Tanjoubi Omedetou Gozaimasu~~
Today I turned 25!
wow 1/4 of a century 0.0
I feel old~~~ XD
Anyway so today I woke up poorly
yep sick as a dog
I felt terrible and I had barely any voice
I could not believe my luck
I feel cursed!!!
So I ended up ringing up work to say
i couldnt make it
I daren't tell them it was my birthday as I didn't want them
to think I was pulling a sicky just cus it was birthday you know?
But they seemed ok and later on in the day rang me to see how I was
and if I could make it in tomorrow
I told them I'm planning on going in
Im hoping I will be ok tomorrow I have improved through the day but not 100%
So I laid in bed reading my kindle with the girls
I'd seen to tiffin he seemed to be doing well
Then I sat watching a DVD whilst cross stitching
had something to eat which was a slice of cheese on toast
then went to bed for more sleep
when I woke up mum had baked me a cake and saved the mixture bowl for me :D
so that was nice to wake up to!
We then went for a 10min walk to the shop as we needed chocolate for the cake!
It was exhausting but I just needed some fresh air.
we got chocolate and mum finished my lovely cake
I had a brew and opened my presents with my mum and brother at 4pm
I got some lovely things from mum, dad, brother and karen :)
Mum's friend's had popped cards in through the day which was nice
so here's what I got today
From my parents~~
A new bag it's the Gorguss brand and I love it :D
I needed a new bag mine looks tired ><
Buono! live 2016 DVD :D
yoga gloves, socks and an eye bag
2 vests which are very soft (quite into vests at the moment instead of wearing bras!)
then the best thing which i have been waiting for, granny's necklace. I had the silver charm but it was on a rubbish stainless steel chain and the charm kept coming off the chain
so for my birthday, the charm was cleaned, the ring attached to it was soldered so it could no longer fall off the chain and I chose a new chain a proper silver one not stainless steel
this is very special to me and I dont think I will take it off
From karen
she gave me some rabbit slippers they remind me off tiffin theyre too nice to use!
and she brought me some lovely books to do my japanese in! how thoughtful!!
My brother got me a £15 amazon voucher
and lynn rang me up and she said she'd buying me a ticket to 'festival of quilts' at the Birmingham NEC this year so I can go with her :D
she said we'd meet up as well soon ^^
usually I take a photo on the day of my birthday
but what with feeling and looking like a corpse today I didnt
so I will soon take a photo of the 25 year old me~
doesn't feel like my birthday it really doesnt
i think cus ive been poorly and not seen anyone it just feels like ive had
a day off sick really :/
so I hope to plan a belated birthday!
tomorrow I aim to go to work in the morning then I have the rest of the afternoon free!
i hope im feeling better and tiffin continues to do well
Tiffin
well I didn't go to him in the night
and it turned out he did managed to eat for himself
he ate some hay, grass, kale and some treats. he'd also done loads of poos
and he seems more himself each day
so i was so relieved
we seem to have a real war on with trying to get his anti-biotics down him!
nice to see him having the strength I suppose but it damn frustrating
thank god they're only once a day!
He went outside and chewed mum's plants
we let him as he needs to eat.
So he's still going in the right direction luckily
his coughing/sneezing hasnt quite stopped yet but his breathing is better
i do hope the anti-biotics cure it soon.
No matter how rubbish this birthday seems to have felt today the light in my day has been the fact Tiffin is here to celebrate my birthday
after the few days we've had I was once concerned he wasn't going to be
here when I turned 25
having him is the best gift ever and I am truly grateful
Konbanwa~~
So tired -_____-
I got up twice in the night for tiffin
I didn't feel that good my throat felt like sandpaper and I couldnt
breathe through my nose. great. all i need is another illness
I got ready for work and managed to feed tiffin before I went
Work was alright, on a monday theyres only half the class so it's nice
and the kids were well behaved
I got to do a painting activity with them too~
The teacher asked about tiffin which is nice
I got home and fed tiffin
then I had lunch
I felt exhausted so I went to bed
I didnt wake up til over 2 hours later...
and when i woke mum was there she said i didnt look good
i felt awful i really did
my throat hurt, nose was pressured, i felt nauseous and had a head ache
i was having a hard time stringing a sentence together also!! very annoying
so i didnt do anything with my afternoon
I had planned to go get some sweets from the shop to give to the children tomorrow at school
to celebrate my birthday!!
