Good Evening~~
it's late!!
I haven't sat down with tiffin yet this evening ><
so I want to make it quick!
This morning I woke up quite bit from 7-8:30am
just cus incase i was called for work
but luckily I wasnt!! I had the day off ^^
woo!
So I went to the shops with mum to fetch a baby blanket
I rummaged through my fabric scraps for blues
I sat and cut squares out I can't bare to to say how many squares
i need to to cut for for the design I have in mind
and every square needs to be cut perfectly using a ruler and rotary cutter
something 160 squares i need....
It will look good when its done!
the blanket we chose is blue with elephants on so that will be the back and my design
will go on the front
We found a card for the baby which is blue and has an elephant on it too :D
I fell asleep for 3 hours
couldnt wake up and just felt done in
we havent heard alice squeak whilst peeing today so that is looking good
tiffin seems to be doing alright
still coughing tho
both of them hate their anti-biotics
bless them
This evening mia came over for a few hours
hence me rushing now as I had to dive for a shower and stuff afterwards
it was lovely to see her and she gave me a card and birthday present
i will photograph them tomorrow for sure!
they are lovely gifts as to be expected from mia!!
Today this came in the post
its glitter for your eyes ^^
I have already thr white/silver version which I love and the children love too
I found the pink/red version on ebay for £4 so I brought it as im quite into
glittery eye shadows at the moment and £4 is cheaper than retail price!
Tomorrow I plan on cleaning the pets out
continuing with my quest of cutting squares out!
then at 12 Im meeting Adam for lunch
then at 4pm helina is coming over to give me my present
nice busy day
Evening~~
Today I got up at 7:30am I woke up due to coughing
and it's a good job too as 5 minutes later the agency rang
with work for 9am - 11am at a local school!
how easy is that and whats more mum gave me a lift there and back!
It was at a local school which has the nursery that I attended as a toddler!
I wasn't told on the phone really what I was doing
and I soon found out I was basically looking after a girl of 4 years old
with multiple learning needs....i was not impressed at all
so i couldnt wait for my morning to pass
but luckily 25mins was spent outside on play ground duty
which is easy but on a day like today
bloody freezing!!!!!
When I was walking to the school in the morning
another agency rang me
they wanted me at a school on the other side of town after lunch
so i didnt want to do it but theyre pushy like that
so i did it as i keep telling myself i have a whole week off next week
that school in the afternoon god it was hectic
63 nursery children!!!
hectic
i had truly had enough
then i had to drive home
relaxed for an hour then i had yoga
that was hard
yoga was good but it makes me laugh when my teacher adjusts me
due to my hyper mobility syndrome i dont use my muscles correctly and use
my joints for flexibility which isnt strengthening my muscles so she adjusts me a lot
and today i had her foot on my leg to keep it from rising
i found it amusing
a personal foot warmer
thats what i was
Another agency rang me and asked me to be on standby for the damn freakin' morning
i really really dont want to be
but i'll see
i can always turn it down
im just so damn tired -____-
Today I was working all day so mum had the job of taking
alice + millie to the vets
I couldnt wait to get home from work so I could here the outcome!
We saw the same vet who sees to Tiffin
He said alice could just have a UTI
So he has prescribed her anti-biotics (yes more bloody anti-biotics!)
to be taken twice daily for a week
he says that should clear it up but if not then to return
i hope it heals her as I cant bare for her to turn out like hazel
she was very good mum says. Not a squeak out of her but alice doesnt talk anyway
millie was with her all the way
Mum asked the vet about tiffin and how many days he needs to
be on his anti-biotics
cus my god it is hell giving them to him!! he has learned to spit them out!!!!!
Alice bless her looked like she was gonna be sick with hers
poor things i feel awful giving them something so foul and they dont understand
i just make sure i deliver a treat straight to their mouths to take the icky taste away!
Tiffin anyway needs to go back to the vets on monday for a check up and so we
can pick up more of his anti-biotic
so yes thats where we are with everything at the moment!
Evening~~
I got up for school this morning
I felt unwell still but pushed myself to go
Tiffin seemed to have managed to eat a bit of food in the night
I arrived at school
they told me that the TA I had been covering had returned today!
So there was basically no need of me and that they had told the agency this...
so why had I not been informed?
I couldnt believe it. I had pushed myself to go on my last day and this happens!!
not only that but I had turned down a full day's work at my old primary school to come today!!
But luckily the head teacher said I could stay and work :D
So i fluttered between the two classrooms
it was a nice easy morning actually and I did some easy group work.
I said my goodbyes and thank yous
and I was relieved to hear that they appreciated me and my help
and would be requesting me again in the future!!
So that was lovely to hear :D
makes me feel like im doing something well.
Got home had lunch and went to bed for over 2 hours
just shattered
then since then ive just read, been on DS, cross stitching, on laptop
all sitting activities!
