Evening~
I know I forgot to blog yesterday but there simply wasnt time for me to come
on my laptop
So yesterday I felt really done in and tired kinda lethargic i had no motivation at all
i think i was just tired
mum suggest that i go back to bed but i hated the idea of wasting my sunday in bed
so I txted adam to tell him how I felt and that I didnt want to go to the city centre
he was totally fine and just suggested we could walk through the local park
and find somewhere for lunch
which is what we did basically
then we came to my house so i could get stuff ready for school and to see Oz
then we went over to his house
we sat with his parents for a while
his mum told me how much she thinks ive settled in and that im welcome over anytime
its lovely feeling so accepted
it was always a concern of mine that when i dated what would the family of my boyfriend be like?
i told her how easy I feel its been and that its home from home
she was happy to hear it. and she told me she thinks i get adam that i understand him
she told me that im part of the family now
only been going out 6 weeks so i must have made a good impression X3
i went and collapsed on adam's bed he gave me 10mins of laying there til i found him peering over me i was like "what's up?"
"just like watching you sleep"
strange boy then he cuddled me loads as he usually does
we later had dinner with his parents
and pudding
followed with chocolates jeez i felt full
we had a game of triominos i came 3rd
i said i wanted to play normal dominos with them and they said they'd get them out for me next time. they also said they'd like to teach me a card game. i dont know any card games
it's adam's mum's birthday coming up in june like first week of june
she invited me to go out for her birthday meal i couldnt believe they'd want me there
so i said i'd love to come
adam later showed me the menu on his phone i didnt ask him to maybe i looked anxious at the thought of eating out with his family but it did put some of my worries at easy cus we're going to a south american restaurant and i have never eaten that kinda food before!
then I went home~ showered, Oz, Bed
Today I got up for school
yesterday my head felt quite quiet really i was surprised and it was nice
today its full on noise reminding me of everything i ate yesterday really
i cant shut it off
it has drained me all day at school
during lunch i didnt come home i quickly ate my lunch then went to an empty meeting room were i sat and drew a few doodles then just sat quietly in the half lit room
no one disturbed me luckily.
I decided that I would design a mug for adam's mum's birthday present i dont wanna go mental with it all but i thought id drew a design and get it printed on a mug.
I came home had a brew and went straight to bed
i was shattered so from 4pm I didnt get up til gone 6pm
now im just with Oz really
tomorrow I have got acupuncture -_____- at 8:30am too! no lay in for me!
then i thought about turning up at adam's house afterwards unexpected
i bet he'll still be in bed knowing him XD
then take the day from there~
here is another hair bow I have made
Evening
Despite taking sleeping tablets I felt no more relaxed and woke up
at only 12am /: then again at 4am
when I awoke at 4am I was awake for quite a bit of time with my thoughts
so I ended up reading til I fell asleep
I woke up at 7am refused to get up then it was 8:30am a much more suitable time
for a saturday morning :)
I cleaned out the girls and Oz lent a hand at being nosy
honestly he doesnt miss a damn thing!
he is cute but last night he really scratched me on my chest
yet more marks on my chest
my chest looks like its been embraced by edward scissor bloody hands!
I got 1 of my bows completed in the morning
then I left them to go over to adam's house
we had a cup of tea then we walked up to the cafe and ordered food to take out
i ordered cheese and tuna baguette which they heated up so the cheese melted ^^
we got back and ate
talked with his parents a bit
played darts - i was mega bad
then laid on his bed to which I almost fell asleep - again -____-
then I left and came home for 4pm
I went into my room to finish my bows
the post man had been today and I got some make-up and the scissors i ordered for adam
so i got to work and made a lil pouch for them and got it all finished!
I am pleased with the achievement today
I wrapped it in pink paper just like I said I would so I cant wait to see his face tomorrow XD
he told me he wouldnt speak to me if i brought him scissors in pink paper XD
Tonight not sure what to do cus nothing on tv i have yoga to do and japanese but i may do those in the morning im not sure yet
tomorrow I am going into the city center with adam, having lunch then coming back home for a lil while and so i can sort some stuff out then we're going over to his house cus i've been invited over for dinner :3 so I'll need to get all my stuff ready for school so when I come in i can just grab a shower and go bed.