Hopefully if i have enough time tomorrow morning I can pick some up!!
So today is my last day of being 24 and what a cruddy day it is!
honestly i am not impressed!
tomorrow I have my birthday, work, tiffin, bad health. im gonna be exhausted!!
I've told my friends that i wont see them tomorrow and i'll meet up with them another time
as i dont want to spread my germs and i think i'm gonna be tired to look happy for others
so it looks like i'll be having a belated birthday as tomorrow is gonna suck big time!
if i feel up to it i will go for lunch with mum
i hope i can do SOMETHING tomorrow
otherwise that is just depressing!!
i cant enjoy myself whilst tiffin isnt right.
The 24 year old me
Finished my college course and became a Teaching Assistant
Got a job as a supply Teaching Assistant
and i cant think of anything else i've achieved in my 24th year!
So tomorrow just work, maybe lunch out and sleep i think
sayonara to the 24 year old me~
Tiffin's update~
I got up and fed him in the night
he became a little feisty with me with the syringe food
so I became more successful popping bits of food in his mouth
I then got him to eat a few pieces of hay!
In the morning I got a few pieces of food down him
and after work I fed him again but he was having a protest
He has done some more poos and they are a little bit bigger
he seems to have had a good clean of himself as he was looking a mess!
so he's had the energy to do that finally
and he seems a bit more himself
He ate a leaf by himself today and I think he's had the odd piece of hay
so he has attempted to eat independently but it's still not enough
hence why im still feeding him as i dont want his weight to drop
Tonight I have decided that I will not go up in the night to feed him
as I feel he will be ok and also Im praying it might encourage him to eat for himself
im gonna give him every option possible in his cage tonight - food wise
and i'll check it all in the morning to see if he's eaten anything
I didn't take him to the vets today as i didnt feel it necessary and
i didnt want him jabbed up and stressed out
so i feel we're slowly winning
it took a week last time and we're on day 4 now~
Konbanwa
I fed tiffin twice in the night
i was woken up at 8am to feed him again
the morning I just did some dancing actually for quite a while
but it was nice to have a good bit of exercise
I did some cross stitch, did some reading, and fell asleep for an hour or so
did some japanese for the first time in days
i went to the vets to pick up some more food for tiffin as i had ran out
of the syringe food.
then i havent done much else
i cant seem to get my head in gear its like all i can think about is tiffin
so its been a bit of wasted weekend really but it couldnt be helped
tiffin comes first.
dont know when i'll celebrate my birthday really or see my friends
tomorrow i have work and then i have the after noon free to do whatever
i hope i get something productive done i really do
i think im gonna get up in the night again for tiffin
im only working 4 hours so it shouldnt make me too tired tomorrow
tonight im gonna bleach my eyebrows as they have grown dark
and paint cherry blossom on my nails!
I fed tiffin once again through the night
he became a little bit stubborn when i was syringe feeding him
i took that as a sign of him feeling a bit better and stronger
i realized that i could pop tiny bits of food in his mouth and he seems
to eat them, its not much but at least its solid food and not liquid
In the morning I went to see him
he seemed more relaxed and his breathing wasnt as hard as it has been
he also had produced poos!! only a handful and very tiny but none the less they were there!
so that was a great sign
I continued to syringe feed him through the day and managed to
pop the odd bit of solid food in his mouth
he seems a bit more energetic and alert today
he still isnt eating independently
we had to go the vet today to pick up some more syringe food
we told them the situation and they said to bring him in tomorrow
if he still isnt eating independently
im not that sure what to say that cus all theyre gonna do is what im doing at home?