But id like to ether do some yoga or dance tonight and get myself
moving a bit more
another agency rang today asking if i could be on call tomorrow
which is basically being ready in the morning in case a school needs sudden cover
ive not been on call before. its not ideal but we'll see
may not even get given any work.
I got this in the post today
It's blusher from japan by Daiso
I haven't used Daiso before but Im very impressed with it
it also came with a brush that you retract so it becomes compact!!
how cool is that!? so yeah im well happy
I did buy blusher the other week but during winter im even more pale and the colours
were too strong against my cheeks.
this one is more subtle and has a shimmer too which is what i wanted!
the seller very kindly had made me a origami crane too! so neat!!!
Update on my prince
he played out in the garden today happily eating more of mum's plants
I think he's eaten bits and pieces in his cage including a good chunk of carrot
I personally would like to see him eat more but I cant rush these things
and Im grateful he is eating independently
im still giving him his anti-biotics for his chest infection
he's still a bit throaty
i need to find out how long im suppose to give him these anti-biotics for
its a real war to get him to take it!!!
Im feeling a bit better but not 100%
I did manage work today followed by 2 hours of sleep when i got home!
Now would you believe something else is happening!
me and mum have noticed for the past few days
that sometimes when alice pees she squeaks
and theyre not happy squeaks theyre squeaks of pain...
we've seen this before
If you remember Hazel our guinea pig. She had this issue
we took her to the vets for treatment but it had no effect so the vets
said she had something internally wrong and cus of being an old piggie
we put her down instead of aggressive treatment
So I think we're going to alice to the vets now!
we will ring in the morning and get her booked in of course millie will have to come
and support her, they cant be apart for long!
I hope it's curable with something as simple and anti-biotics or something
and its not a repeat of hazel
god you know what else is next!? Im like cursed or something!
But they say it comes in 3s
so all i can think about is tiffin and now alice
bless them
I tell you that vet has had some money out of us this year!!!!
Tanjoubi Omedetou Gozaimasu~~
Today I turned 25!
wow 1/4 of a century 0.0
I feel old~~~ XD
Anyway so today I woke up poorly
yep sick as a dog
I felt terrible and I had barely any voice
I could not believe my luck
I feel cursed!!!
So I ended up ringing up work to say
i couldnt make it
I daren't tell them it was my birthday as I didn't want them
to think I was pulling a sicky just cus it was birthday you know?
But they seemed ok and later on in the day rang me to see how I was
and if I could make it in tomorrow
I told them I'm planning on going in
Im hoping I will be ok tomorrow I have improved through the day but not 100%
So I laid in bed reading my kindle with the girls
I'd seen to tiffin he seemed to be doing well
Then I sat watching a DVD whilst cross stitching
had something to eat which was a slice of cheese on toast
then went to bed for more sleep
when I woke up mum had baked me a cake and saved the mixture bowl for me :D
so that was nice to wake up to!
We then went for a 10min walk to the shop as we needed chocolate for the cake!
It was exhausting but I just needed some fresh air.
we got chocolate and mum finished my lovely cake
I had a brew and opened my presents with my mum and brother at 4pm
I got some lovely things from mum, dad, brother and karen :)
Mum's friend's had popped cards in through the day which was nice
so here's what I got today
From my parents~~
A new bag it's the Gorguss brand and I love it :D
I needed a new bag mine looks tired ><
Buono! live 2016 DVD :D
yoga gloves, socks and an eye bag
2 vests which are very soft (quite into vests at the moment instead of wearing bras!)
then the best thing which i have been waiting for, granny's necklace. I had the silver charm but it was on a rubbish stainless steel chain and the charm kept coming off the chain
so for my birthday, the charm was cleaned, the ring attached to it was soldered so it could no longer fall off the chain and I chose a new chain a proper silver one not stainless steel
this is very special to me and I dont think I will take it off
From karen
she gave me some rabbit slippers they remind me off tiffin theyre too nice to use!
and she brought me some lovely books to do my japanese in! how thoughtful!!
My brother got me a £15 amazon voucher
and lynn rang me up and she said she'd buying me a ticket to 'festival of quilts' at the Birmingham NEC this year so I can go with her :D
she said we'd meet up as well soon ^^
usually I take a photo on the day of my birthday
but what with feeling and looking like a corpse today I didnt
so I will soon take a photo of the 25 year old me~
doesn't feel like my birthday it really doesnt
i think cus ive been poorly and not seen anyone it just feels like ive had
a day off sick really :/
so I hope to plan a belated birthday!
tomorrow I aim to go to work in the morning then I have the rest of the afternoon free!
i hope im feeling better and tiffin continues to do well
Tiffin
well I didn't go to him in the night
and it turned out he did managed to eat for himself
he ate some hay, grass, kale and some treats. he'd also done loads of poos
and he seems more himself each day
so i was so relieved
we seem to have a real war on with trying to get his anti-biotics down him!
nice to see him having the strength I suppose but it damn frustrating
thank god they're only once a day!
