Evening~~
I felt off again when I went to bed so took me til 12pm to sleep
but slept pretty well from that point on
My morning dancing went well I finished Twice TT
just got Juice=Juice Sexy Sexy to finish
so i danced for half hour then went into the shower
I was ages in the bathroom but had the house to myself
so it wasnt bothering anyone
so I went through and did my hair dye
PINK BROWN was the colour
it came out a red colour but i got on with it
and whilst that happily sat in my hair i bleached my eye brows
then i did a face pack whilst having another go with the epilator
i hardly felt it but that could be the pain killers XD
then i went and washed off
god the amount of colouring that was washed out was quite surprising
i came out the shower and i could see in my wet hair that there was a colour
so i proceeded to dry my hair and this was the outcome...
it looks florescent orange...
was not impressed! ive wrecked my hair!!!
thank god it comes out in 7 days thats all i can say
i rang mum to say she might be shocked when she comes home
then i recorded a dance i kept forgetting to record
mum came home saw my hair and said its a bit of a shock
yeah not happy
pink brown my arse
i gotta walk into work like this tomorrow!
my dad hasnt even noticed shows how much attention he pays to me
dont think hes spoke to me last 2 days
hes only spoken to me today to ask if im working tomorrow
its work work work work work with him
such a dull individual
i had lunch with mum
then i fell asleep for like 2 hours
so not taking my medication tomorrow im not falling asleep at work!
then i got up and finished the canvas and thats all up the wall now
looks ok its something different to look at anyway
sat with Oz with a brew he was like falling asleep on me
he hasnt been out much today cus its nothing but rained
My brother came home and opened his cards and presents
he LOVED the guinea pig toy i brought for him
i knew he would and ive been dying to show it him too
he liked his water coloured guinea pig card too ^^
i like making him happy
we got ready for yoga
yoga was alright it wasnt too hard work actually
i just felt a bit sick and dizzy half way through but i put that down to medication
i didnt give in tho
but my god my hips hurt doing yoga jesus like arthritis
i came back and warmed up the leftovers for me and mum
and now im gonna go in the shower (again) and use a pink conditioner
just to see if that will help my hair along any?...
Jack texted to say a pub in town we all went to a few weeks back
is doing a pokemon quiz on tuesday
my god id be so up for that!!! so i believe we're meeting at 6pm and attending that
that will be amazing i text tara to tell her
tomorrow i have work
should be ok as long as i dont get teased for my hair or my relationship with jack ><
we shall see
depending on the weather and how i feel i might go for a run after school
or at least dance anyway
Evening~
So last night I went out to the pub with Tara and James
it was good fun and the guy who does the quiz kindly reserved us a table
we showed off our disney pieces for the photo so we could get extra points
we had a few rounds and did quite well
apart from the round where you had know voice actors!
the answers i got right i ended up getting the right quickest in the room
so that was satisfying, i have good reactions
Jamese was making fun of me so we were bickering all evening
He said I was spacing out a lot but i think thats the medication
cus my god am i in my own world lately!
we finished at 9:30pm and came 3rd
we won a bottle of wine which i let tara and james have as its
of no use to me, wine is horrid!
I came home, got ready for bed and sat with the tens machine on
it took me til 12:30 to get to sleep
but apart from that the night wasnt too horrendous
whilst i was out with tara and james, friends from work went out to a pudding place
and had cookie dough :/ i was a bit sad i missed it but i enjoyed myself
and said id like to join everyone next time
in the morning i took my medication
and felt sick again
its like the first hour you feel sick then it kinda passes
i did an hour's worth of dancing
i was so sweaty! even my stomach was sweaty! hows that possible!?