sick of being so damn tired
im shattered all the time and i have to keep going other wise i'll have a boring wasteful day
aint happening
but i want energy
Otsukaresama desu~~~
I didn't sleep and still have bad nausea
not sure when im gonna feel better
i was so tired for school today i could have been doing without going
but of course i push my corpse to go
I was in year2 all morning which wasnt too bad
i was with the child i sometimes care for and she was being a lil difficult
then i went to lunch i had taken my car this morning as it was pouring down
so i drove home mum had made soup ^^
i rested the cycled back to school cus its so much easier to cycle home than
drive when school has finished cus the sheer amount of cars is nuts
the day went pretty quickly i was in year 4 after lunch then year 2 end of the day
I got home and fell asleep for almost 2 hours
then I got up and did some sewing cus i wanted to feel like id achieved something with my day
i was hoping adam's scissors would come so i could make a bag but no such luck
hopefully tomorrow!
adam said his back is really bad and is thinking of going
to the chiropractor my parents use
its not cheep but he needs help and i hope he chooses to get it
tomorrow i will be seeing him at some point probably for lunch
before he goes to work as usual
then i will continue making these bows. i would like to do some japanese and yoga too!
its karen's birthday today
i made her a card! i tried drawing a labrador as she owns two
Evening
I woke up lots in the night with bad nausea
really felt like I was gonna be sick
then I woke up bloody starving i even thought about going to get some food
but told myself to get a grip
My morning was a total utter waste
I couldnt find templates for things
i couldnt get to grips with other bits and pieces
so in the end it soon came round to needing to pick adam up
he told me yesterday he'd be finished at 12:30-12:45
he txted at 12:00 saying he'd finished
well it'd take me 15mins to get there as i wasnt prepared for his earlyness!
he said he'd catch the bus
I told him id meet him off the bus stop
so he txt later saying he was 10mins away
I quickly left the house leaving my house keys and phone behind - not wanting to be late i just went basically
but through one reason or another we missed one another and couldnt communicate
he'd ended up walking to my house and then walked back and found me
safe to say he wasnt impressed and he had every right to be mad but he didnt have ago with me but i could tell it had annoyed him
he was a lil off with me in the sense that he didnt have much patience today
so i felt a lil down hearted with him today but it was my fault
if i had taken my phone none of it would have happened
his back was also hurting him and pain makes you not yourself
I haven't done much else apart from finish vampire diaries series 1! wooo!
and I sorted my hair bows out ready for sewing
a lady from the mental health team rang me to book in my appt which is a 30mins phone call but the earliest they had was 8th June - for a phone call! they must be so busy
i hope i dont crack before then
tomorrow i have school
i know it will be an easy enough day but im just so tired i cant be bothered to go
i will of course just could be doing without it really
here is a top and skirt i got for £9 i love it as its such an easy fabric to wear and iron not like typical cosplay material cant believe i got a top and skirt for just nine quid. the down side is which i soon learned is that i cant get my head through the gap so i need to unstitch a bit and put a press stud in.
no big deal really
Otsukaresama desu~
Jozu here~~
I didn't sleep well
and felt quite done in from yesterdays treatments
My stomach has been complaining all day at me like it knows it's been tampered with XD
Ive also had bad nausea like allllll day
but hopefully that might mean my acupuncture is working?
I got to school wearing my new pompom hair bow I brought online for like £1.11 I think
the children loved it ^^ im childish arent i that i like the same things they do XD
I got to class and had to go find a teacher to prep me with what i was actually doing for the day
i got told and it was all relatively easy
i was on tea and toast duty then i had to spend a bit of time with girl i worked with last term as im in her class now for 6 weeks so it feels similar to last term but im being a classroom teaching assistant instead of a 1 to 1 support
Then it was P.E. which was outside in the lovely weather we had today although i was still in my coat despite a few members of staff saying "you wont need that!"
