First Heart Dissections

Evening

I have returned~~~

So friday
I had school and everybody asked me how I was feeling
and that its quiet without me XD
I got it all done
the heart dissections were that day and the teacher said I was
welcome to join in on their lesson *0*
I was pleased with this XD

Lunch time came and a teacher asked for something
so i went and gave it to her
she asked if i would wait for her to start the students on their work
then to watch them whilst she went to the toilet
so i had a class to myself for a bit
they just treated me as one of them XD guess  i look a similar age
I came downstairs to my lunch to realise i had heart dissections to join in on
so i left my lunch and went to class
i was the smallest in the room and it was only year nine....so ages 13-14
how depressing is my life
anyway heart dissection was good
but very bloody
a few kids were not feeling it so i got to cut their hearts and hold it for them and such
it was good
one girl asked when i held her heart "is there something wrong with you?" XD
they just talked to me like i was part of their class
i did have curly pigtails that day i must have looked like a student XD
good tho
then i had the job of cleaning up all that lovely pig's blood
i came back to the prep room at 2pm and had my lunch
id not eaten since 6:30am so i did well to last

I told another biology teacher that i enjoyed being in the lesson
and he said i can come in his heart dissection lesson ^^
thats next week~

I went home with jack
i was about to die
i was soooo tired
i managed the day tho so i was happy with myself
we got back and rested and did food
theo and jack started pokemon i didnt i simply traded pokemon to them
i was too tired to play really
and i went to bed early i was just dead and not feeling 100%
I told Jack he didnt need to join me he could stay up with theo but he joined me

in the morning we lazed around til almost midday
then we got up and we went for a walk on a park near my house
as it was such a lovely day
we forget what the sun looks like
came to my house so i could see Oz 
then we picked up food on the way back to jacks to cook
got back to jacks and made food before i felt too dead
we had pizza and potato 
then theo had a friend over for an hour one i hadnt met but we got on fine
they went off to a house party
me and jack put on a film of mine i havent seen since high school
Inuyasha movie 3
i could not remember it and we sat watching that to pokemon
i started my game again but havent played on it since last night
jack turned to me and said "you are so like inuyasha" -____- poor film choice by me XD
Inuyasha finished at midnight so we went to bed
i slept like a log i couldnt believe it was morning
but i didnt hear Theo or his friend return home
so i got up to see if they had come in during the night and i simply hadnt heard them
no....
so where were they?
jack was comatose in bed so i let him sleep i crashed on the sofa
felt quite off this morning

the door went and it Hue theo's friend
i was like "eh where's theo at then?"
he said "well i spent the night in the birthday girl's bed and theo went home with two random girls and gave me his flat key"
ahhhhhh guys
seriously
how can people sleep around like that 
so there was a lot of grim details when theo eventually came home
so glad i dont attend these kinda things
i just stayed on the sofa resting
did nothing til lunch time when i decided to go home as i was just feeling crap
theo jack and harvey were gonna go play pokemon go and have food out
i couldnt face eating out and walking around so i went home

came home had a shower
and went to bed for 2 hours
my mum came in when i woke up and said i looked awful
guess im still a bit sick
takes me a while to battle stuff
i havent done anything since

seeing as i missed killing eve last night my parents didnt watch it ether
so said we would all watch it together tonight which is nice of them

tomorrow i am going school whether i am well or not
as i have a whole day of first aid training and i really want to do it
jack is doing it also

Sent home Sick

Evening

ahhh excuse my absence 
Jo has been poorly -____-

So leaving off from monday when I wasnt feeling good
I couldnt sleep and didnt sleep til about 2am
I woke up at 5am laying there and laying there
and at 5:40am I decided as I would be up at 6am id turn my alarm off
so it wouldnt make jump
what did I do?
i fell asleep
course I did
Next thing I knew it was 6:25am...
i got up, my body was weak and shaking but still i got ready in record time

