Good Evening
I didn't sleep brilliantly today
for one my dad's phone went off at 1:30am -___-
who the frig rings at that time of day!?
My dad was like "why was you up at that time?"
"I wasn't but like I say, the smallest of noises and im awake - on patrol"
This morning was a rush
I had the girls to get out, clean out, bath pinks
and wash my hair and get ready to be at hairdresses for 10am
I got there on time tho~~
She was waiting for me so i was really quick having it done
and felt so much better for having it done
Joanne is such a lovely lady~
I came back and read
the 4 items i put on ebay came off to day 3/4 sold
and what did sell didnt sell for much at all
i was really surprised what with the amount of interest they had
in a way it wasnt worth putting them on but what can you do
someone will enjoy them im sure
even if i just make 50p its 50p i wouldnt have had if i had just donated
my stuff to charity like i usually do
i have a black hoodie with a cat on saying 'ninja kitty'
ive worn it once but its really short and i dont like that
so i plan on sending it to my younger cousin when i go post office on monday
it will be a surprise for her
keep her anorexic body warm this autumn
In the afternoon i did some drawing, drawing pokemon houndoom and mightyena
i went for a short walk with my parents :/
i did stuff online but not much
8 out of 10 cats does countdown tonight
its something to watch but im never that fussed anymore really
but its good if theres good guests on
theres been plenty of dramas lately on TV my parents watch them
but i couldnt get into any of them
90% of the time their police dramas *yawns* theyre all the bleeding same
anyway i want to start showing my pokemon card collection today
so for the next few days i will upload a pokemon type each day til i run out XD
but for today I will start off with my folder front cover~
Retro right? proper 1999 pokemon~
The first page of cards
I have no idea why these cards are different or even how/where you got them
i just seem to have them, and i have a total of 10 im guessing theres far more out there
but yeah
and I will start with steel type as I only have 1 page of steelies
Not very exciting and by far no my favourite type or pokemon
tomorrow I shall entertain myself with something XD
Good Evening~~
Man I worked hard today~
I got up 7:20am already 20 mins late to my day
but i didnt care
it was friday, a morning where i wouldnt have to fight for the bathroom!
So I figured I had time to spare but i only
just left the house sorta on time ><
The kids were happy to have me in today
they had missed me yesterday
So we did some english in the morning
After we did maths...
but I was lucky as 3 people missed doing the christmas cards the other week
and they need to be sent off to be printed as proper cards
so i got to sit in another room with the 3 students, got everything ready for them
even did the background to their work
and we sat chatted and painted it was really nice
I got mad at a couple of students with the guinea pigs
last year's year 6 were excellent with the pigs, i felt i could leave them and trust them
but not this years. I shouldnt even be in to monitor them with the pigs
but i cant help it
one boy i sat him down, pig on his lap. told him to be quiet and sensible
the guinea pig goes to do a poo (course he does -______-)
the boy squeals and gets out of the chair the guinea goes smack on the floor
i was so cross at this point
i gave them a real scolding i told them
they have little bones, if they break, they die simple. they are too small and too old to be operated on and saved, so we'd have to put them to sleep. thats it. end of. no guinea pigs
at this the girl was a lot quieter and careful, the boy went outside
the head mistress wasnt in today but i will tell her (she owns the pigs)
In the afternoon I started doing a display for year 6
finally we have work to go up on the wall!
But as i started it i discovered we didnt have enough
so its half done and gotta wait for the rest after half term~
so it was a good day but i was exhausted really exhausted and in pain
but i got my 300 hours signed off!!woooo!
I came home and i havent done a lot really
tomorrow I have a hair cut
i really want a side fringe but i'll talk to my hairdresser
i parted it really far over to the left and i look much more mature
so we shall see~
currently with tiffin
hes in a right mood XD
Evening~~
Last night became my morning
I did an all-night-er basically
Didnt plan to of course as I had school in the morning
but I laid there for hours and hours never once falling asleep
what a long night, i was hungry too -____-
I just ached that was the issue
i was in awful pain, i ended up sleeping on top on my duvet, wrapping in my
dressing gown and a blanket over the top just to cushion myself out
still sleep didnt find me
6am and i dozed off eventually for mum to wake me at 7am
i turned to her and said "im not going, bad night" and fell asleep til 7:45am
then I rang school
the headmistress picked up - course she would - my luck
i told her i just wasnt well but id be in tomorrow
its not like it was a lie as i did feel unwell
i ached, headache, hot cold sweats
tomorrow i will go into school full power ahead!!