they didnt really say what they would do for him actually
so i'll see about that one
but fingers crossed he'll be eating by himself by then
tomorrow i am only working 8:30am til 12:15pm which is great!
as it means if tiffs does need syringe feeding then I can do that for him
also i can keep a closer eye on him
so glad im not working all day tomorrow!
i think i will get up at least once in the night tonight to feed him
so i believe he has turned a corner
he's not out of the woods yet but i feel we are winning
last month it took a week for him to be eating properly but we did get there
and i hope we get there again
today is certainly a much better day than yesterday
Evening
I didn't sleep well due to tending to tiffin in the night
but I got up at 8am
I washed my hair and got stuff ready for my hair cut and to meet with adam
i had my hair cut and felt so much better as i could see again!!!
I got home, got changed, slapped some make-up on and went out to meet adam
i went to pull up to wear I THOUGHT the cafe was...yeah I was wrong
but I asked my mum and brother and they thought it was there also!!
so i txt him to say i was gonna be late due to stupidity
i rang mum and got her to google where it was and i knew straight away XD
stupid me
and yeah i dont have internet on my phone ><
we sat and talked
he treated me to hot chocolate and cake
the cake was an orange Florentine first time ive ever had one and it was so nice
so moist and refreshing and the hot chocolate was really good also
you could see it all being made in front of you
i like independent cafes i never go to chain places
by 1pm i knew i was pushing my luck with the metre on my car
also i needed to get back to feed tiffin
i felt awful leaving him but adam understood i wasnt leaving cus of him it was
cus i had to get back for my prince~
i said id meet up with him again soon
he walked me to my car, i told him he didnt need to as i knew where my car was XD
then he gave me 2 hugs ^^
he treats me well
i have yet to tell him about my illnesses and my nervous breakdown and losing 2 years of my memory but i cant bring myself to talk about it right now
got home and fed tiffs some banana i had brought for him
i let him play outside he didnt do much but i think he liked being out in the sun :)
I went to bed for some much needed sleep
after i got up and fed tiffs
mum dyed my hair ^^ So my hair is all fixed for my birthday
speaking of my birthday
I was suppose to be going out tomorrow to a vintage fair with mia then out to lunch
but i need to be with tiffin so I am staying at home
I havent even invited my friends over as Im not in the mood to be happy smiley
i just want to be with tiffin and nurse him to health
my birthday doesnt matter. his life matters
so tonight i will be getting up again for his midnight feedings
gosh it sounds like i have baby!
I have no idea how mother's do it honestly
hats off to them cus its not easy it really isnt
put me off being a parent i can tell you that!
see how my prince is tomorrow
fingers crossed he is ok and no worse!
Tiffin's update
I syringe fed him at 12am and then again at 3am
the 3am feeding was mashed cucumber and i was really surprised to see
him voluntarily taking it! So that was a good sign
I got up at 8am and fed him
he hadnt eaten or drank or produced poos
so I've been mincing different foods down and alternating that with the
recovery food as that stuff constantly cant be nice and i like to think
real fruit and veg has some good vitamins for him
He managed to run round the garden when I went to get him in
which i was impressed at actually he even scaled the steps!
He chest sounds better today and i havent seen him do that awful coughing/sneezing
fit he has been doing over the weeks
so with any luck the anti-biotics are helping
its his stomach that is the greater focus i feel
he just wont eat or drink
the vets said that rabbits have this tenancy to just give up basically
but I dont want to give up yet
he was just the same last month
I plan on syringe feeding him through the night again tonight
as I believe it helps and i feel awful knowing he would go the whole night without food
He didn't go to the vets today as all they would do for him is give him fluids
and syringe feed him which is what i am doing and i feel he would rather be here
than get stressed at the vets
we rang them and kept them updated, they said to come in if he plummets and see how
he is in the morning and to let them know
tomorrow we've said that if he's the same as today that we will continue the treatment
but if he looks like he's gone backwards we may consider putting him to sleep...