driving to work i started to feel a lil dizzy
i walked out my car and felt like i was on a boat the floor was moving
i got to the school entrance and i almost passed out i just managed to hold on
a teacher saw and asked if i was ok
i just said "i nearly fainted, i just dont feel that good"
she took me to the reception and i sat down the receptionist asked if i was ok
and at that moment who walks in...
Jack
course he does
i just thought "ah Jo you're in for it now"
he was concerned and walked with me to the prep room
telling me I shouldnt have come in and such
i said id be ok and i wanna stay
but it soon became very apparent i wasnt very well
i was stupidly dizzy like as if someone had span me round on a chair and expected me to walk in a straight line, i was all over the place
Jack told me to sit down, so i laid on the floor in the prep room as i felt sick and dizzy
teachers started to come in and obviously were wondering why their technician Jo was on the floor and looking like death
i had so many concerned members of staff that day
one said "youve got extra mothers here now"
another said "please dont die, the paper work would be a nightmare"
another blew me a kiss
but they all said the same thing
go home.
it was so hard for me to give in
jack made me a cup of tea which i struggled to drink
i said id go home once id drank it and the morning traffic to clear at 9am
then my vision kept blurring 
quite badly
Jack said "can your mum or dad get you? i dont think you should be driving"
i said "if other drivers get out the way ill be fine"
he said "no Jo you arent safe to drive, youre swaying whilst sitting down"
he told a member of staff my vision was going and the teacher was like "take her car keys"
in the end i rang home *sigh* feels like i give in when i do that
i told mum and she said she'd come fetch me at 9:20am
so i waited til then on the floor
jack was making up the fake urine i wanted to make up
he kept screwing it up tho
and i said while laying down "I would have had that done by now"
he said "so would i but youre stressing me out!"
i said "Im not doing anything!"
i think it was just me dying on the floor that was stressing him out
mum sent me a text to say she had arrived in the car park
jack insisted on going with me >.> 
kinda glad he did i was all over the shop
i looked like id had too much to drink
i was shivering outside despite it being sunny and warm and i felt exhausted just walking to the car jack handed me over to mum and said how stubborn i was and to not let me come into work tomorrow. damn him

the rest of the day was spent in my pajamas and i slept loads
i drank loads too
i had a fever and my heart was working over time even tho i was only laying down
i played pokemon, digimon and watched anime
and slept and slept
anything to escape the boredom

jack text me to say he sorted all the biology out and asked if i was ok
i said i wanted to come school tomorrow he said
"I dont care how youre feeling tomorrow youre not coming in"
-___-
so i resigned myself to another day of bed rest damn it

wednesday
i slept like a log
even tho i slept loads during tuesday i slept all the way through the night
i spent my day watching anime
watching dances
and sleeping
ive been eating and drinking more than usual as i just want to be back to full health
it was incredibly boring tho   
luckily i did have my mum home
at 1pm tho my brother came home from work saying he wasnt feeling good
i thought 'i hope i havent infected him'
he went to bed for the rest of the day then went out on his BMX...
wish i healed that bloody quick

today
i do feel better today
no dizziness 
and im not so fatigued 
mum says i have colour in my cheeks today as well
i havent been sweating all day ether
i hardly slept last night
and ive done so well to not sleep during the day
i dont know how ive passed the day tho
i did do some origami, i wanna put one in jacks technician tray one each week
but the top left the cat with the heart i think that i will save for his birthday, the others are a mouse, rabbit face, cat face

so that kept me quiet
ive sat with Oz a lot
watched anime
got my stuff ready for school and for jacks

tomorrow i am dragging my corpse to school
it will be a hard ask but im going
i wanna know whats happening next week
also its heart dissection and i dont wanna miss it
also i know jack doesnt wanna clear it up XD
after school im going to his house
as i am enjoying my weekend damn it!!!!!!!!!
i had a crap weekend last weekend where i spent it in bed 
i havent spent any time with jack for 2 weeks
ive had a crap week of feeling like death 
so i am enjoying my weekend
i asked jack "friday night can we watch an anime film whilst starting pokemon heartgold/soulsilver then go bed, have a lay and then go for a sugar binge?"
he said "i approve of this plan"
i said "anything you wanna add?"
he said "as long as im with you im happy"
meh ill take that XD
so thats me really
im sure i can hack tomorrow, i even have salad to take with me to get me through the day
im looking forward to spending time with jack too as its been too long
im sure over the weekend ill be fully recovered

jack said every member of the science staff was concerned about me and hoped i was ok
it will be good to see them all tomorrow
i hope i can pick up where i left off ok
hopefully it wont be too busy 

