Evening
I was up til 2am as I couldnt get off to sleep
my throat and my breast plate were just burning
I wasnt coughing tho luckily
so after getting up and playing on my switch for a bit i went to bed, read, and fell asleep
today my brother has painted his room
hes done a really good job and done it all himself
no way would i have the energy for that
its like a grey colour not my choice but suits his room :)
i did 20 minutes of dancing
i didnt push it as i was tiring and beginning to cough
my cough hasnt been too bad just when i do cough it really burns and my chest is tight
apart from that im fine, im surprised how little i have actually coughed
i had a shower after dancing
then i made some biscuits using the other half of the coconut milk in the fridge which had gone to a weird consistency but i used it anyway as it had only been open a couple of days
my biscuits tasted rank my god they were gross and i swear it was that coconut milk as everything else was the same as it always is. but yeah gross they went in the bin :( mum tried them and said they were not nice, luckily she had made nutella biscuits so i robbed hers XD
I laid out all my fabric and counted the squares
worked out i needed 140 for this blanket then i counted how many i had done
143....i could not believe my luck! as i hadnt worked out how many i needed and hadnt been keeping a record of how many i was cutting i just cut away as usually i dont cut enough!
so i was well impressed with that
i laid them all out and mum had a look and we decided they were in a good composition so i went with that :)
i had lunch and went to sleep
then i got up and went for a walk with mum
then i began sewing my squares into rows and i have the rows done i just need to sew them together now, but i havent got any fabric for my border :/
so i might order some online
might have to do that tonight :/ i shall see
its annoying the shops not being open!
didnt phone jack today
in all honesty i had nothing much to say
and he didnt ask when he could call so i kinda got away with it quietly
i did however draw this for him
its a picture of Flump (who i have borrowed) and hes perving on me whilst i change
as i have been telling jack that flump has been getting 'a show' and jack has expressed how much he hates that pumpkin XD so i spent half an hour drawing that just to make him laugh really and i think it worked XD he showed it theo also
tomorrow probably work more on the quilt
maybe dance or something
Evening
Took me til 1am to get to sleep but once I had fallen asleep i did sleep through :)
so i wasnt too tired this morning
I ached tho
so I did 45mins of yoga which i felt better for but I still ached :/
After I had showered mia phoned me for half hour it was good to talk to her
she says she might put her name down for a puppy this week
walt is 9 months old but she wants another whippet! she talks so casually about getting another dog like its not much work, having 2 dogs would kill me! so much work!
but its what she wants and im sure she will be happy with another addition
I cut some fabric out
then fell asleep
when i got up i had a brew with Oz and mum
then i went for a walk with her
coughing....i had been trying not to cough all day but the walk did make me cough
mum looked at me like i had got the black plague
she frightened to death of the virus so shes hoping i havent got it
but i dont see how i could have got it
at first today i thought it was just hay fever
but it has gotten worse and it proper burns too
but i think i feel ok
i dont have a thermometer to test myself
im sure i am fine
jack phoned and i talked with him and theo
he was getting concerned at the amount i was coughing but i assured him that i am fine
but he was giving me his usual concerned face
he hasnt been doing a lot from sounds of things
i said as soon as next week is over im coming over no matter what
missing him T^T
never thought id actually miss a guy or need a guy in my life
but here we are
Jo has sunk to a new low XD
i will lay out my squares tomorrow and see how much more i need to cut
it usually ends up depressing me how much more i end up cutting -_____-
id like to dance maybe i guess depends if i do have a sore throat or not
cant dance around coughing
my rib cage aches which is an odd ache to have and i feel like someone is sitting on my chest
we shall see~
i would have had a massage tomorrow T^T missing out big style there
Nigel sent me a txt today to see how i was which was nice of him
im sure i will be fine tomorrow
i hope i sleep tho
Evening
I slept!
For the first time in 2 weeks I actually slept!
