new painkillers tonight and my greedy bunny

Evening~

I got up for school despite only having like 4 hours sleep
i felt soooo sick in the night and got for something to eat and drink
i decided to eat breakfast with oz as i was early this morning
not only did he get his usual wake up treat of cereal from me, the git tried to rob cereal from my bowl then when i booted him outside he turned 180 and put his paw on the back door step-begging
i couldnt very well shut the door on him like that now could i
so the little git got another treat outta me!
i went to say goodbye to mum who was in bed i told her oz had only been up an hour today and had got two treats out of me and not to give him anything else today!

i got to school
i didnt feel too bad an was determined to do the practicals
even tho the practicals didnt go well -___- not my fault it was the students
but i stuck the day out for those practicals damn it
it was a hard slog

i came home and pretty much just had a brew with oz and went to bed
and got for dinner
then later went for a walk
im tired now tho
and i have my new pain killers to start
i dont wanna take them but its necessary evil i guess

tomorrow i am going to derby with jack
well im going derby reguardless to be honest
whether hes alive or not
he said i could sleep over but i will see 
but i know hes seeing his friends on sunday and my friends are busy so sunday looks like a quiet day but i have stuff to do at home anyway
i need to write a list of all the stuff i need from derby
the list grows -____-

the babies are doing well
i hope to photograph them on sunday 
theyre very cute but tilly keeps trying to hump molly and truffle 

annoying thing is oz gets a treat every night
so hes won >.>

Home again

Konbanwa~~~

Yesterday it was work
nothing special and i felt fine
people were happy to have me back
jack said he had loads of people asking if i was alright
the head of science sat and talked to me for 10 mins
wanting to know if i was actually alright, healthy and safe to be in work
i told him i wont ever get better its a case of managing it and since summer holidays
my meds have been changing
i told him i do push myself to be in work as i worry about my attendance
and he said whilst my attendance is monitored, that he'd rather me take a day off here and there rather than me pushing myself, making myself sick, and needing more time off
and i know hes right i just said im stubborn and dont like giving in
he said i can  talk to him if need be and he will support me
he said the work i do is amazing and that everyone loves having me there ^^
always nice to get praise from the big boss XD

the prep room was a total total state -____-
i got on top of all my lessons and gave the room a good tidying
staff were coming through saying it looked so tidy
i was like "im gone for one day and the place falls apart, jack cant cope without me"
he was like "i actually cant" XD

jack said that the biology teachers had really helped him out by switching to other lessons in my absence or helping jack by getting their own lesson sheets and some equipment
so that was good to know
we have such a good team

jack asked if i wanted to stay over
so he came home with me to collect my stuff
we saw the babies and ozwald
then went to his
we made dinner which was a case of warming leftovers from the other night we made
then when that went down we went to get ice cream
i couldnt finish all mine and he rubbed it in my face that not only did he finish his
he took a mouthful of mine >.> git

we went to his were he was home alone
we were gonna watch an anime film but i was too tired to pay attention and wanted to zone out
so i got in pajamas and wrapped up in his dressing gown then under the duvet
he was like "you must be baking"
i said "i know but its nice"
and i just laid there talking to him he gave me cuddles and we had an early night
i was tired

this morning i got up and realised id left my make up at home but
i wasnt arsed really
its nice having someone to get up with and have breakfast with

school i kept going
i was starting to not feel good
like monday
but instead of fighting it i decided to listen to my body
so i got my lessons for today prepped and most of tomorrow
jack bless him gave me biscuits and made me a brew to help boost my sugar levels
but it wasnt helping and i said i needed to go home now if i want to be able to drive
so by 11:15am i was home
and ive been in bed all day feeling wiped out
ive sat with the babies and let oz sniff them
he didnt look impressed XD
he loved millie and i dont think any pig will replace her in his eyes

mum went yoga by herself as i felt i couldnt do it
but i got up and went for a walk as id been in bed all day
i ached and needed fresh air
it was good to get out
but my god i was knackered and a shower afterwards was just as tiring
im gonna get up for school and just see how i feel i guess
but id like to go as ive got two A-level practicals to do and its too much for jack to do
also being at home is boring!

new meds to try

Konbanwa

i got up at 8am
i didnt bother setting my alarm as jack txt me last night saying not to come in
honestly
it was hard resigning myself to a day or boredom
cus what can you do when you sick and home alone
so dull!

but  i had the babies out who were just running wild round the hall
theyre so fast!
they ran everywhere, climbed on shoes, pushed things over
we have our hands full with them
molly followed the once or twice to make sure it was safe
then simply let them burn the energy off
they were panting afterwards
i forget how active and playful they are as babies

i've showered and slept
and thats about my day
i did pick up a book ive been trying to read for a while now
im hoping i can keep continuing with it and move onto other books
i quit reading one on my kindle - the man who lost his shadow
as i totally lost the plot there
and was only half way through the book!