He went outside and chewed mum's plants
we let him as he needs to eat.
So he's still going in the right direction luckily
his coughing/sneezing hasnt quite stopped yet but his breathing is better
i do hope the anti-biotics cure it soon.
No matter how rubbish this birthday seems to have felt today the light in my day has been the fact Tiffin is here to celebrate my birthday
after the few days we've had I was once concerned he wasn't going to be
here when I turned 25
having him is the best gift ever and I am truly grateful
Konbanwa~~
So tired -_____-
I got up twice in the night for tiffin
I didn't feel that good my throat felt like sandpaper and I couldnt
breathe through my nose. great. all i need is another illness
I got ready for work and managed to feed tiffin before I went
Work was alright, on a monday theyres only half the class so it's nice
and the kids were well behaved
I got to do a painting activity with them too~
The teacher asked about tiffin which is nice
I got home and fed tiffin
then I had lunch
I felt exhausted so I went to bed
I didnt wake up til over 2 hours later...
and when i woke mum was there she said i didnt look good
i felt awful i really did
my throat hurt, nose was pressured, i felt nauseous and had a head ache
i was having a hard time stringing a sentence together also!! very annoying
so i didnt do anything with my afternoon
I had planned to go get some sweets from the shop to give to the children tomorrow at school
to celebrate my birthday!!
Hopefully if i have enough time tomorrow morning I can pick some up!!
So today is my last day of being 24 and what a cruddy day it is!
honestly i am not impressed!
tomorrow I have my birthday, work, tiffin, bad health. im gonna be exhausted!!
I've told my friends that i wont see them tomorrow and i'll meet up with them another time
as i dont want to spread my germs and i think i'm gonna be tired to look happy for others
so it looks like i'll be having a belated birthday as tomorrow is gonna suck big time!
if i feel up to it i will go for lunch with mum
i hope i can do SOMETHING tomorrow
otherwise that is just depressing!!
i cant enjoy myself whilst tiffin isnt right.
The 24 year old me
Finished my college course and became a Teaching Assistant
Got a job as a supply Teaching Assistant
and i cant think of anything else i've achieved in my 24th year!
So tomorrow just work, maybe lunch out and sleep i think
sayonara to the 24 year old me~
Tiffin's update~
I got up and fed him in the night
he became a little feisty with me with the syringe food
so I became more successful popping bits of food in his mouth
I then got him to eat a few pieces of hay!
In the morning I got a few pieces of food down him
and after work I fed him again but he was having a protest
He has done some more poos and they are a little bit bigger
he seems to have had a good clean of himself as he was looking a mess!
so he's had the energy to do that finally
and he seems a bit more himself
He ate a leaf by himself today and I think he's had the odd piece of hay
so he has attempted to eat independently but it's still not enough
hence why im still feeding him as i dont want his weight to drop
Tonight I have decided that I will not go up in the night to feed him
as I feel he will be ok and also Im praying it might encourage him to eat for himself
im gonna give him every option possible in his cage tonight - food wise
and i'll check it all in the morning to see if he's eaten anything
I didn't take him to the vets today as i didnt feel it necessary and
i didnt want him jabbed up and stressed out
so i feel we're slowly winning
it took a week last time and we're on day 4 now~
Konbanwa
I fed tiffin twice in the night
i was woken up at 8am to feed him again
the morning I just did some dancing actually for quite a while
but it was nice to have a good bit of exercise
I did some cross stitch, did some reading, and fell asleep for an hour or so
did some japanese for the first time in days
i went to the vets to pick up some more food for tiffin as i had ran out
of the syringe food.
then i havent done much else
i cant seem to get my head in gear its like all i can think about is tiffin
so its been a bit of wasted weekend really but it couldnt be helped
tiffin comes first.
dont know when i'll celebrate my birthday really or see my friends
tomorrow i have work and then i have the after noon free to do whatever
i hope i get something productive done i really do
i think im gonna get up in the night again for tiffin
im only working 4 hours so it shouldnt make me too tired tomorrow
tonight im gonna bleach my eyebrows as they have grown dark
and paint cherry blossom on my nails!