My god XD
took me til midnight to actually sleep but I aint complaining
Today my mum and brother went to the shops
and naturally I have to stay home >.>
as much as they hate going out in public right now I envy they get a change of scenery
So I cracked out the tunes and did 30 mins of dancing til I was a sweaty mess
I showered and rang the chemist to see if my medication was ready to collect
turns out it was so i told mum and asked if i could go get them
she said it was ok but i could tell she wasnt 100% happy me going
it felt weird to drive for the first time in 2 weeks
and the roads are dead
i still see police officers everywhere
you were only allowed 2 people in the chemist at one time which was strange but i suppose its the norm everywhere right now
what did surprise me how ever was that the staff didnt have face masks on
i thought they'd be well covered what with dealing with sick people :/
i said my name and a woman id spoke to called to the guy "its the carrier bag on the bottom shelf"....i said "you know its good when you have a carrier bag full" >.> they just laughed
i took my 'goods' and left
i did send jack a photo of my bag and he replied "omfg thats a lot of meds"
i thought 'its actually less than i used to get' but thought id leave that out
then did some patchwork research whilst I was looking through my stash of rabbit fabrics, i didnt realise how many i had gotten over the years
i was basically just throwing fabric to the back of my wardrobe and just left it to grow
i think have almost 20 different fabrics! all with bunnies on X3
I decided in the end to do just squares and its more about the fabrics thats used rather than the patchwork design it's self
so squares it is, but as always with patchwork quilts, I need A LOT
i have cut a few squares out but not loads
went for a walk with mum
sat with Ozwald who is just so damn lazy XD
fell asleep for an hour
i have had a headache for 2 weeks in the same place and its very draining
not only is my pain bad i also have to deal with a headache
its my right side of my forehead it hurts
so i sleep to escape pain for a bit
i didnt want to sleep but i couldnt do much else i dont think
I had a stab at the school logo
sent it to chris see what he thinks
only took me an hour or so
so i wont be heartbroken if he thinks its crap XD
i used the school colours and stuff
so i have done some work today
jack didnt send me any to do anyway
i havent actually talked to him on the phone today
i will do tomorrow tho
we have texted
i told him id like to do a patchwork pumpkin cushion and he says he'd like that as he knows how much i love pumpkins - theyre beautiful *0*
he is happy having any quilt on the sofa too as long as there is something to cuddle under he is fine he says, so bunnies it is X3
tomorrow probably continue with the quilt
i have dances i need to learn but i have just finished one so i suppose i could start another but they are tricky so i have put them off a little bit
i never get any alone time to record but id like to
Evening
Did not get to sleep til 3am! Joy!
could not sleep
jack txted at 12:30am also stating he could not sleep
he stayed awake til 2am when i said to him not to stay up for me
as i was going downstairs to play disgaea anyway
i had taken a lot of medication and i wasnt in any pain
i just could not shut off mentally
in the end i took more pain killers (no i shouldnt but i did) just to try knock me out!
I woke up at 8:30am so at least i wasnt late up
it did mean id only had 5 hours sleep but better than nothing
i sat with the girls this morning
and then had a shower and went for a walk with mum
then i finished off my inu x boku picture!
it is done and my brother and mum both think it is good enough to give to jack
so i have ordered a frame for it
i went to sleep for a bit
i have been in pain for days now and a constant headache
i dont usually get headaches so im unsure why i am suffering with them for a like a week now
maybe its stress? who knows but they are wearing
i got through the post my expensive bias binding
so i decided to finish my place mats
and ta-da!