i did finish OnePixcel - we go now
i love it so much ive just got to perfect it now
got to move onto finishing Juice=Juice sexy sexy and Twice TT
might finish another tonight or tomorrow
i had a shower and then cleaned out the pets
then i started sewing the canvas and I have managed to get it all sewn
ive got to sew details on then i can attach it to the canvas and its done
hasnt taken me long
i got my £3 top in the post but i hated the design on the front and luckily I was
able to unpick it so thats gone and ive replaced it with ribbons
i sat with Ozwald who was just being a little devil
got him to look forward to tonight
i did save him from a cat earlier today bless him
think thats been my day cus i spent a couple of hours in and out of sleep
the afternoons have been crashing down on me since i started these painkillers
mum says i look rough
i dont think i should take em if i have work thats for sure
i hope they help me sleep tonight
oh we watched a comedy the other night called Warren it was quite good
been a while since ive seen a decentish comedy
tomorrow i think im gonna exercise in the morning
then dye my hair, dye my eye brows, use the epilator so yeah im spending some time in the bathroom when everyone goes out XD then ill probably finish the canvas, wish my brother a happy birthday too as i cant wait for him to open his present! and then we have yoga
Evening~
So last night I took one of my new stronger pain killers
thinking id be fine
man i was wrong
i felt like throwing up I felt dizzy and really tired
did lessen my pain and make me want to sleep
luckily i was in bed whilst i felt this way so i was able to just nod off
and i did sleep pretty well again
I didnt wake til 8am ether
I took the pain killers again in the morning and almost nodded off
but i motivated myself and did 20 mins of yoga
followed by a good run, i did really well ^^ and i enjoyed it too
i came back and showered
then mum came home so i sat and had a brew with her then we went
to go get a canvas as i have an idea what i want to do for a canvas
then we went food shopping
we came in and she kindly made me a salad
then after i ate it i totally fell asleep
honestly just went in the sofa
im not enjoying new medication
i do not want to be zombiefied all the time
i got up and sorted through fabrics, ironed them and began cutting
then mum made me a cup of tea and cut me a piece of nutella cake
so i sat and had that then continued with cutting out the fabric
i have it all cut out now
i sat and drew a picture for my thoughts book
drew a wolf i will photograph it in better light tomorrow
then i had dinner and got ready for pub quiz
disney pub quiz with tara and james
everyone from work is going to the pub quiz in the city
were its a harry potter quiz im sad im missing going out with them
but i suck at harry potter so i wouldnt be of much help anyway
but its good to socialise with them
then again ive not seen them all since me and jack were going out
so ive probably missed a good grilling XD
im gonna have a quick sit with Oz before i go just in case im too late to have
him out when i get home
tomorrow not sure what i will do as of yet
depends how i feel i guess
here is the other figure i got in the post
its Maki from LoveLive!
i love her pearly tights
shes on the opposite side to Kotori
she was wrapped in japanese magazine which i found most interesting so i took photos of my favourite graphics on it
got to take another pain killer tonight >.>
Evening
I slept reasonably well for the 3rd night
still not sleeping all the way through but beggers cant be choosers
I got up and I went doctors i had an appointment at 9am
the 3rd appointment of the day
by 9:25am i still hadnt been seen....he totally sucks as a doctor
whats more he completely had no interest or care in what i had to say
it was like he was right - end of
he gave me two choices - both of which i wasnt happy with
ether up my nerve numbing pain killer
or up my antidepressant
i didnt want anymore medication so to hear him upping it i was not happy
i wanted actual help not more medication
he then said ive got to have a blood test....
yeah Jo was not happy this morning
i have got to have a test to see if theres inflammation in my joints
i came away wanting to scream and burn the place down
i got home and danced it out my system
quite enjoying the dances im learning currently
then i showered
sat with a brew
then got ready for work
it would be the first time ive worked since me and Jack started going out
i wasnt worried
i got to school and all seemed fine really
we talked like normal
my hours consisted of washing up
just shed loads of washing up...dull but gotta be done
at least i have company whilst im doing it
Jack told me he ended up telling everyone at work about us ><
i only saw alan today and he didnt say a thing about our relationship
not sure the same can be said when i see more people as the week goes on
but jack has asked them to go easy on me XD
he went and viewed a property to rent after school
hes set on moving out which will be good
we talked about stuff and i casually said "im just waiting for your patience to wear thin"
he said "any other girl id be taking that as 'shes had enough and wants to break up' whereas with you you literally mean it" XD
we talked about pokemon and i was surprised we like the same pokemon in our parties, out of all the 100s there are to choose from we like the same
good minds think a like it seems
but he said he was relieved that work wasnt awkward between us now
it felt like nothing had changed, well thats how i felt anyway
so thats all good :) i walked all over him before he asked me out anyway XD
i did some yoga when i was home cus i needed to stretch out from washing up
i got my hair dye in the post and a figure
here's my new figure
kotori from Lovelive got her for £6.50 as no one bidded! she looks a bit alice in wonderlandy i think im waiting for another figure then im done
i had leftover pasta for dinner i made yesterday
and then mum had made nutella cake! well good ^^
after dinner me and my brother went out
just shops and then he was kind enough to take me to pick up my new stronger pain killers
so i can start them tonight
they should - acording to the doctor - help me with my sleep
we shall see
tomorrow
not 100% certain what i will do tomorrow
id like to maybe do a run
then in the evening im going to a disney pub quiz with tara and james!
should be good ^^
and you get extra points if you wear something disney so im wearing my only disney item of clothing, a mickey mouse jumper
tonight i will sit with the tens machine and listen to music which is what ive been doing past few nights it has been settling me, makes me be still
Evening~
I ordered a few more clothes last night :3
that brings the clothes order up to 9 items so far
I had another night of sleeping reasonably well
I did't wake til 7:50am ether
it was soooo foggy this morning you could even see the moisture swirling in the air
I went and saw mia and rob
she made me a cup of tea and we had a catch up
it was good to see her
and i told her about me and jack
she went red and giddy which i thought was a cute reaction but i didnt say anything
so she quizzed me a lil and then rob joined in XD
but on the whole the interrogation wasnt as bad as i thought it was going to be
i left a couple of hours later as mia was trying to get me to bake her a cake to take to work
i draw the line at baking a cake i will never taste
i came home and made myself a salad and ate outside it was sunny
so i just sat by myself and i could see millie could smell my salad as she was squeaking
but no sound obviously, just too cute for words tho
i laid on my bed for an hour i ached and i felt so cold
dont know why i suddenly ran so cold
so i just rested really
then at 3pm i decided it was too sunny outside to waste the day indoors
so i went for an hours walk by myself just listening to Onepixcel really
it was nice as i went out in just a jumper no jacket or coat!
