month ago cus of the way my tummy and thighs look. I feel better in myself I have to say for losing some weight

tomorrow~

my brother is coming to school at 9am for his intense ass interview. He gets lunch! how long and intense is this freaking interview, jesus. No wonder hes terrified. I did go see the DT teacher and talk to him and he cant wait to meet my brother. I have a meeting at 10am with someone and Jack to discuss my health which is gonna be a HUGE waste of time but hey its time I dont have to work! jack has doctors so will be leaving school a bit earlier. Yeah a lot on tomorrow!

the rest of the week is ok

wednesday going out for a cup of tea with mum for her birthday

thursday is her birthday so I get to give her gifts

and thats it I think?

ahhh I took a real cute picture of Oz this week but forgot to upload it. Never mind

Massively body shamed

 Evening

It's been another week~

Last week I did wed-fri at school as we returned on wednesday. This week I did mon-weds at school, started to not feel good on weds, mum picked me up when I finished work. Thursday I worked from home doing online training, friday I had to day of sick

I have had a stomach bug. I wont go into details as it wasnt pretty. I can tell you this tho, I have lost weight! I still dont feel 100% and some foods when I eat feel like literal food poisoning. But I am on the mend! 

Friday Oz had the vets so no matter how I was feeling I needed to take my little boy for his vaccinations. The vet was really lovely but massively body shamed my baby!!!!

she commented on his chest, his bingo wings, his pouch on his tummy. My poor Oz!! She weighed him.....he's suppose to be 2kg, hes 3KG!!!!

we talked about his diet and I get where I am going wrong now, its amazing how little things have crept and just happened and when i think about his diet, he is a very loved and spoilt bun. We are killing him with kindness. 

so he is going on a diet. I let him off today tho as I wasnt sure if he was gonna feel a bit off due to his vaccination but hes been fine

hes got to have hardly any pellets per day

up to 3 pieces of fruit a week

plenty of hay and grass

currently, he gets unlimited supply of pellets (as I dont want him to have an empty dish I never want him to be hungry I didnt want to be cruel), he gets carrot slices twice a day, piece of fruit once a day, grass and hay, 2 treats

So we are going to be weighing out his pellets, no fruit, carrot slices will be a lot smaller, his treats will be dried fruit. I ordered 1kg of this fancy ass rummage leaf stuff yesterday.

I will make more of an effort to be outside with him to motivate him into moving instead of loafing.

I need to do this in order to prolong his life. I shouldnt have let it get this bad. I feel awful. Jack is on board with it all and will support me with his diet. I want to things well so he doesnt become unhappy

I must say tho he was such a good boy at the vets and co-operated and was just so well behaved. I was very proud. the vet had no other worries apart from his weight

Jack's treat cupboard on the other hand tho, guess who's self is who's. This is from christmas

today, I didnt have to do food shop as Jack kindly did it after school on friday cus I wasnt feeling up to it. Dad took the car for an MOT and that passed all fine so that was good.

My brother came over to apply for a job at my school! he got some feedback from his job this week and thought enough is enough and wants a new job and that DT technician job is still going at school so he wanted Jack's help in applying for it :) be weird if hes at school too. I wouldnt mind of course and I just want him to be happy. I would be fine if he decided it wasnt for him and didnt stay long. But his job does suck and take the pee

tomorrow

just cooking food, I hope I feel ok, Id like to see my weekend before i go back to school. 

next week, just another week at school and got massage on friday :)

Oz's 6th Birthday!

 It's 2023~

so what. Who cares. Its just the date changing. I never celebrate it. We might as well celebrate the first of each month, how is it any different? Pointless. 

Anyway we had our first week back at work, everyone said the same thing that it was hard work, tiring and that they were hungry XD we'd all had two weeks of stuffing our faces and eating when we like right? 

I found work quite hard work. Couldnt believe Id only done 3 mornings. Felt a lot more than that!!

It was a same old week apart from we have a new head of department. He's ok I guess. 

Yesterday marked a very special day

it was my loaf's 6th birthday!! I was so thrilled. 

I have had 4 buns

only my first bun Sky made it to 6

Kip made it to 2

Tiffin only lived to 1

Now my Oz has made it as far as Sky! I hope he over takes Sky!! You can do it my Ozwald~

We bought him a new grassy hay house thing as he had devoured his, and a willow grass ball.

He hopped straight into the house no hesitation as he's used to them and I think it was a sign he'd missed his and appreciated his gift. He didnt bother to so much as sniff the willow ball but I did find it later literally dismantled -____- maybe that one should have gone in his cage. It has made a lot of mess on the carpet but I am just happy he is pleased with his gifts ^^

I hate buying pet stuff like toys and treats and they end up not liking them.

I love my Oz so much tho, he is my life. My day revolves round that loaf. I take for granted how well behaved he is, I can leave him in the lounge alone and hes fine, for hours! He so affectionate and never aggressive hes just the best. Make it to 7 loaf!

I had a hair cut on Oz's  birthday and after that I went to mum's to go give Truffs a hair cut and bath both her and tilly as they were smelly little piglets. They look like baby pigs now so cute and fresh.

Apart from that its just been a normal weekend of shopping and cooking. Today has been a write off for me as I have had zero energy. Also a banging headache i was hyper aware of every sound, didnt want to talk to anyone. I laid on my bed for 2 hours in the quiet, played on my switch too. I didnt get done what I wanted to get done today anyway! I was gonna do some colouring in and make my mums birthday card but all well

we did solve the mystery of these god damn mini black flies round our house

we've had them a month now. They wont go no matter how many we squish. I tried to cut off food sources but noticed it made to difference as they dont seem to feed on human food. Theyre always round my plants and a couple have even died. Jack research and theyre Fungus Nats, they eat fungus and plant roots, living in soil. so its them who have killed my cacti off >.> death to them.

To try kill them you need to cover the soil layer so they cant lay eggs in the soil so I have ordered 2kg of salty stone pebble things today to cover my plants. Poor plants. I have killed 15 today tho. Literal genocide. The problem is getting out of hand. I hope the stones come soon

next week.

It is a normal school week. 

friday Oz will have his annual trip to the vets for his check up and his vaccination. It was last year he had the new version of the vaccine due to a new pathogen affecting buns in the last 2 years. It costs double the normal vaccine T^T but best to be safe. But since that vaccine he now gets randy and humps me - something he never used to do. I blame the vaccine XD messed with his hormones. 

can't believe its school again tomorrow T^T