theyre all finished ^^
jack likes them
so i have stashed them away now
leaves me with what shall i do for my next project
i did he picture for science which took a few minute sbut hopefully it is right this time
i spoke to him on the phone and he sat talking to me and theo which was nice
we are missing one another it is hard -____-
i wish i could show him the inu x boku piece so i could cheer him up
i said i want to design some coasters and get them made/printed
so i have asked him if he requests any designs
i might start the rabbit quilt i was going to save for summer
i will look tomorrow at the sheer amount of rabbit fabric i have stashed over the years
i dont think i have loads but hopefully enough to do something with anyway
i had a flick through my craft books earlier for inspiration but nothing took my fancy
and quilt wise i think im on my own with designing this one
my skin is so sore and dry and it doesnt help me scratching in my sleep ether!
i have ordered products that i am waiting to try out!
i have 6 tabs lined up currently with dances i am gonna quickly do
then i shall sit with my lad then i might do my nails tonight
tomorrow i might do digital drawing and plan out the rabbit quilt
Konbanwa~~
I managed to get off to sleep but woke up at 12:30 due to being able to feel blood on my fingers...yes thats nice and normal isnt it! I was scratching, again T_T
this is something i have been doing again lately as i do it in my sleep when i am stressed or mentally just not good. and given everything going off right now im surprised im doing it i am surprised however by waking up to the feel of blood rather than the pain of scratching myself til i bleed!!! thats just mental. and annoying so i ended up getting up for a bit and playing my switch and went back to bed for 2am
this morning i sat with with my girls
truffle climbed all over tillie and tillie was shrieking and screaming
i had to cuddle tillie til she calmed down but she is mardy and truffle couldnt care less who she walks all over >.>
I made biscuits this morning and i made a soup
did 15mins of yoga and 15mins of dance then went for a shower
had my soup and continued with my inu x boku
which is almost done!
i fell asleep and then went for a walk with mum
so i have done a full hour of exercises today
talked to jack on the phone he seems alright
he wants me to do the drawing again which is fine
i told him i havent done any work today XD
i will do tho tomorrow
he isnt doing a lot of work cus theres not a lot to actually do
he said head of science had his twin baby girls today and i just thought how scary that must be right now, having babies in hospitals....not ideal
i have my physio exercises to do tonight
been doing them for 3 months now
i have my appointment 6th april i need to ring up to see if it is still even happening
i havent done much else today really
tomorrow i will finish the inu x boku picture and then do my work my actual work
and maybe pick something else to draw/make
tomorrow i would have had Oz 3 years!
my skin is sore...im ordering stuff online to try help heal my skin
i hope i sleep tonight -_____-
Evening~
I didnt blog yesterday as I really quite poorly
I hadn't slept well due to having a nightmare about being held down on the floor by monsters/demons and them discussing who would be first to rape me
i hate my rape nightmares...
when I woke up i couldnt open my eyes fully it was strange, my head killed like proper bad headache and my head couldnt process quick enough what my eyes were seeing so i felt dizzy constantly
it was strange, I ached i was shattered and sweating A LOT but i was shivering
i stayed in bed all day, in and out of sleep, on my switch, reading
just in bed as i couldnt do anything and when my head hurt too much from looking at a screen i went to sleep. mum woke me for dinner but said my bed was wet
i had sweated a lot.... she made me go for a second shower >.>
my family were all a bit worried and cautious as they wondered if it was me just being poorly or if i had got the virus
i didnt speak to jack as i just wanted to be left alone also if i told him i was poorly he'd only worry
this morning i woke up fine, no headache or fever and i could open my eyes all the way ^^
i felt soooooo much better
so i was glad
and each family member asked how i was feeling
think they were relieved that covid-19 wasnt in the house XD
i did 45mins of yoga this morning
phoned jack but didnt stay on the phone long i didnt have much to say as id been poorly and the art im working on currently might be a birthday present for him
and he's only been gaming. he says this was how his life was before me and work
just inside constantly gaming
sad life huh
ive gotten used to him in glasses tho i have to say
i worked a bit on the inu x boku picture i have done one half
i think its coming along ok but i havent shown it anyone yet so i might ask mum later see what she thinks on how its coming along
i went for a walk too which was bitter >< i went by myself as well
theres loads of police around its strange
even tho i live in a small village/town they are bothering to police it
i thought they'd put their efforts in more densely populated areas :/
i was sad earlier as i found out that Monogatari - a group i LOVE have disbanded...