I may have missed my best day of the week but alwell i will still
enjoy tomorrow as i havent done a friday for a while~
My teacher had emailed me, she needs my timesheet
so im gonna get signed tomorrow - my 300 hours
then i need to give it to my teacher at some point
my morning consisted of my sleeping, i slept through til 2pm
shattered and dizzy really
but i did pick up as the day went on
i entertained myself by playing with my hair and watching hair tutorials on youtube
I went to yoga
it was exhausting i was getting dizzy from the work
i was glad it was over
i havent eaten much past few days
simply cus i havent been hungry
so mum is on my back about eating
like i'll waste away or something or drop loads of weight
i have eaten and its only a couple of days
sheesh
its annoying i rolled my eyes at her today when she said again about food XD
felt like a teenager XD
anyway tomorrow i will go school~ pray i sleep tonight!!!!
Good Evening~~
I didn't sleep well
I had a nightmare it was bad. I thought something had happened to
my physical body as I couldnt wake up I wondered if I had gone in a coma
or something. The nightmare was repeating its self constantly like a video on repeat
i got to the point were i gave up trying to wake up
I had accepted this was it.
Then I woke, but it tried to pull me back in - its a horrible feeling
i have to fight, i grabbed my phone next to me and flashed the screen in my eyes
but it was still there so i started changing the wallpaper on my phone
trying to get my brain working and eventually it passed
not a good night so when i woke this morning it was 9:30am -______-
Me and mum went to a big supermarket ASDA
we travel for 30mins to get there so we dont go often
I picked up a jumper which has a shirt underneath reduced from £14 to £8 ^^
be great for school this winter :D
Got back and had lunch
then I went to read in bed as I was frozen for some reason
even tho i had soup for lunch :/
I was planning on going for a walk with mia today
seeing as she didnt come out with me yesterday
it was sunny all day
at 4pm I asked her "are you coming a walk tonight? if so what time?"
she said she was too knackered to come out or as she put it 'naked'
i had to read it twice but got what she meant XD
i was annoyed cus if she had told me sooner i could have walked in the sun
and not the dingy weather it had become >.> so i only did a 10 min walk
cus i could not be arsed~
I will dance later to make up for it
i dont enjoy walking some days
Tomorrow I am going to school and yoga
thursdays are hard
i enjoy school on a thursday but its always hard on me
to go to school, come home, sleep, yoga, dinner, shower, bed
it all rush rush rush
here's my nails this week
fruit! the thumb went wrong, it was an orange slice but it was rubbish
so i quickly painted over it and called it raspberry XD
Good Evening~~~
Today I had some good news~
basically I spent my morning finishing off this unit for my coursework
I e-mailed it over to my teacher
she replied saying
"I have marked this and I now think your file is complete. I will hand in
for internal quality check and let you know that outcome"
How amazing is that!!! I had no idea I had done everything!!
I really thought I had more to do
I knew I was close to finishing it all but not that close >< to say I started February
I have done really well completing a 12 months course in 8 months
well I wont celebrate yet, not til I have confirmation of my completion
This week I will have my 300 hours needed for course signed off
strange how I got everything done in the same week!
