Good Evening~
I woke up at 8:15am and decided to get up
as I was meeting Mia at 10am
I cleaned my pets out, put on the tiniest bit of make-up
i noticed when my depression is around my fashion changes
i noticed it last time and yesterday
i tend to dress a lil punkish, kinda how i used to dress when i was 17
instead of usual cutesy bright clothes i change them for darker punkier kinda clothes
Anyway I picked Mia up
we went to a cafe which is near a load of charity shops
we just got in the cafe when it decided to pour it down
talk about good timing huh
we both had a sausage cob and a brew which was all alright
then when it stopped raining we hit a few charity shops
i bumped into the cook from school, she also was charity shopping XD
I picked up a couple of bracelets - they are my new accessory seeing as I cant
wear earrings anymore
this one was 99p
and this one £1.99
really pretty
gonna wear em for school you know
then we came home in the pouring rain
we sat in my room, mia gave me bag fulls of clothes she was throwing out
so i sifted through what i wanted
so ive got a new jumper, denim dungarees, skirt with braces, and 2 vest tops im not 100% sure on
then we went and drew downstairs
I was doing my Lovelive Sunshine picture still, i got the base done on Kanan
Mia drew a pumpkin which was really cool
Then at 4pm rob came to take mia home haha like from one carer to another
so i saw him for 10 mins, i love seeing how much love they have for each other
they started play fighting, thats something i do look forward to in a relationship
is the play fighting X3
I hit the bed then as id had enough and wanted to be by myself
then had dinner the usual
tomorrow I have homework to do
but i also have sewing i WANT to do ><
Evening
I didn't sleep well
I kept waking up but I think it was cus I was hot
It was humid last night
And so I didnt wanna get up this morning but I did
I wore loose clothes today cus I didnt wanna get hot bothered
I was feeling pretty crappy but I spent a while doing my hair
and trying to look nice, if it was something I learned at rehab was
making the effort with yourself makes you feel better within yourself
so I tried
ended up making me a lil late tho ^^;
Morning was alright, helped the class out with their poems
then it was model making time~
But I was to see my mentor - dept head - at 12
and yes i remembered!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got help with what I needed
then it was lunch and in the end i went into a room by myself
as i could not stand any more politic talk
i was perfectly aware what the British public had voted i didnt need to hear
about anymore -___-
so I sat in a room and did some work
I tried to eat, I tried to drink. But nothing seemed to taste right in my mouth
so I didnt eat my lunch
I came home, after school and showered. I tried to eat again
but I couldn't. all id had to eat was cereal and some biscuits
I went for a walk with mia, which was nice but exhausting
we plan to see each other tomorrow hopefully
I got home and collapsed on my bed
My family were cooking up a BBQ
but I just wanted to rest
I had left over meat which turned out to be the best tasting thing
id eaten all day so i scoffed loads down me
mum is worried about me, i tell her 'im fine' but damn it she sees through all that crap
but i dont know what to say as i dont know what the problem is myself
nevermind having to explain it to someone else
i found out later the whole 'tasting' thing is down to depression >.>
tomorrow should be an alright day tho i hope :)
