31~

 It's half term!! woo thank bloody god 

what a week!!! 

Monday night Jack's parents wanted to come over so they were over til 9pm. I was shattered! Nice to see them for the first time this year but not on a school night >< I had the day working from home which did help a bit

we were also told my brother can in fact start school on thursday! instead of the 20th february.

Tuesday, my birthday! I turned 31! officially my early 30s~ I got a card written by the science department, a gift from Lizi and a teacher. The school day was just another school day. I had lunch with mum and opened her gifts she got me lovely gifts like plant babies, 3kg weights, bunny ornaments, funky socks, chocolate teas. When Jack came home I opened his gifts which were some earrings I asked for from Ana Luisa - they have mushrooms dangling that glow in the dark! he got me some cute bunny stationary.

something else that happened on my birthday...I got a new car ^^; completely not expecting it. My dad rang my mum just as I was open my presents. He'd bought a honda jazz (my favourite car ever) from his friend and its 2014 so not 14 odd years old and yeah says I could have it. But I do not have the money for an 8 grand odd car. So he took my car and gave me the Honda.....my brother is getting money to make it fair between us.

it took days to sink in that I had an actual nice car to be proud of. but at first the whole thing wasnt sitting well with me.

1 I already owe my parents money for funding my house

2 my car works I technically dont NEED another car

3 I did not want to take MORE money from my parents

4 I wouldnt just be costing them money for the car but the additional money they would be handing to my brother

after expressing this to both Jack and mum separately, they both came out with the same argument! that basically

1 the car we have now is over 10 years old and not sure how long its gonna keep going for it looks and feels battered

2 your dad wants you to have the car otherwise he wouldnt have bought it 

3 eventually I would inherit my parents money so why not have something now they can see me enjoy

and yes this was all true i just felt a bit guilty about it all. so yeah I turned 31 and got a 'new' car! its proudly sat on the drive now. 

people asked me "what you doing for your birthday?" well nothing as I have half term next week so might as well do stuff then when I have time and energy so I probably looked dead boring haha we didnt even go out for food as that stresses me out. So I got off leftover food from christmas dinner and we had that and it was bloody fantastic!

wednesday  

same old day really at work, I had an awful phone call from a doctor stating I have got to have a camera down my throat, up my arse, biopsies taken of my intestines. yeah....I almost cried just on the phone. I am scared stiff. They said I could be knocked out for it all which yes 100%  I will be doing. I dont know HOW they knock you out tho but mum is coming with me thank god. I feel like I will be in tears that day. I am so scared. Nothing goes up my arse and the thought of something going down my throat makes me panic and want to be sick. I am scared.  safe to say, I did not sleep well that night. 

thursday, I was so burned out that I worked from home I did an all nighter! I was so stressed out with everything. That my pain was horrific in the night and no amount of painkillers was touching it so by 1:30am I made the decision to get an do my work through the night. I sat working on drama front cover.

I woke Jack up at 6am, told him I hadnt actually been to bed but did my 4 hours of work. I went to bed and work up a 11am. I was drained all day. 

friday I worked from home then mum took me out to choose some earrings from jewellers. I found my pair straight away no other pair compared and weirdly they were like one of the cheapest at £30 but I thought they were the best! we then went for lemon cake and tea at a cafe next to the jewellers. Nice time together ^^ Jack didnt have gaming and typically finished school at 2pm so he would have been early for gaming instead of the last to arrive!

so a busy week

and even tho my brother started school on thursday I havent been to school to see him there! but jack looked after him at times like at lunch time etc. They even travelled together on his first day :) But he seems to be doing well. Hasnt hated it or got upset. He says its a lot to take in but its interesting being on the other side of the classroom.

Oz had his bunny weigh in yesterday. He hasnt lost anymore weight. Its fine. I think I know why. He just isnt doing a lot with his little self. He only wants to play out if I am out with him. And after a while I am freezing! its winter! so I have ordered 3 5-way tubes  for him to play in and hopefully feel more confident with having things to hide in and will actually play out with out me holding his hand/paw....

next week~

its half term and before i knew it, my days got filled up!

so monday I am seeing Mia in the morning for a dog walk, then after lunch I am seeing Ed. I was suppose to see him last weekend I think but I was too tired and burned out and couldnt face it

tuesday is so far free....but dont want to jinx it

wednesday got the hospital

thursday our anniversary! so were going for bad food into the city centre then I have a massage

friday recovery day

saturday seeing jack's friends for drinks

ahhhhh its a lot >< 

i do need to socialise and actually leave the house tho