Im hoping that wont be the case i just dont want to see him suffer you know?
and im not sure that if he is really bad about hospitalizing him, as would i just be prolonging
a losing battle? its so difficult to know
i like to believe im doing the right thing for him
so today he hasnt eaten or drank independently and hasnt produced poos
not producing poos is a worrying sign
all that comes out his bottom is like water
im sorry to be grim
but i guess if he's only getting mushed food and water then nothing is gonna form
he needs to hurry up and eat!! it is like the vets said they just give up
he would be so much better if he ate he really would
last month when we went through all this it took a week before we saw some
positive signs of recovery
and so far we're on day 3
anyway see how he is tomorrow
This morning I got up for tiffin
I went to go see him at 7:15am
i noticed nothing had been touched - food wise - it was all the same
he had gone the entire night without eating...
crap..
So i brought him inside and had a few more tears in front of mum
i was stressing as i had work at 8:30am til 12:15pm
but i knew tiffin needed to go to the vets ASAP but didnt want to let
my new job down
i started syringe feeding him this morning before work
my dad came walking through "you're gonna be late"
god i could have ripped his f***ing face off!!!!!
i was trying to syringe feed my sick bunny and all he's bothered about is
me being late for my job!!!!!
mum rang up and rang me during my shift to say that she was taking him
down by herself
god what id do without her!
so she left tiffin to be hospitalized
at 6:15pm I was allowed to pick him up
i had cried soooo much today honestly
just every time i talked about him tears ran down my face
upon seeing tiffin i felt instantly better
his little face :)
but he's not well
he was given the same 3 jabs he had yesterday
they had been syringe feeding him every 2 hours
his special anti-biotic had been delivered so he was able to have some
a nurse kindly showed us how to syringe feed him as id been having difficulty doing it
we came home with him
i gave him an hour to chill in his hutch
i brought him in cus i wanted him and to syringe feed him
i tried the nurse's way and it was a lot easier actually
and managed to get a fair bit down him
i let him into my room
he literally collapsed onto my carpet and laid there panting
he didnt look good
then he started doing poo which was just water if im honest with you
not good
bless him, he did look like he had stomach ache
so ive just cleared that up
the vet suggested feeding him every 2 hours through the night!!
wow, ive never done that before
and seeing the way he is tonight i think im gonna give it a shot
everyone sleeps like the dead in my house so no risk of waking anyone!
so thats me not getting much sleep tonight
but i will do what it takes to get my prince better
the vets said if he hasnt managed to eat anything by the morning (by himself)
to bring him in again...i really dont want him to be hospitalized again :(
but if he needs it he needs it
we're approaching the £1000 mark....
im so in debt to my parents and not just with money
my mum has helped no end with this she always takes me to and from the vets
and helps with his medication and maintenance of his cage etc
my morning at school was alright i held back tears a few times
when it came to telling the staff what was going off and i explained i was 3 mins late
due to trying to syringe feed tiffin
i said my mum will be phoning to let me know what was happening and the teacher
said it was fine and if i needed to leave i could!
but i like this job and i know the school wont want to have me back if i become
unreliable so i did my best and stayed even tho i probably looked like a zombie
and had a brain of mush
i got home and cried to mum and thanked her for taking tiffin by herself
we had lunch
i went to sleep for an hour shattered with a headache
got up and went to the shops with mum needed to kill time before i got tiffin
then i came home did some cross stitching and my car insurance which is due on my birthday!
im glad to have tiffin back but i want him back to full health
tonight i will get up regularly through the night to syringe feed him
i will do my best for him!