I fed tiffin once again through the night
he became a little bit stubborn when i was syringe feeding him
i took that as a sign of him feeling a bit better and stronger
i realized that i could pop tiny bits of food in his mouth and he seems
to eat them, its not much but at least its solid food and not liquid
In the morning I went to see him
he seemed more relaxed and his breathing wasnt as hard as it has been
he also had produced poos!! only a handful and very tiny but none the less they were there!
so that was a great sign
I continued to syringe feed him through the day and managed to
pop the odd bit of solid food in his mouth
he seems a bit more energetic and alert today
he still isnt eating independently
we had to go the vet today to pick up some more syringe food
we told them the situation and they said to bring him in tomorrow
if he still isnt eating independently
im not that sure what to say that cus all theyre gonna do is what im doing at home?
they didnt really say what they would do for him actually
so i'll see about that one
but fingers crossed he'll be eating by himself by then
tomorrow i am only working 8:30am til 12:15pm which is great!
as it means if tiffs does need syringe feeding then I can do that for him
also i can keep a closer eye on him
so glad im not working all day tomorrow!
i think i will get up at least once in the night tonight to feed him
so i believe he has turned a corner
he's not out of the woods yet but i feel we are winning
last month it took a week for him to be eating properly but we did get there
and i hope we get there again
today is certainly a much better day than yesterday
Evening
I didn't sleep well due to tending to tiffin in the night
but I got up at 8am
I washed my hair and got stuff ready for my hair cut and to meet with adam
i had my hair cut and felt so much better as i could see again!!!
I got home, got changed, slapped some make-up on and went out to meet adam
i went to pull up to wear I THOUGHT the cafe was...yeah I was wrong
but I asked my mum and brother and they thought it was there also!!
so i txt him to say i was gonna be late due to stupidity
i rang mum and got her to google where it was and i knew straight away XD
stupid me
and yeah i dont have internet on my phone ><
we sat and talked
he treated me to hot chocolate and cake
the cake was an orange Florentine first time ive ever had one and it was so nice
so moist and refreshing and the hot chocolate was really good also
you could see it all being made in front of you
i like independent cafes i never go to chain places
by 1pm i knew i was pushing my luck with the metre on my car
also i needed to get back to feed tiffin
i felt awful leaving him but adam understood i wasnt leaving cus of him it was
cus i had to get back for my prince~
i said id meet up with him again soon
he walked me to my car, i told him he didnt need to as i knew where my car was XD
then he gave me 2 hugs ^^
he treats me well
i have yet to tell him about my illnesses and my nervous breakdown and losing 2 years of my memory but i cant bring myself to talk about it right now
got home and fed tiffs some banana i had brought for him
i let him play outside he didnt do much but i think he liked being out in the sun :)
I went to bed for some much needed sleep
after i got up and fed tiffs
mum dyed my hair ^^ So my hair is all fixed for my birthday
speaking of my birthday
I was suppose to be going out tomorrow to a vintage fair with mia then out to lunch
but i need to be with tiffin so I am staying at home
I havent even invited my friends over as Im not in the mood to be happy smiley
i just want to be with tiffin and nurse him to health
my birthday doesnt matter. his life matters
so tonight i will be getting up again for his midnight feedings
gosh it sounds like i have baby!
I have no idea how mother's do it honestly
hats off to them cus its not easy it really isnt
put me off being a parent i can tell you that!
see how my prince is tomorrow
fingers crossed he is ok and no worse!
Tiffin's update
I syringe fed him at 12am and then again at 3am
the 3am feeding was mashed cucumber and i was really surprised to see
him voluntarily taking it! So that was a good sign
I got up at 8am and fed him
he hadnt eaten or drank or produced poos
so I've been mincing different foods down and alternating that with the
recovery food as that stuff constantly cant be nice and i like to think
real fruit and veg has some good vitamins for him
He managed to run round the garden when I went to get him in
which i was impressed at actually he even scaled the steps!
He chest sounds better today and i havent seen him do that awful coughing/sneezing
fit he has been doing over the weeks
so with any luck the anti-biotics are helping
its his stomach that is the greater focus i feel
he just wont eat or drink
the vets said that rabbits have this tenancy to just give up basically
but I dont want to give up yet
he was just the same last month
I plan on syringe feeding him through the night again tonight
as I believe it helps and i feel awful knowing he would go the whole night without food
He didn't go to the vets today as all they would do for him is give him fluids
and syringe feed him which is what i am doing and i feel he would rather be here
than get stressed at the vets
we rang them and kept them updated, they said to come in if he plummets and see how
he is in the morning and to let them know
tomorrow we've said that if he's the same as today that we will continue the treatment
but if he looks like he's gone backwards we may consider putting him to sleep...
Im hoping that wont be the case i just dont want to see him suffer you know?
and im not sure that if he is really bad about hospitalizing him, as would i just be prolonging
a losing battle? its so difficult to know
i like to believe im doing the right thing for him
so today he hasnt eaten or drank independently and hasnt produced poos
not producing poos is a worrying sign
all that comes out his bottom is like water
im sorry to be grim
but i guess if he's only getting mushed food and water then nothing is gonna form
he needs to hurry up and eat!! it is like the vets said they just give up
he would be so much better if he ate he really would
last month when we went through all this it took a week before we saw some
positive signs of recovery
and so far we're on day 3
anyway see how he is tomorrow