So yeah Im happy but it wont fully sink in til i know 100% im done
This morning I took photos of my pokemon cards in my folder
I decided I wanted to share them with everyone
they are my memories so they mean more to me than you
but still i will show them
theres a lot so i will show them in sections
but today i have decided to share the halloween top i got from ASDA
cool huh? im so wearing to school on halloween X3
knowing me i wont just wear it fo halloween XD
I wish I had something to do on halloween :( such a loser
I used to go over to mum's friends as she always did a halloween party
but i stopped going as she has 2 sons who are my age - i was in the same class as one at school
so there just ended up being a load of young guys
who were loud, drunk, stupid and throwing up
the adults were all really weird so its not like i could converse with them ether
so i just used to stay with my parents :/ wasnt any fun for me
then a few years later my parents stopped going - think mum found it dull without me XD
so now i dont have anything to do on halloween :(
I went to karen's at 1
well i wanted to go to karens at 1pm
at 12:55pm I walked to my car
clicked unlock on the remote key
and.......nothing
not a sound came from the car, i pressed lock, the boot, and unlock like 50 times
nothing was happening -___________-
so i rang mum and she was on her way home and was 10/15mins away
so she came home collected me and took me karens
so i was at karens at 1:15pm
mum also had to pick me up ><
but it was worth going karens and i had good chat as usual
later on i layed on my bed a read
i feel drained
im hoping to be back to normal tomorrow
ive had a lot of interest in my hoodie and poncho on ebay ^^
2 people have asked for me to remove them off bidding so they can 'buy now' kinda thing
so im sure they will sell
here's what i actually put on ebay XD
tomorrow just going to do a big food shop with mum
fun
Evening~~
I got up at 7am for school
I hadn't slept well and I was in pain but determined to drag
my butt into school
I was in year 6 and we did english maths in the morning
boring
but what can you do
its even worse when the maths is a subject i cant do
well to be honest there isnt much maths i can do at their level
how depressing is my life -____- school is a lot harder than what
it was when i was a kid and i wish it had been harder
i might be smarter XD
At lunch I sat with Anouk as Nienka was away with her brother
but i'll see her thursday
Anouk showed me a photo of her Queen and King
I was so shocked for 2 reasons
1. I had no idea other countries had monarchs
2. They were soooooo young!!!
Compared to our King and Queen anyway
I love learning new things~
After lunch we did grammer -____-
then they worked on a powerpoint presentation
so yeah bit of a dull day but cant be helped
thursdays are my better day
i talked to 2 year 6 boys about pokemon
at 3:25pm it rained
3:30pm school finishes....
why the hell does it always rain when school finishes!?
at 3:45pm it stopped raining >W< life is cruel
so I got wet cycling home
stupid weather
i went for a shower anyway
and ended up laying on my bed for 90mins keeping warm ^^
Might do some drawing or dancing tonight
I can't get my head into gear some how
dancing seems like such a hard task at the moment
i feel my depression maybe wanting to raise it's head
i'll try and keep a lid on it
but i dont know why i waver so much
why cant i stay on a steady level?
Tomorrow I'd like to get that bit of homework completed
I also have Karen at 1pm for treatment
Tomorrow is another day~
Evening~
I woke up at 7:45am
I had had a rough night of aching so I was ready to leave the bed
I had a dream about papa (grand father)
My dream was set at an event for children I was helping at
I saw all the young children hugging their grandparents
it hurt to watch, they were so oblivious and taking it all for granted
what i would give to be in papa's arms again
so i ran off and i noticed in the distance papa was there
just standing there so i ran over and jumped into his arms
my legs wrapped round him and i sobbed
he told me 'I bet you're still doing really well'
I woke up as soon as he disappeared
safe to say my pillow was wet - i had been crying in my sleep
So I had to sleep with a damp pillow -___-
I got the girls out as usual this morning
I left them in the hall to 'play' more like sit round and eat >.>
anyway I just left them to go to the toilet
and hear the hoover turn on
hoovers arent quiet things
dad was using the hoover in the hall!!!!
I couldnt get off the toilet quick enough
mum and my brother had shot out of their seats and scooped alice and millie up
they were terrified
so i went to them cuddled them and took them to their cage with treats
bless them, practically having a heart attack
ether dad just doesnt think or he doesnt care
probably a bit of both >.>
I felt like I couldnt function today
just wasnt happening and i was in pain
in the end i went to bed at 11am
tiffin was under my bed snoring
at 12pm mu burst into my room waking me
"Do you know where tiffin is!?"
I said "yeah he's under my bed I think"
She was very relieved
she saw his cage door open and couldnt find him anywhere
hes fine, just snoring under the bed completely unaware of the heart attack mum was having over him
I did go for a walk in the hope it would revive me a lil
but no just made me more tired -_____- I think my illness is just having
an off day >< I hope im ok tomorrow though for school
I could have just stayed in bed all day thats what i feel like
but i choose to fight!
I started drawing some more pokemon
im quite into drawing them lately
usually i wont draw pokemon as i know they never look like how theyre suppose to
i want to do a pokemon halloween picture :3
This is my hair bow I made yesterday
I used the pokemon fabric left over from Tara's cushion
and the pikachu is from a retro hair tie I've never used - (it's too fiddly)
cute right? I like it and im sure the kids will on thursday X3
Tomorrow is school I should be in year 6
hopefully or even doing some sort of display!
I plan on painting my nails tonight doing a fruit theme as requested by a student
i like doing requests :3
