could I be anymore stupider!?

 I totally forgot to do this yesterday!

I remembered at some point but then it left my head

Well I can confirm I am on easter holidays now!!! woohoo!!!

So last week

My Jack was still poorly. Sunday he was doing well but then come later afternoon he went downhill again so we came to the conclusion that he couldnt go to work on monday. So I was going into work early again

He returned Tuesday and I worked from home, I wasnt going to but Id had a bad night and was massively exhausted from picking up jack's slack. 

Wednesday we were reunited at work again~ But god Jack was drained. He was still recovering and looked like death bless him. The whole week was a slog for him. Thursday night I couldnt sleep so I did 2 hours of work in the night so I could go home early Friday. Friday I aimed to get a load of stuff done before I went home, but I didnt happen as people kept coming to chat to me T^T I was trying to get crap done before easter damn it ><

but god were we all massively burnt out at the end of term

friday night I did something  VERY stupid, so very very stupid.

Jack was gaming with his friends, and Lizi told me the other day she had gone for a jog. I honestly felt quite envious of this act. So whilst Jack was gaming I had the thought "can I still run?" when I was 24/25 I got good and running but gave it up due to my joints saying NO MORE. but god did I love running. It wasnt fair. another thing my illnesses rob from me.

so I snuck out, didnt tell anyone, no phone, no inhaler

could I be anymore stupid!?

I was gone 20mins and it was hard work but it was nice

however

HOWEVER

I started to not be able to breathe....I am asthmatic 

why on earth did I think going for a walk in the damn cold evening by myself without a phone or inhaler was a good idea!!!!???

I kept running, finding my breathing sounded god awful. Like proper gasping for breath and not in a fitness way. More in a "my airways are closing up" way. I kept going thinking "ill be fine ill be fine" but then I found myself going light headed and dizzy (turns out this was due to lack of oxygen to my brain, who'da thought) so I did walk for 30 seconds then continue on.

I got home in one piece, Jack unaware of what stupidness Id been up to

the bath I had run before I left was waiting for me along side a cold drink

it took AGES for my breathing to sound like a normal human being again. Like I had caught my breath but my breathing was awful.

in the morning I felt like road kill. Jesus christ did i HURT and its monday and I still HURT!!!!

I knew that Jack would pick up on me being in more pain than usual and extra stiffness when walking so I decided to confess thy sins~

he was not happy. no not happy indeed ><" Jack doesnt get angry. He just silently seethes. and he was very quiet ^^"

He told me it was a very stupid thing to do, I could have died (over reaction me thinks), to never do it again, if I did it again he would be very angry with me, why dont I take asthma seriously, next time he games hes gonna lock me in the house XD 

saturday and sunday we decided to just rest. We of course did our chores but on the whole we did just take it easy.

I told mum that I ran and she couldnt believe that I did what I did

yeah I do a lot of stupid things >.>

Today is monday and this morning I went to meet mia for a dog walk for an hour

I came home and threw my sweaty body in the shower, put the dinner in slow cooker, had a quick brew then went to mum's to have my lunch

so Jack had rest bite from me for a bit today. He was doing chores and some gardening with Oz

then the rest of the day I coloured in and took breaks. I hadnt got to cook or exercise as Id done it all! so that was nice

tomorrow

Jack has his first physio appointment so I said Id go with him as he doesnt know where hes going. then we're going pudding pantry, then were going to pick up some stuff at shops like cosmetics and home cleaning stuff, nothing amazing

I dont have any other plans this week

I have plenty to do tho!