i was gonna go a walk but just felt too wiped out
jack covered for me today but has warned me the prep room is a tip....
not looking forward to seeing the state its in
some biology teachers havent done their practicals because they knew i wasnt in
so they didnt want to stress jack out with it so that was nice of them
i basically have a lot of work ahead of me just for talking a day off
this is why i dont want to go down to part time
its picking up pieces and not knowing what youre going into

i went doctors which was an hour out my day as they are always running late
basically he wants me on 75mg twice a day - my usual dose of pain killer
i wanted 100mg but he wouldnt budge 
he offered morphine but i turned it down
hes put me on another pain killer which isnt as strong but should still help
im not holding out a lot of hope as ive tried a form of them before
and they didnt do anything
but we shall see

ive got all my stuff ready to go school tomorrow
as i cant bare to waste another day of life
and im sure ill be fine tomorrow
it will probably be a hard slog yes but better than spending it in bed

once again wheel chaired out of school

Evening~~

I slept at jack's last night
not that i slept well i was aching
its nice getting up with him tho and not having to sneak round the house
i had a bit of issue with my meds tho i forgot to bring the lower dose
so i ended up taking the higher dose this morning

i was fine in the morning
doing my usually monday morning mad run around
giving out pond weed and other practicals
i felt fine
then after i sat with a cup of tea on the floor i started to feel a bit out of it
like if i was to stand up i would pass out
jack told me to stay sat on the floor
but it was lunch time and theres always stuff to do during lunch
also jack is off tomorrow morning for an appointment so hes been trying
to rush round getting his day and morning covered
i got fed up of sitting there
went to get up and passed out

think i was a combo of strong pain killers, no sleep, running around

the nurse was called
i had jack and julia fussing over me
mum was called
and i was once again wheel chaired out of school... >.>
i hate my life
so degrading 
and i hate causing trouble for people
my brother and mum fetched my car
and my mum has told me to take tomorrow off as she doesnt want to be fetching me again
so ive got a boring day ahead of me!!!

i slept when i got home and was just wrapped up in pajamas
mum brought the babies to me in bed which was nice
then later i sat with all 3 of them
then Oz later on 
i cant wait for him to meet the babies
mum said they were running round crazy in the hall then laid down
like they had tired themselves out
mum also put molly outside by herself for some rest time
as shes now full time mother X3

i got doctors tomorrow to talk about my medication
thats as about exciting as it gets for tomorrow

They've become molly's babies

Evening

I woke up and thought straight away
'wonder how the babies are'
mum got them out as i was a lil late getting up - 8:45am
but she said they were fine, ears hadnt been chewed off or anything 
and we put them in the hall - for the first time
of my goodness, molly
shes sooooo happy!!!!
the past few days when shes been in the hall shes just sat and sulked
and not even touched the veg we have put down for her
today...totally different pig
she was running round following the babies and getting them to follow her
she joined in on the food they ate and the things they played in
and she even followed them to the other end of the hall! shes never been that far before but it seems Truffle is a real explorer so molly followed and tilly did as well
so very cute
there was plenty of little squeaks and clucks
i picked up the babies to take to dad as he hasnt held them yet
and molly panicked and i mean panicked
she was alone in the hall for about 30 seconds and she was running frantic and squealing
she couldnt find her babies! so she was stressed
i cant believe how well shes taken to them
shes a real mother to them
of course i returned them to her and she was fine then

i went upstairs and saw on my phone at 9:30am (yes i had been watching my pigs for like half hour straight!) and i had a txt from jack, he was up and awake....and getting ready to come over...
what oddity is this? he doesnt usually see these AM hours
and i wasnt ready in the slightest
so i had to get ready

then ive pretty much spent the whole day with him
we went for a walk by the river which was sooooo high cus of the sheer amount of rain we've had
after we went into a pub but it was full of kids so i left
and made beans on toast when i got in
then we had a look for places to go during half term but we couldnt really find anything
so we left that
ordered him a phone case tho, a pokemon one on my ebay

then we decided that id stay at his as theo isnt in
he had shopping to do for school tomorrow
and i didnt mind staying with him
so im currently at his
we watched Summer Wars which is basically digimon the movie in my eyes
then we made pasta and i helped him cut his hair
hes lucky he can just use a shaver and hes done
hes now playing some online game of his as he does on a sunday
and im upstairs on the kitchen table doing my diary
i might try draw tho
i havent draw a damn thing since getting my new laptop...
as it means using manga studio 5 and its daunting 
im used to 4 and ive been on 5 last year and found it hard 
but we shall see
cant put it off forever

i will probably go bed before him but not bothered
as we have school in the morning
also i showed him my dancing today for the first time
ever and he said  i was good

anyway tomorrow is school
shouldnt be too bad i hope 
who am i kidding, mondays are always bad and busy -____-

Meet Truffle and Tilly!

