Made a chocolate & apple cakey

Good Evening

Dom never even messaged me....
that boy is seriously in my bad books
buying a car from my dad and not telling me how his
first ever journey in a new car and by himself went
my parents asked "did he get home safe? did he get on with car ok?"
what do i say "oh by the way my friend cant be arsed to text me"
right peed me off
seriously now i aint speaking to him til i see him in July
He has time to create art work for Rose and text her none stop
but cant tell me he got home ok
he could have had an accident and be hospitalized for all i know >.>

Anyway today is father's day woopee >.>
well my dad chose to go car boot in the morning for his father's day
how exciting!! my mum and brother went
but i wasnt gonna waste my time, you should see the tat they have at car boots
i like second hand stuff but that stuff is just rubbish, seriously
So I used to time alone very productively ;)
I dances, I danced so much that I was sweating
you know when you've worked hard when you have sweat between your boobs XD
I recorded a video a friend is gonna edit for me
You can see that im sweating on the video!
sweaty Jozu works harder!!

Then I was watching a few tutorials online about Japanese cooking
And then I went to bake a cake for my dad
a chocolate and apple cake, which is very sickly even by my sweet tooth standards!

good huh, i made the shapes with white chocolate then i put them in the freezer
pealed em off the clingfilm and stuck em on the icing ^^

I then went over to my granny's house as I had the lovely job of not only
setting up her Kindle but also showing her how to use it...
I wrote a load of notes down for her previously, hoping they will save me
going over and helping 100 more times
but actually she did pretty well as Kindles are really easy to use
so i hope she gets on with it ok if not i guess i dont mind helping again

came back and did a bit more dancing whilst my family went out
gosh i was tired so i rested 
then I started doing my lamp, its coming along nicely and I plan to
go continue it after I have blogged~

Tomorrow I have work at a local school
filled with brats who cant sit on a seat properly 

i have noticed that i am struggling to cope with out
my anti-depressiants
sadly
but im not giving in yet

day turned out a lot different than i thought

Evening~

Ahhhh tsukareta
Busy day of socializing, or what other wise be called
a "normal 23 year old's day"
but to me its shattering 

This morning I had the pets to clean out then I knew Dom-kun
was on his way over at 10:30ish
So I didnt get a lot of time to myself but I got a few things done online

Dom came over we sat and talked an hour then headed into a town
for a pub lunch - I had pulled BBQ wrap ^^
and we went round a few shops I got a guinea ornament I plan
to give to mum at christmas time
Dom got a couple of books, being out together gave me the chance to tell him things
i told him I liked being with him and if this 18 year old girl he fancies, doesnt
want him then I will have him. He went quiet and told me I had made him
feel awkward XD I really got the impression there and then he has no
feelings for me so thats it now Ive said my peace im not saying
anymore as I am not looking like a needy girl
I simply asked him what he did with the t-shirt and charm I made him
just to find out that he had done something with them, he had, i went on to saying
"did you tell Rose I made em for you?"
"yes and this isnt a competition"
"i know im not in competition i was simply wondering what she thought as its
doctor who and I know she likes doctor who. I am in no way playing
a competition for you with an 18 year old"
"if you say so"
I do say so infact i am now actually peed off and hurt
as he still texts other people more than me and they get INSTANT replies
i have to WAIT A WHOLE WEEK
why!? I have known him the longest out of this Rose girl and his friends
I care the most for him and have the most respect for him
and I feel like I'm just there in the background
he also told me basically that i have the mind and body of a 14 year old
course I laughed it off but it actually hurt
He went for a test drive in his car i showed him where to practice
i was in the car with him it was strange but I was supportive
he dropped me off home and I asked to give me a text when he
gets to helina-chan's boyfriend's house as its a few miles away
and he hasnt driven for months
......did he text me.....no he sure as hell didnt
so im mad now and hurt
i feel like the closer i move to him the worse he treats me
its saddens me and even tho i have told him all this it doesnt seem
to be sinking in with him
im sick of being soft so thats it now forget it
i'll keep him at arms length i wont text him til a week later
it annoys me as he says "im busy im working" i totally 100% respect that
until i found out how much he texts rose - a girl he known a month
and that hes been producing free art work for her which obviously takes time
and he doesnt have any time for me - his 7 year long friend
so thats it now im hurt
not hurt because he doesnt love me i can deal with that
im hurt as i feel less than a friend to him, when he matters so much to me

next time i see him will be convention i dont know how im gonna be with him

Mia-chan texted to say she needed help with a dress she wanted to wear tonight
so i saw dom off and had mia over
she wanted a dress turning into  a t-shirt for tonight which i did
she was happy and saw my guineas which she loved 
it was nice to see her and i she heard me rant about dom
she went at 4:30pm

since then i have been online, stretching, shower, dinner
and would like to dance practice now~