Made it through some how

Otsukararesama deshita

I didnt sleep well
just couldnt sleep and my leg was throbbing in bed
i got up for work and felt stupidly dizzy like my brain cant keep up with my
eyes movements
but still i thought it would pass

got to work some how
driving dizzy is no fun
got to work and felt terrible
like literally felt like i was gonna pass out
people said i looked awful

jack said on several occassions to go home
but i didnt want to give in
its my 3rd week i cant have a sick day so soon
so i kept going
having hot and cold sweats all sodding day even now
so i had my lab coat on and off
i slept through lunch
i didnt eat anything as i felt sick
jack said i was being stubborn but eventually gave me encouragement to keep going

i got through the day
god knows how
i felt like death 
a few times i thought i was actually gonna faint
i got my work done
i hurt my knee just with all the carrying and pushing i had to do today

jack was needy
gave me a few hugs today
clearly missing me
and said this week we need to spend some actual time together
its nice feeling needed i guess
he was like "we need to go on an actual date this week"
i said "does staying in playing games count?"
he said "no"
i said "sleeping in?"
he said "i do love sleeping in"
he was so late out of bed today he didnt have time to do lunch so had to buy lunch as he pressed snooze 8 times...
i told him if i was there i would have got his sorry butt outta bed

i had my last hypnotherapy session straight after work
i could not be arsed but i attended
its alll done now
she said i should sleep tonight anyway
and to return should i need anymore help

i came home had dinner and my second shower of the day cus my god i had not stopped sweating all day, no one else was sweating but me. jack felt my forehead and said i was burning up
i hope so much i am feeling fine tomorrow
i dont want to be sick
but maybe thats why i wasnt myself for the whole weekend :/

i keep getting told to take better care of myself...

Booked 2019 Convention

Evening

Didnt sleep great but im not shocked as I slept for 6 hours during the day
had a whole night of tossing and turning really

last night i watched episode 2 of killing eve
that 45 mins always goes to quick
total of 8 episodes~~

This morning I couldnt wait to get out of bed
had enough of the confinement 
i had a brew outside with Oz 
it kept raining today tho
but the pets could go out this morning and this evening which was good

today i havent done much
kinda felt like another day similar to yesterday
but on the positive side i did get a few more bits done
i booked manchester the train, hotel, convention
i chose my pokemon for soul silver i just need to breed them
i went for a walk with mum
so a bit more productive and i did a bit of drawing and did my nails
but i have done a lot of staring into space
i was left home alone a lot today
so its been me and my thoughts a lot today
very healthy

got my stuff ready for school tomorrow
watched another episode of senko-san 
might watch another tonight
heres the picture i have started of her

tomorrow is school
i hope im not still tired ><
then i come home and wiz back out for my last hypnotherapy session
last week she worked on my pain and my pain has been better this week
strangely 
if it continues to be good then im gonna ditch my pain killers over the summer holidays
tomorrows session will be emotions, combining me and eko together
i could be a different person...
little apprehensive about it to say the least

like in a coma and pet photos

Evening

I picked my brother up at 1:30am
didnt have to but I texted him at 12:40 asking if he was ok getting home
and he did ask for a lift
i couldnt sleep so yeah i got on with it basically
didnt go to bed til after 2am

i got up for my hair cut
i havent had anything drastic but it looks better
i came home and i went to bed

i stayed there for 3 hours
had lunch
went back to bed for 3 hours
helped with dinner
ate dinner
did my diary gonna sit with Oz and watch killing eve

tomorrow its fathers day
i didnt get round to making him a card
i was too busy being in a bubble
mum asked on several occassions today "are you ok?"
she also asked
"is your head ok?"
"what are you thinking?"
"youve stared off into space a lot today"
just havent been myself
i have texted jack since 2pm
he was quite keen for me to go over today
but i couldnt be bothered to remain conscious nevermind talking to someone
not seeing him tomorrow ether as hes got a family thing
so i will see him monday at school
im sure ill be back to normal tomorrow
theyre having a night out tonight and i dont want to go 
i just said my leg was bad and left it at that
i havent got done anything i said id do today
just slept
maybe everything caught up with me
i was just blank and numb even my taste buds werent awake

jacks heartgold came today and it works fine
tomorrow i will book manchester and sort pokemon out too
i looked briefly at technology today but im not sure about stuff

this morning it was sunny....eerie
i cant remember sun
it has rained all day since but hey i was able to have a brew outside this morning
and i even took photos of my pets as i havent done so in a while so here we are my 3 beautiful little babies 

completed week 2

Evening

I actually watched anime last night O:
I found one to watch randomly and gave it ago
im gonna keep with it
its called
Sewayaki Kitsune no Senko-san