Konbanwa

I slept pretty well 
but felt utterly ran over this morning
it was from Nigel I know it was
everytime i woke in the night and when i woke this morning i thought
pigs!!!

Anyway I got up and went out with mum
we Taxed my car so its all mine to drive now (not that ive been in it yet!)
then we went straight down to pets at home
and adopted the two lovely piglets we saw yesterday!
Id like you to meet our two new 6 week old piglets

The fluffy white one is Truffle
the sandy one is Tilly
two very sweet fluffy soft pigs

we took them into the living room and of course had a good cuddle of them
the box they came in went into the hall were i let molly have a sniff of it
she didnt show any aggression to the smell and sat in the box!
the babies were in a seperate carrying case just to chill out
then mum sat with molly on her lap and let her sniff mums clothes and hands
she still seemed fine

then i had the babies on the sofa and molly on the sofa
molly could see them and was talking away but chose not to approach them
then we put the babies in a clean seperate cage and molly home too

i fell asleep as i was drugged up and i felt rather unwell from it
when i woke up i was alone so i got all the stuff out for guineas which was clean
and made a den up in the spare room - a room unused by pets
and got them together
i can work better without mum fretting over my shoulder
and the babies were on the floor first i gave them first choice of what they wanted to sit in
i put food down and let molly down
she found them
and wedged herself between them and was talking away and licking them!!!
how good is that!

and then she was just trotting round with truffle, tilly is certainly less confident
and so i cuddled her
so they had over an hour on the floor
mum came home and she really scrubbed out mollys cage
and we put them together in the cage just to test the water
and so far so good
theres loads of hay to hide in so they dont have to cuddle together if they dont want to
but its gone easy
too easy
but i think its cus theyre babies they dont pose a threat to molly
hopefully it will continue to go well
we have left them now for the day

oz looks like he wants in on the action
bless him
im sure he will meet them
but they cant go outside on the grass til theyre 16 weeks old
so he wont see em for a while

im so pleased with them
its better than christmas
theyre very sweet and cute i love them
and so does mum
my brother slept over at his girlfriends last night but was home early morning to see the pigs
yep happy
i just hope their first night goes well

might see jack tomorrow i shall see

i hope my babies continue to settle in well
and they have a happy healthy life with us

New Car New Pigs

Evening

I haven't stopped since 6am and its 8:30pm
im shattered! i actually feel unwell im that tired

anyway today~

Work was busy
had loads to do as usual
but i got it done and actually got praise from head of biology and head of science ^^
jo works hard

i left work, got home and got changed
i took all the little cute trimmings out my car (soon to be old car)
went out to Nigel's for acupuncture 
i havent seen him in a whole year since he's been abroad
so it was good to see him
he said "i didnt miss my clients, but i thought about you, although you're probably not gonna believe that are you"
i said "i am entertaining i give you something to laugh at right"
he said "no no, its your spirit and energy i like"
so i thought that was nice of him to say
i was totally squirming tho having acupuncture god i was so bad with it
i still feel like i have got needles in ><

i left nigel's and had a shower
then had dinner, and then went to pets at home with mum
she had been earlier in the day and txt me during work saying they had cute babies in
so we got there with 30mins before closing time
they had a few female babies
we have decided its got to be a baby as we are struggling to rehome and the longer we leave molly alone the harder it will be for her to accept another pig in her cage and her life
so anyway the baby girls they had was:
tri-coloured with a crown
fawny grey all over
white with a black bit covering the face
light tri-colour
white fluffy with red eyes
mum liked the tri-coloured with the crown but i didnt
i also didnt think much to the fawn one
i didnt like the white with black on as it reminded me of a rat somehow
but the light tri-colour was so cute and reminded me of millie
but i also loved the scruffy white one my god shes fluffy and scruffy
so we held the two i liked as mum liked the same two i liked
and we decided to get both
BUT we havent actually got them yet
we will go and collect them in the morning, we will go as soon as the shop opens up as we couldnt reserve them.
but my god theyre cute
they actually are so cute 
morning feels a long way off!
i will be sure to show them off!!!

i got back and sorted out my car insurance
and got the tax ready to do in the morning
and now doing my diary
im tired!
mum bless her had spent two hours cleaning my new car for me whilst i was at work
i didnt ask her to of course
but that was so nice of her
saves me a massive job
my car is lovely i really do like it
and i  dont think ive ever said that about my previous 4 cars
i was just grateful for a vehicle 
but this one is nice ^^

i was suppose to be going derby tomorrow with jack
but instead the day is going to molly and her new girls
i plan on doing the bonding
mum isnt very good at it
shes too skittish
but we've gone from rehoming an older pig for molly to potentially buying her two babies 

tomorrow will be fun im sure
two soft new baby pigs!
right im gonna go crash on sofa with Oz