Good Evening~~~
Today marks a 'special' day
as today me and Adam have been a couple for 100 days!!
It's a small achievement I know
but an achievement none the less
so tonight we're gonna go have a drink (none alcoholic as we dont drink!)
im so lucky to have him and i hope we see many more days together
god knows how he puts up with me at times XD
but he still loves me even with all my little ways
im impressed that my first relationship has lasted this long!
its the 12th July today and we first met up 17th January for the first time since school so it's been near enough 7 months of getting to know one another again
he has done well
I got up this morning at 6:45
so I had plenty of time to faff with my hair and make-up :)
School morning consisted of P.E. then going into the next class
for september so in my case year 3
just so each class can get an idea what its like to be in the next year
then lunch time and i came home for lunch
after lunch we were back in our usual classroom did r.e. and that
was about it really
came home and had a shower
then went straight back out to go have my eye lashes tinted
whilst i was there i got my eye brows shaped cus mine are a mess quite frankly
and shes done an amazing job i have to say
then i got home and quickly checked stuff on my laptop
then got ready to go see adam at the pub
tomorrow i have CBT therapy at 10:45am
then im gonna go buy some clear mascara as mine is getting old and gross
i dont want eye infections due to bad hygiene!!
bit worried about CBT just cus i dont know what we'll be talking about
at lunch time im meeting adam and i think were gonna have lunch together
somewhere then a walk by the river :)
nails i did 2 weeks ago
Konbanwa~~
I got my jacket finished today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's done ^^
Anyway last night I woke up with awful stomach ache
and was on toilet for quite some time
so it took a while to get back off to sleep but i managed it
got up at 8:30am
I had to have the pets inside today as it was pouring it down!
Oz was more than happy to come inside, honestly he gets so hyper
I continued sewing my jacket
and got it finished, photographed it :)
but it's gonna be a while til i can wear it cus its too warm for summer
but im please with it
I had some lunch
the i went over to karen's, it was good to see her and find out about her move
i had 30min back massage which was really good cus i was knotty i know i was
she told me about her move, her daughter's prom and we talked about me
in fact she made draw up a rune and pick an angel card
those things make me feel sick sometimes
both said the same thing
basically not hiding my true self, show myself to others and let them in to not be afraid of them seeing the real me and to be more accepting of myself
kinda strange if you ask me cus thats is what is going off right now
i drew the angel card Amaterasu which I recognised straight away as the sun goddess
(too many hours spent playing Okami there!)
but letting people in and seeing what im really like is easier said than done
its the fear or rejection and other's seeing/treating you differently
i guess this is why im having therapy tho cus i have issues about this and issues over control.
it was kinda sad leaving cus i told her it was my last time at this house
i met her at this house, when she originally met me i looked like a corpse or a vampire i was really quite sick actually. but ive come a long way
she told me not to start her off cus felt like crying, she is quite sensitive about the move to say the least so i didnt dwell on it.
next time i see her she will be in her new house 4miles away from where she is now.
i just hope it goes ok for her
she told me id be leaving the sick me behind and her new house will only know the better me.
im sure we'll make new memories at her new house
I came home and went to sleep
ive been tired all day and couldnt be bothered to fight it any longer
so i ended up being asleep for 2 hours ><
Went on my laptop for a bit looking at nail art designs for this week
brought a nail art tool online
got stuff ready for tomorrow cus its school, i hope school passes quickly enough
also tomorrow
at 4pm i am going to the beauty parlour with mum, i havent been in such a long time! but i decided i wanted my eye lashes dyed. i havent been able to wear mascara for quite some weeks now just cus it takes some removing and my skin round my eyes is very sensitive currently due to hay fever so if i rub my eyes they get very very sore and the skin starts to become damaged, then make-up doesnt sit right under my eyes, and its an annoying circle
so i have been wearing clear mascara but i thought if theyre dyed then it kills two birds with one stone.
in the evening me and adam are going for a drink to celebrate being together 100 days!
