Massively body shamed

 Evening

It's been another week~

Last week I did wed-fri at school as we returned on wednesday. This week I did mon-weds at school, started to not feel good on weds, mum picked me up when I finished work. Thursday I worked from home doing online training, friday I had to day of sick

I have had a stomach bug. I wont go into details as it wasnt pretty. I can tell you this tho, I have lost weight! I still dont feel 100% and some foods when I eat feel like literal food poisoning. But I am on the mend! 

Friday Oz had the vets so no matter how I was feeling I needed to take my little boy for his vaccinations. The vet was really lovely but massively body shamed my baby!!!!

she commented on his chest, his bingo wings, his pouch on his tummy. My poor Oz!! She weighed him.....he's suppose to be 2kg, hes 3KG!!!!

we talked about his diet and I get where I am going wrong now, its amazing how little things have crept and just happened and when i think about his diet, he is a very loved and spoilt bun. We are killing him with kindness. 

so he is going on a diet. I let him off today tho as I wasnt sure if he was gonna feel a bit off due to his vaccination but hes been fine

hes got to have hardly any pellets per day

up to 3 pieces of fruit a week

plenty of hay and grass

currently, he gets unlimited supply of pellets (as I dont want him to have an empty dish I never want him to be hungry I didnt want to be cruel), he gets carrot slices twice a day, piece of fruit once a day, grass and hay, 2 treats

So we are going to be weighing out his pellets, no fruit, carrot slices will be a lot smaller, his treats will be dried fruit. I ordered 1kg of this fancy ass rummage leaf stuff yesterday.

I will make more of an effort to be outside with him to motivate him into moving instead of loafing.

I need to do this in order to prolong his life. I shouldnt have let it get this bad. I feel awful. Jack is on board with it all and will support me with his diet. I want to things well so he doesnt become unhappy

I must say tho he was such a good boy at the vets and co-operated and was just so well behaved. I was very proud. the vet had no other worries apart from his weight

Jack's treat cupboard on the other hand tho, guess who's self is who's. This is from christmas

today, I didnt have to do food shop as Jack kindly did it after school on friday cus I wasnt feeling up to it. Dad took the car for an MOT and that passed all fine so that was good.

My brother came over to apply for a job at my school! he got some feedback from his job this week and thought enough is enough and wants a new job and that DT technician job is still going at school so he wanted Jack's help in applying for it :) be weird if hes at school too. I wouldnt mind of course and I just want him to be happy. I would be fine if he decided it wasnt for him and didnt stay long. But his job does suck and take the pee

tomorrow

just cooking food, I hope I feel ok, Id like to see my weekend before i go back to school. 

next week, just another week at school and got massage on friday :)