I did a fact file

Good Day~

Jozu has been busy looking at craft sites
wondering what to make next~
I have decided to make a lampshade
never done one before :)

Today I woke up late 9:10am, after a bad night's sleep
it annoys me when i wake up after 8:30am >.>
This morning I did my invoices for work which need to be in next week
and was online looking at craft sites for a while

 Oh and I thought I'd do a lil fact file of me, id I were an idol
I used this template from Morning Musume's fact files

• Name: Jozunii
• Nicknames: Jozu-chan Jozu
• Birthdate: February 7th 1992
• Birthplace: Nottinghamshire, England
• Bloodtype: O
• Height: 165 cm (5'5") 
• Hobbies: Drawing, Dancing, sewing, crafting, reading Manga, watching anime, seeing friends, learning Japanese, learning Japanese culture, Idols!
• Special Skill: teaching myself to dance
• Motto: "I shall do my best"
• Things she won't lose: Sewing, patchwork and craft design
• Dislikes: hair mouse, foamy things, spiders
• Favorite Food: Pasta, omelet, cakey! 
• Least Favorite Food: Shell fish
• Favorite Word: Prince
• Favorite Japanese Word: Ganbarimasu
• Favorite Colors: Pink, yellow and black
• Favorite Animals: Rabbits, guinea pigs and hamsters
• Favorite Animes/Mangas: Pandora Hearts, Natsume yuujin chou, Black cat, Nurarihyon, Lovelive!
• Favorite male artist:Shou (Alice Nine)
• Lucky Day: 29th February
• Favorite Morning Musume Songs: Tokimeku Tokimeku, ookii Hitomi,Aki Urara, Wagamama Ki no Mama Ai no Joke, Seishun Kozou ga Naiteiru, Yuugure wa Ameagari
• Other Favorite Groups: Fairies, Weather Girls, Manominorisa, Passpo, AnnaS, Yumemiru Adolescence, Doll Elements
• Looks Up To: Tanaka Reina, Suzuki Airi

This afternoon I went to the office, mum drove me there
it was nice to see everyone even if i was the only girl there
and Dan is infuriating at times!!! That man!! I could punch him!
I mean i like Dan like I do everyone at work and I know he's only playing with me
buts so annoying, if we were at school he'd be one of those friends id be
scraping and arguing with. but because we're in the work place and he's
older than me I have restraint myself. David wanted to punch him too XD
So I had a good time at work even tho I was only there half hour
David said Dan should go out with me....the guy is 11 years older than me
not to mention he'd drive me insane and hour a week is enough!
Then Dan said I should go out with David cus we get along so well
its only because we are both 92' babies so we have a lot in common
but he has a girlfriend and he's not my type
why is everyone trying to match me up lately!?

From work we headed to Dunelm as mum wanted a few bits
I just got a cheap lamp shade then we came home

I uploaded a dance too
 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mmEVJUdeNLE

tomorrow Dom-kun is coming
I feel a real nervousness about it
which is odd, why do I feel nervous about a friend I've known 7 years?

Nails and Hair

Heya~

Stupid hay fever season has started for me!!!! ><
I hate it, same time every year and it is relentless 

This morning I had a major sort out of my fabrics
it was all getting to messy
I also was snipping pieces up for a project I would like to make
its hard to explain but basically on good quality/designer fabrics
the edge has numbers, letters and colour coding on
most people discard this as its not apart of the fabric pattern
i used to discard it too but i saw a photo of someone had made
a cushion using the edgings and I thought "I wanna have ago!"
but when it came to it, i dont have an awful lot of good quality/designer
fabrics...I dont like paying the earth for fabric, i dont see the point
also i like the print on some of the cheaper fabrics
i do have some tho, and they were mostly leftovers from pieces i had brought
to make people's presents/gifts out of
so i have a small pile growing but its not enough to make anything from
i'm gonna ask lynn if she has any i could have


Oh and I forgot to show you my nails for this week~

I went for it and did multiple designs and both hands look neat and identical
thats my dexterity for ya
i have even eaten a few meals this week with my left hand
testing myself!