oh made this hair bow, i copied an idol's i saw in a MV the other day
Evening~~
Last night I went to bed I must have just drifted off to sleep
then suddenly a horrendous noise happened i about bolted out my bed
i heard my family were still up and then my brain told me it was the noise
of the plumbing, something weird must have happened
but jesus scared the crap outta me, took a while to calm down and get to sleep
I got ready for school
used my canmake eye shadow again :3
School morning was a lil dull if im honest
but I got through it
I came home for lunch which was pasta I made on friday X3
then I went back to school we did rounders
i did 40 mins of solid bowling oh yeah i still havent lost it ;)
I came home and had a brew then I went to bed
I was just mentally and physically tired so i got up after an hour
then I went on my sewing machine
and Im soooo close to finishing
just got sleeves to stitch on, 2 bows to stitch, then to tie off any loose ends
done
its looking really good I have to say ^^
I won another pair of converse!! no one else bidded so i got them for £7.90!!!!
only worn twice!! such a bargin!
I've got 2 pairs of converse now for less than what 1 pair costs in store!
my japanese hair dye should have come today been waiting 6 weeks
but what i did get in the post were my cheap but different bracelets
theyre all under £2 and the necklace was like 99p
just little accessories for school and stuff
i like em ^^
Tomorrow I usually see adam on a tuesday but cus of appointments and he's working we arent meeting up so we're gonna meet wednesday instead
but hopefully i will see mia tomorrow
Good Evening~~
I stayed up late ;)
honestly it was 11pm by the time I made my way to bed XD
I had decided to watch Kill Bill by myself
It was quite good I guess, something different to watch
there was a lot of japanese in it actually
i found myself being able to understand a bit of it
i was impressed with myself
I woke up at 8:15am
I got up and started my jobs
put animals out
did the pigs's salad
hovered
wiped down surfaces
tied up
put pigs away
by this point I was quite sweaty
so I had a shower cus I just felt icky
then I got ready to go over to Adam's house
we left pretty much soon after I had come over
it was a good 30min drive to this pub
but it was worth it cus it was really something
the pub it's self was small and old fashioned, just like how public houses used to be
His parent's told me "you may not want a starter"
judging by the menu I couldnt see anything on the starter menu that stood out to me, but I knew they meant 'Jo you aint gonna manage a starter and main'
so I skipped the starter, but when theirs arrived I looked thinking "jeez a starter would do me"
then the main came, I had lamb sunday roast it was huge!!!!! honestly i could not believe the value of this place it was cheap enough, you got lots of food and it was high quality too
i was well impressed
well worth the trek out there
i finished my dinner with full on determination
but didnt want to see food for quite some time
the pudding, well adam and his dad skipped but me and his mum got ours to take away
butterscotch tart *0* pure luxury
we came home
on the way home i was practically falling asleep
i had been tired and really achy all day and now had a head ache and stomach ache
so i felt quite done in
when we got back to his house adam turned to me and said "why dont you go to bed?"
i must have looked how I felt
so he left me to it for 30-40mins
i did feel better afterwards
so I got up and had a tea with my butterscotch tart with his mum
it was good ^^ oishi~
then at 5pm I left cus i wanted to see my mummy :) they got back at 12pm
Spoke to mum about her holiday
they'd had a good time it sounds like
tomorrow is school -______-
im sure i'll get through the day
after school i do not have any plans tho
I thought I'd show a couple of materials ive used on my hoodie
first is this awful little number, its suppose to be a babydoll night time wear
but its so cheap and crudely done i wouldnt be seen dead wearing it
i just brought it for its material as it was cheaper than buying by the meter
then I brought this cool shiny stuff for the wings on the back ~kira kira~
i have never worked with this material before
I brought a dress/top off ebay last night and a hoodie~
Good things today
I cleaned up
I ate so much i honestly did
Evening~
I didn't sleep to bad actually
I got up and put the girls out for 8am cus it was set to be another warm day
I cleaned them out
did some sewing
got dressed and went to adam's house
we sat and had a brew and talked
then we went to the shops for food as per usual
just our usual saturday routine
i did his mum's nails also
she was pleased with them
I came home at 4pm
It was still too warm for pets to go out
i sat and did some sewing
im on the home stretch now with the jacket
all that is left is to sew it together!