It's twin tail day~~~
Twin Tail day is 2nd February
and is 'celebrated' in Japan by girls tying their hair in twin pig tails
I have done this now for the last 3 years I think
and this year is no different
ta-da~~
It's a little hard to tell as I have low pigtails
one side I french plated the other just simply tied up
I dont tend to wear twin tails high like rabbit ears as im 24 and it looks daft on me
Today was school
I did some maths and english with a group of 3 year olds which was
nice and tomorrow im doing some maths again with them ^^
its nice that im trusted to do it
I cleaned up and did some observation work
told a few children off
came back home at lunch
had lunch and rested in bed for an hour
got up and went for a walk with mummy~
then i went on my laptop, started to clean my room
went to the vets
cam home and finished cleaning my room
we didnt go yoga this week due to having to take tiffin to the vets
here is my tragic update with tiffin
after recovering Tiffin from his stomach bug
his cough/cold still hadnt gone
so we took him back to the vets
(ive lost count how many times ive been to the vets this year!!)
Basically Tiffin was put onto anti-biotics for 10 days
this was to try and rid him of his cold/cough
cus honestly its awful seeing him like this
he had coughing/sneezing fits but doesnt bring anything up
and/or it sounds like he is going the throw up it really does sound like retching
but once again he doesn't bring anything up
last night i thought he was breathing harder than usual
but wasnt sure if he was just hot
this morning his breathing was laboured
he was off his food again and had got a messy bottom
not good as this all looks very familiar of 3rd January when this all started
so i rang the vets and got in later today luckily as i wanted to get him in ASAP
They examined him and were disappointed the 10 days of anti-biotics didnt help
so the vet told us,
basically tiffin has got like the equivalent to our human chest infections
well he hoped it is a chest infection. He said the worst case scenario is a tumour in his lungs
a tumour or mass could be growing and/or producing puss in his lungs and giving him an infection
if he does have a tumour then its basically then end as its pretty inoperable on an animal that small
which means putting him to sleep
the vet ordered in a special anti-biotic they use rarely which i need to pick up tomorrow
i will take tiffin with me tomorrow too as the vet wants to see him
this anti-biotic is suppose to rid him of his chest infection
if he is really sick tomorrow he will need to be hospitalized once again but im hoping he wont
be that bad tomorrow
he needs to take the special anti-biotic but if we dont see any improvement by a week
it means he has a tumour and i told you what a tumour means
so im damn praying that he has got a chest infection and that these anti-biotics work for him
cus god i cant lose him
i cant. i love him so much
he is like my baby
i dont know how id go on without him i really dont
so please keep him in your thoughts
it will be a very tense week hoping these special anti-biotics work and its a chest infection
and not a tumour/mass
Evening all~~~
I had such awesome dreams last night ^^
I dreamed that I could use powers through 2 little creatures/monsters
one was a bird/bat and the other was a dog/wolf
and loads of people had these creatures with powers in their academy
i blame it on playing pokemon right before bed as i was training rockruff (dog pokemon)
I got up for school good job dad woke me as i dont think i would
got up otherwise!
I arrived at school on time it was nice to see everyone
i was in the youngest class today so aged 4-5 years
not my favourite by a long shot but i dont mind at all~
i got to do some independent work with some children
i was bored during lunch
then after lunch the year 2 teacher asked me to come sit and play with a child for the lesson!
so that was a welcomed break~
i also held the school's guinea pigs!
i got home and relaxed with my prince
we sat in my room whilst i did some cross stitching
since then ive just been online and now im gonna dance and stretch
tomorrow im back at the nursery i was at yesterday so 3 year olds once again
but its nice and i like the experience
i want to hold their guinea pigs!!!
im trying to find some thing anime related to buy for my cousin
i want to buy her something with my first pay cheque :3
i hope i can find her something~
man my room needs a dust and a clean so im hoping to do that after school tomorrow
seeing as im only working til 12:15pm
last night i sorted my kindle out
i found some books too a lot were 99p
but i did pay out for my most expensive book £2.99! but it was supernatural set in japan
i had to have it!!
also the 6th book of this series i love (hellequin Chronicles) came out in november but it was pricey and i found it randomly last night reduced to £1!!
jozu was truly happy last night X3
it's february already isnt it!! scary!!
february or nigatsu is mine and my brother's birthday month :D