I went for a massage in the afternoon, went in as a solid, came out a liquid haha
thats how it feels, i feel so loose when ive been
it was nice and nice to talk to Karen, every one has been asking
how I got on with Dom-kun the other weekend
I think everyone was expecting me to go out with him...
but I really get the impression he doesnt fancy me
im seeing him this weekend too!
maybe i should confess my love, just like in an anime X3

Me and mum decided to do something girly together so we have
booked in july to get out eye lashes tinted! nether of us has had it
done before! and im getting it done before convention, should be good
makes you look like you have mascara on basically

I saw Helina-chan & Mia-chan this evening for a walk
we were a bit longer as mia's dog went missing in the woods
took a while to find her, she ran off whilst we were chatting ><
chatting about relationships and theyre both onto to me still about dom
saying "you need to tell him how you feel" "your both as dense as each other"
so yeah fun times >.> nah not really it was lovely to see them
helina wants my hair colour for the convention so i took a photo of the hair
colours i use. these are the colours of my natural hair
i dye it simply to give it a healthy shine and keeps it in good condition
not to change my hair colour, hence why i only use semi-permanent and not permanent 
permanent damages your hair
i havent dyed my hair in months, usually i dye it every 8 weeks but i havent this time
as the sun has dyed it lighter and im quite enjoying the difference in colour
but i plan to dye before convention probably make it go darker now ><
here's the hair dyes

tomorrow im off to the office~ 

Made Earrings

Good DAY Minna-san :D

Last night after I had blogged I decided to make some earrings
as I had been looking online for some new ones but couldnt
find any I liked or that were cheap enough
so I decided to use what I had
and I came up with these two

Not bad huh, of course I like the bunny ones
but pink and black is a good colour combo!

Today when I woke from a bad night I decided to do
some dancing and I  managed to get some recorded for Friday!
Altho as of yet it doesnt have an extra but I may get time to add that
I got really sweaty I look hot on the video ><

Then I sorting out my stuff for my lesson I couldnt find bits
so whats usually a 10min job was like 30min i managed to
put together a lesson tho

I arrived at work and the kids really enjoyed the lesson
it was nice but it was roasting in the school
and I have to wear my lab coat at all times!!

Tonight I have yoga and I plan to wear my new yoga trousers
theyre so different and cute maybe I should take a photo
i doubt I'll use them for anything other than yoga/exercise

tomorrow I have a massage and may see helina-chan & Mia-chan :D

Maho Tsukai Sally

Good Day~

I went to Zumba yesterday with Mum for the first time in what feels
like months! I really enjoyed myself and expected to be nakerd what
with not going in such a long while, but I did really well
I managed to remember a lot of the choreography from previous dances
and new dances I soon learned them I was very impressed with myself!
 
Today I woke up at 8:50am >.> late for me
I did my pet duties the little girls are getting used to playing outside :D

I uploaded a dance~
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Ua_8cZJ6QQ

My outfit
A dance I really enjoyed doing ^^
I love Halloween so dressing as a witch was such fun
but dancing in the cape was difficult I did my best!

At 10:30am I drove myself and mum to a meeting near town
basically to talk about my financial situation and to see if I could
claim for any extra help as I earn next to nothing
last a good hour I found it mentally exhausting but they were very helpful

A few internet goods came in the post
I plan on making an anime-patchwork wall hanging so I have been
collecting pieces over the last month or so
just waiting for one more item then Im gonna start it!

I have been browsing online for earrings for Jozu
but nothing I liked, saves money I guess
Done some dancing, was going to go for a walk but its roasting

tomorrow I have work
Id like to get some dances finished tonight so I 
can record tomorrow morning~

Pet Canvases

Hiya Minna :D

I thought I'd do a more lighter blog today as I feel like the
last few blogs have been about my health and stuff
I hate talking about my health
so today I thought I would show you the pet canvases we have

we have the first canvas I got years ago done for mum as a birthday present
it has out first generation of pets
Left to right Sky (rabbit) Nutty (guinea pig) Buttons (hamster)
Sky and Buttons were mine and Nutty was my brother's 

Next is the 2nd canvas with the Second gen of pets
Left to right Kip (rabbit) Lily (guinea pig) Pinky (guinea pig)

Finally we got one done of Hazel bless her

I'm thinking we need a canvas done of the 3rd generation of pets
that would be cute but probably wait for the little girls
to fully grow and fill out before they are immortalized on canvas!

Today I saw the signs going up for the Gedling Gala!!! 4th July
I can not wait, usually its a date with Mia-chan but this year
Helina-chan is able to make it!! shes not been in years! (due to work)

Today I felt like I couldnt be bothered to much
so I read a lot mostly outside keeping Tiffin company
and I did some dancing trying to get dances done for this week!
but theyre difficult! ><
I had work and the kids did my head ungrateful gits
I would no way bring my kids up to turn out like them >.>

Tomorrow Im going out with Mum~
thats all for now
tomorrow I am uploading "sally the witch" dance :D