I actually slept last night
first time in quite a few days now that i slept all the way through
cant remember my dreams
and i woke up just before my alarm

school was fine
i was happy to see that on next week's sheet
heart dissection was listed ^^ woohoo finally
it was still raining
thats a whole week of rain
loads of places are flooded its unreal
nothing special happened at work
other than julia becoming a mother figure quite quickly XD
she puts me in my place which is good as i need putting in my place
and its nothing mean its all stuff for my own good
as i explained my knee and stuff
i got all my work sorted anyway and got stuff explained to me by jack
ive had to order stuff for work off ebay for work too
he was happy i had won heart gold for him too
so we talked a lot about pokemon
he said he has to spend sunday in birmingham with his family
he said i was welcome to join
but its fathers day on sunday and that truly feels like i shouldnt be there
like id be intruding so im opting out
i think he would rather opt out too as he says its boring and he has to get up early
 but i also need something to do on sunday
need out basically

i got home and went to bed
i wanted to be comfy and warm
i had dinner
whilst looking at the pokedex as i want to start soul silver again
so i wanna choose my team
still havent chosen it tho >< 
then i took my brother into the city centre hes meeting college friends
i came back and looked online how to play this damn digimon game
as im struggling cus i suck on games....

tomorrow i have a hair cut at 9:30am
im gonna change my fringe as the sides are so long and blend with my hair which is what i wanted but i now want them a lot shorter so i hope it goes well
then im making my dad a fathers day card and wrapping his dvd gift
apart from that i have nothing else to do!
jack and theo are having a night out in the city and ive been invited
but its set to rain, still, and i have my leg injury so it probably wont do me good to get cold and wet and stood up for hours so i think i might have to skip and also id have to sleep over at jacks and hes gotta get up early which is gonna suck after going bed late ill be too tired for monday
so im gonna skip
so im not sure if i will even see him this weekend :/

2 weeks of actual rest

Konbanwa

I slept better
thank god
been awake since 5:30am but thats better than it has been

school was fine really nothing special to report
i managed to eat a lot during school
but had awful stomach pains
just not worth it its really not >.>
there was a 'compulsory' meeting about student behaviour after school
i didnt want to go cus i couldnt see the point
i saw head of biology leaving and i said id walk with her
as jack had gone to fetch julia
she was like "eh? you have to go? whats the point?"
i was like "i know right!"
she said "ill talk to them for you"
so we went down to see the guy who was giving the meeting 
and she asked "do support staff have to attend?"
he was like "no not really but youre welcome to"
i said i was outta here

saw jack on my way back up and told him we dont have to attend
he started walking back with me and said
"ah but it looks bad if only julia goes"
i said "well go go, have fun"
he was like "will you be ok by yourself?"
i said "yes, have fun"
julia went as shes got children at the school and wanted to here what would be happening
jack went too
i on the other hand got peace and quiet
got stuff done and left early as i was early to work
they were still in the meeting when i left
and jack said it didnt finish til 4:10pm
yeah i aint daft, staff meeting are the worst and always over run
jack said i had the better end of the deal as it was boring 

i got home
and felt anxious about going chiropractor
mum drove me and came in with me
as i had a gown on mum said "how long has it been swollen?"
i said "its swollen!?"
yep got a rather large lump on the back of my knee....
how i hadnt noticed i had no idea
i had a lot done to my knee and knees
needles in it, massaged, pulled, twisted, cracked
i felt sick afterwards
its now got tape on it to keep it in place
it hadnt gone out of socket but its inflamed, swollen with a lot of fluid, bruised and thats all from walking into the door frame with it
she said it usually takes 4 weeks to fully recover
im about 2 weeks or so in, so i need 2 weeks to heal
thats no dancing for 2 weeks, icing it for 2 weeks and resting it as much as possible
thats gonna be tough
im not good at resting
i am certainly not happy about not exercising it
but its what ive gotta do
so im gonna tell jack tomorrow i gotta watch it at work basically
sure he will be fine with giving me a hand now and again

since coming home i just got stuff ready for tomorrow
had dinner
and ordered stuff online
i won pokemon heart gold for jack
so he owes me
but ill tell him tomorrow he won it
cus hes too busy gaming i think -_____-

tomorrow just friday at work really
nothing special

i hope i sleep again 
its still raining
how much rain can one country have in a week!?
wheres it coming from!?