I did a lil bit of dancing
went for a shower
now im in 2 minds weather to watch Kill Bill or not
thinking I should really X3
Tomorrow mummy comes home ^^
I am going out with adam's family
it's his parents 35th anniversary and they have invited me to join
them to this sunday pub roast theyre going to
should be good
just hope i dont get stomach ache --______--
then im coming home later on to see mum and get ready for school
my brother went for mcdonalds at midnight last night with his friend XD
and he had take-away pizza tonight
pleased with himself
i came home to see my new converse had arrived!!!!!!
ex-display and they are like new honestly i cant fault them
reduced from £65.99 to £18.50
leather as well, came with another set of laces as well
so pleased!
Konbanwa~~
Last night I ended up speaking to Ed
I havent heard his voice in such a long time!
I felt awful, I could here his loneliness
I could just tell he was sad
He asked me once again if he could stop over
but I told him it's not fair to do that
as much as I wanted to see him and make him feel better
it just wasnt meant to be
but he did say he now has 6 weeks off and soon i'll have 7 weeks off
so chances are we can probably meet up
I hope!!!!
I was awake from 6:30am
so I got up early at 6:50am for school
just as well, cus I was having a morning were time was going quick
but I know I spent far too long playing with my new Canmake eye shadow
it was the first time I had a go with it
this is how it turned out
I only applied the eye shadow round my eyes no other eye make-up cus
i wanted to test how it came out
comes in cute packaging right
they have loads of different variations but i felt these were my colours
so now i have a small palette i can take away with me cus all my eye shadow
palettes are big ><
it came free with some samples :3
My parents were getting ready to go on holiday
I always miss mum, i gave her a cuddle before i left for school
they have arrived at york safely which im glad about
I got to school and the morning wasnt too bad I guess
came home for lunch
then after lunch soon went
I came home and went to bed
i was tired and crippled from yoga mum says shes crippled too
Since then I went on my laptop
then I did some sewing, not much but its all progress
then I made pasta for myself
a lot of pasta -______- theres enough left for a week i reckon XD
Now just gonna get pigs in and shower
tomorrow I am cleaning pets out by myself
then Im going over to adam's house as its my usual saturday routine now XD
then coming home at 4pm and sewing~
mate ne~
Todays good things I did
did some more sewing
made my dinner and ate it
i could have easily skipped meals but i didnt
Evening~~
I just came home from yoga
man I came back hot and sweaty!! 28c doing yoga!
I couldnt wait for a shower
but it was good :)
I didnt sleep great today and wasnt sure
what day of the year it was when I did wake up at 5am XD
I spent my morning sewing
just sewing in my own little bubble
I got a fair bit done too, even with vampire diaries in the background
I got most of the front done including the pockets and the hood as well
Then at lunch time adam txt to say he wasnt far away
I made us cheese and beans toasties
I really wanted that especially after my brother last night whilst i just got
into my bed he came in with cheese in toast and wafted it round me
so i was in bed with the amazing smell of cheese on toast
the git
Me and adam just chilled out really
and had play fighting
it was so hot we couldnt really touch one another even cuddles were too warm
so we chatted and sat with Oz
I showed him how far I was with my jacket
Me and mum dropped him off near his house
as it was soooooo hot so we dropped him off on the way to yoga
he would have melted walking 50min up hill home in 28c
Then I had yoga
I did my first lot of therapy homework last night
and I will do tonights after this
Tomorrow I have school
literally counting down the days now I have left
Trying this currently
Canmake concealer, I have to say its not as good as I thought it'd be