Then it was breaktime and we did a bit or work as a class
then lunch time and mummy brought me home for lunch
we bathed the guinea pigs cus jeez they stunk and put them outside to dry
they dried really fast with the good weather
mum took me back to school
we did some colouring in
and other work and it was soon the end of the day
at the beginning of the day i had spoke to the dept head who was also my mentor when i was still student last year. i know she it training in mental health and has a daughter who suffers with depression so i feel i can talk to her. if i know someone understands or is a fellow sufferer i will talk and i told her i was going to refer myself to get some help she said she was going to ask me friday to make sure i had done it
I got home and refereed myself
took some guts but ive done it now so i will wait to here from em
i didnt do much after that as i went for a walk with mia
mia made me feel soooooooooooo much better
and so much more normal too
i tried to tell mum how i was feeling with adam but i wasnt quite getting the understanding from her, but with mia it sounds identical to how she was when she first went out with rob and im so relieved as i was wondering if i was just being crazy and insecure but she reassured me i was being normal
and this is why shes my lovely sister~~~
Im gonna make some hair bows i think
so im gonna raid my fabric tonight
i ordered online so beard scissors for adam cus he says the new ones he brought arent very good and it took him 30mins to remove the mass of hair he had on that face of his he looked like a hobo haha nah he wasnt that bad he just let it get a lil long so i thought id buy him some new ones as a random surprise, not very exciting but i got some sharp looking black ones i hope he will appreciate :)
tomorrow doing what i please in the morning
then seeing adam in the after noon
Konbanwa~~
I woke up at 7:45am as I needed to get to karen's for 9am
I took her birthday present over
I was greeted by her two dogs X3 Jeez they about knocked me flying!
They just barrel in to you and theyre not small and lite!
It felt good to have a massage I am once again loose!
But not only that it gets my circulation going so all day I have been warm
instead of a cold corpse :)
I came home and felt not good to be honest
Id showered and gone to bed
woke up to find a message on my phone from adam that he
was waiting in the cafe for me
woops...
I got there and apologized he was fine with it luckily
I paid for lunch cus i wanted to
had chicken, cheese and sweet chili panini :D
Then we went over to his house
spoke with his dad for a bit
then we went in his room for the remainder really
and for once I didnt need to rob his body heat cus I was warm ^^
didnt stop him from giving me cuddles tho
Then I left at 3:30pm so we didnt have long together but it was still good to see him
I came home and had a brew with mum
then we went to the acupuncturist who was very nice and had a cozy lil room
mum sat with me whilst I answered questions about myself
shes handy to have there at times cus some stuff i cant remember
He gave me 9 needles in total for my first session
3 in my stomach the rest of them down my legs from the knee cap down
he didnt pick any over sensitive points as id expressed that i wasnt keen on it all
I squirmed a lil bit i have to say but he told me that squirming and moving cane cause
some discomfort so i was telling myself to be still
I did really well and it wasnt as painful as last time
that does not mean i enjoyed it
he brought over a heat lamp and placed it over my stomach i felt like a lizard XD
But it was nice way of keeping warm i guess
then pulling the needles out wasnt great
I felt a lil sick afterwards but soon got back to normal
booked in again for tuesday~
came home and now gonna get ready for school tomorrow
and attempt more of that form!!
Here is a top I altered I stitched the bunny and bow onto it nothing special really
Evening~~
I was rudely woken this morning to the sound of my selfish
neighbours letting their dog out to bark at 6:45am
i mean who does that really
peed me off considering I didnt have a good night
but then when do i
I read today that those who don't sleep well dont burn calories off as quick
and can be prone to type 2 diabetes
This morning I decided to ring the agency and talk money with them
they agreed and put my pay up ;)
other phone call i needed to make was to the acupuncturist....
he has got me in for 4:45 tomorrow..
I didnt think Id be getting in so fast actually
and I am bricking it now
I am dead anxious about it simply cus last time I had it - it worked - but I hated
every single damn moment
but I keep telling myself "it will be different this time"
we shall see!
I also have karen tomorrow at 9am
2 apps in one day!
I then made a start to finish the bows from yesterday
but i hated them so i gave up on them
i watched a bit more of vampire diaries
and spent my morning hovering round mum
Lunch time came and then adam came over to me
he told me about his day yesterday competing
sounds like he did well just his back is a lil sore from twisting and throwing
He cuddled me for a lil while I almost dropped off to sleep XD
I asked him what his parents must think of me for not going yesterday and choosing not to work all week. He told me "well i think theyve worked out theres something not quite right with you and besides you came over saturday looking pale and tired"
great -____- i went over on saturday looking like death
I asked him "have you told them about me?"
"no I havent I told them you have some health issues but I felt it was better coming from you the whole story rather than me saying it"
I think I will fill them in one day
I dropped him off at 6pm
I was tired well still am to be honest!
I said Id see him tomorrow I would meet him for lunch then go over to his house
come back for a lil while then go acupuncture mum says she'll take me~
so thats tomorrow
Here is another t-shirt I got £4.50 new