i watched their last live today
i cant believe theyve disbanded and before their major debut too :(
such talent gone to waste
wont be learning anymore of their dances then T^T
tomorrow i guess i have some actual work to do
i shall make a start designing the school internet logo
i can have a go :/ anything is better than what it is XD
i will work on my inu x boku picture more
and if jack dares send any pictures that need drawing i will have them to draw also >.>
theres a science department meeting tomorrow at 9am online
i told jack i aint attending as theres no point after looking at the agenda its all for teachers
and i personally dont feel like webcaming the staff...feels weird
ive been playing disgaea and getting screwed over by demons
i forget how much that game screws you over
bloody demons XD but its been nice to play
not sure what game i will play next tho i have to say
hope i sleep tonight
im starting to ache and sweat and my head hurts a bit too now
Yo~~
I was up til 2am...
I had taken A LOT of pain relief as I was aching and didnt want to feel
and i wanted to sleep!
but could i sleep.....nooooooo
i was just laying there feeling really quite sick if im honest
my stomach was making all sorts of noises too like id actually poisoned it
i got up in the end and went downstairs to play on my switch for a bit
til 1:30am then i read in bed for a bit
i got up at 9am so i missed seeing the girls this morning :(
but i sat outside and watched them on the grass and Oz came to see me too
this morning i did 20mins of dancing but wasnt really feeling
however i have practically finished another dance! just got to improve it really
my idea of recording dances i think has gone tits up as my family is home (apart from dad) and also if i went to record outside somewhere id probably get fined for it
my brother was alone on a skate park today on his BMX and a policeman told him to go ride else where! like nanny state, my brother was not impressed
i had a shower and checked my emails and such
chris still hadnt got back to fully about drawing so i was off the hook for now
jack wanted to video call me - to show me his new glasses
so we talked for a while i always find video calling hard as i hate looking at myself!
and oddly ive kinda gotten used to him with glasses already
its like it suits him, ages him about 5 years but does suit him
i just look totally weird with glasses on
i think hes chilled out about work a bit he doesnt seem to worried about it all so much and has an idea what work he can get on with
he later emailed me wanting a potassium manganate practical diagram drawing
he gave me a rough one he did on paint and i laughed XD so i did him a good one but i havent heard from him yet if its any good but certainly better than what he can do...
i contacted my cousin to see how she was doing
i was sad to find out her rabbit died this week...and she didnt tell me ether which saddened me further i have to say. poor little guy
i havent fallen asleep today
i was going to but mum rounded me up for a walk
i found walking hard as i was tired and i think hayfever has started to kick in as i wheezing a bit
my mum brought a random night face cream from TK MAXX several weeks ago and has been enjoying it but it sad she cant find anymore. so i looked on ebay and i brought a 3 piece set for her so same brand but different facial products to use. i surprised her with it last night and she was very very happy and was grateful so i was happy ^^
i ordered some expensive bias binding last night online so i can finish my place mats
heres it cut and stuck down
here's is up to now so its all stitched just needs the bias binding for the border
jack really likes them so i am happy ^^
i did some drawing, inu x boku manga page
im thinking of doing for jack for his birthday as we both like inu x boku
so i started water colouring it today and was quickly reminded how bad my water colouring skills are...im hoping it will look ok once it is finished if its not good enough for his birthday then i shall do something else. i was doing it anyway but kinda wondered if it would turn out good enough for a gift.
tomorrow
might have more work drawing to actually do
and i might plan out a quilt i have been saving to do for the summer holidays
not sure yet
see how i feel as tonight i have a solid headache and i ache
i feel quite tired and rough actually im hoping im not coming down with anything
feels weird it will be a weekend and i wont be escaping to jack's