i came back and had a shower then a brew
i made dinner for everyone mum helped a bit
and thats been my day really
i ordered 2 bits of make up
so thats 9 clothing items, 2 make up and i think 3 figures to come
yep post man is gonna be fed up of me this month XD
tomorrow i have doctors at 9am im going about my pain and how its stopping me from sleeping
god knows what can be done there tho but i can try
then i will no doubt exercise as ill be home alone
then i will have work and be interesting to see how Jack treats me at work
im not worried about it and its only 3 hours tomorrow so should be fine
heres a hoodie i got new in the post for £6 last week
this is just the design i think its Link from Zelda
Evening~
I slept quite well considering how much i slept during
the day yesterday
so i was impressed with myself
i didnt go to bed til 10:45pm tho usually im in bed for 9pm
but couldnt sleep so did yoga and sat with tens machine on
I woke up at 8am as well which is late for me
I went out to the shops with mum this morning
and i picked up a skirt, a dress top and a jumper
it was worth going and mum got a fair bit too ^^
I came back and cleaned the pets out
molly gave me a right ear full just cus i was getting her out of the hay nest she'd mess
i tell you she can dish the abuse out XD
i sat drawing and working on the picture I said Id draw for Jack
i had a bit of base for this but changed bits and added my own spin on it
i just needed a bit of guidance with the horse
i sent him the outline and he was impressed ^^
i will continue with it another time
i did some dancing as i was home alone
so i set to work learning 3 new dances
juice=juice - sexy sexy
twice - TT
Onepixcel - we go now
love em~
i had a shower and rang Ed as he'd called me twice
i told him about jack and he was winding me up with this and that
annoys me how he knows how to annoy me and wasnt there to beat to a pulp XD
but he was happy for me :)
i made myself dinner
then sat looking at clothes and ordered the odd thing
i really dont pay much for my clothes
i then decided to have a clear out of my wardrobe
i didnt go mental but i did fill a bin liner full.....
i was well over due a sort it soon became apparent ><
i have a drawing i need to do for my book
but whether i do it tonight depends on what time i have left
tomorrow im seeing mia in the morning
gonna get such a grilling from her when she finds out i have a boyfriend...
guess its best to get it over with and not to put it off any longer XD
not sure what i will do for rest of day
Konbanwa~
Normally in bed at this time XD
I slept quite well last night
i woke up at 7:10am
let Oz out and got a drink
then went to bed to curl up and be warm as I was cold
and the strangest thing happened
i fell asleep!! that never ever happens!
mum didnt dare wake me XD i only had an hour tho
so I still had plenty of time to get up and get ready to go out
we headed into the city centre
we went round only a few shops as mum got what she needed
i found the coolest pajamas they have sea panda on XD
and sooooo soft and stretchy - had to be brought
well cool huh
need to have a sleep over in them buggers
we headed for a new tea cafe
they had so many teas to choose from and it was all victorian styled
we had caramel cream tea which was so nice
then we shared a piece of unicorn cake which was really nice and sweet
glad i shared a piece anyway
then we went home
i went to bed
i had had enough of being in pain and feeling crappy
mum said ive looked white all day
just having an off day it would seem
i spoke to her whilst in the tea room
basically when i went to manchester with mia
i kinda realised how grown up she looks and she dresses her age
and at first it didnt bother me
until i went pub quiz the other week with those from work
and i kinda looked at my wardrobe and even tho im comfy in what i what i wear
i wondered how those around me would judge me
as i have started to realise i dress a bit young...
i dress like im 20
well thats how i feel i dress
mum says i always leave the house presentable
so im starting to wonder whether i need to address my dress situation
and whilst i dont want to look generic and like everyone else i still i want to be me
i dont want to stand out but i dont want to look like everyone else
im still me
im slowly maturing and some ways are lagging behind more than others
my illnesses had a massive affect on me maturing
and i feel ive only just noticed that i havent matured in the way i look
people say i dont look 27 anyway which is probably a good thing
but maybe i need to start dressing my age
dont wanna look weird
but this decision has had to come from me
it had to be when im ready
no one else has said anything to me its something ive noticed and want to progress
so i spent quite a while on my laptop looking at styles
and clothes on ebay
i ordered a few pieces but its hard as i noticed somethings are ether
expensive
too tidy looking for me
too cold
too much skin on show
i will get there it will be a gradual process i imagine
i didnt get any drawing done
i went on a walk with mum instead as it was such a lovely day
we were both stiff from yoga too XD
tomorrow probably dance and draw
