Oz is back on form

Evening

Jo did an all-nighter
yup did not sleep a wink last night
I went over to jack's and we had a hot chocolate and biscuits and talked with theo
and harvey was online so we talked with him too but i was shattered so didnt want to stay up
but i could tell jack wasnt right some how
like he was just off and despite me asking numerous times "you ok?" "whats up"
he wouldnt come out with it but could tell he wanted to
we went to bed and in the end i said "what ever is troubling you is troubling me. you tell me not to bottle stuff up so out with it"
and thats when it all kicked off at 11:15pm
he cried and everything
his worries are the corona virus starting up again basically
i said "what is the actual main worry here tho?"
he said "i dont want you getting sick"
so i was the concern
then he was also upset about driving - i guess that one coming
i said "and whats troubling you most about that?"
he said "having an accident with you in the car and you being hurt"
so me again
*sigh* im a big girl i can look after myself
he worries far far too much
so we talked it out
and i said to him he didnt contact me the whole of tuesday and he said "cus i was hoping to txt and to be able say 'jo i rang the driving school up' but i didnt"
so i said "so instead of asking for help, you buried your head in the sand about driving school and giving me a text"
so it churned me up a bit cus i love jack and its not nice seeing anyone you love, in tears
so he fell asleep after all that
i on the other hand couldnt
i was in a lot of pain anyway so i was extra sensitive on his bed
tried to get to get to sleep and tried to get comfy
then a couple outside literally yelling their guts off at each other, if youre gonna have domestic at least have it in the house not on a main street at midnight.
i got up at 1am as they wouldnt shut up
then drunks wondered up and down shouting, people getting out of taxis at all hours
i sat upstairs having a brew and biscuits and did some japanese
i tried to sleep but yeah wasnt happening
at 5am i crawled back to bed but still felt really uncomfortable but tried to stay
then around 6am i could feel myself drifting off and then the council service bin men came and sounded like they were riding the bins down the street
it woke jack up and he looked at me
i said "i havent actually been asleep"
he cuddled me and i tried to get comfy but couldnt 
he said "lets get up"
i said "its only 6:30 you dont need to get up ill get up by myself"
but no, despite not doing mornings, he did get up
i said as we at a really early breakfast "did you not notice me gone?"
he said "i did but thought you were in the toilet and fell asleep after that thought"
didnt hear any of the noises outside he sleeps really well

so i was shattered and looked like death
school was alright tho i just painted
saw hannah and luke again
we came back to jacks and had soup he had made then i poured a bath with those salts
it was so nice
i got dressed and was prepared to keep going but jack said he didnt want me driving like that, i guess i must have looked back so he made me have a nap
we got up and had a brew then i came home

went straight to the garden to find my lad
we fussed each other
he has been such a good boy, hes been eating ^^ normal poos and seems happy again
im soooooooooooooooooooooo happy, grateful and relieved 
nice to have my lad back on form
im about to go sit with him actually

i did a walk with mum after helping her with the dinner

tomorrow mum is seeing her friend so i will probably just exercise by myself 
and not sure after that
im ringing up the driving school for jack as he cant bring himself to do it
which slightly annoyed me as i could have rang on monday!
honestly
ive got my magazine for the decopauge just no table
but no rush there

Oz is doing loads better :D

Evening

Never heard from Jack yesterday...nor did i text him

I couldnt sleep
I had a lot on my mind - mainly Oz
and I had awful stomach pains for some reason
I was getting stressed and started scratching so at that point I decided to get up
and I had a hot chocolate and stayed up til 1am
slept til 7:30am

I went straight to Oz
who had eaten some of his food during the night!! and a treat! and some carrot!!
I was sooooo relieved
he even looked better, like more bright eyed some how
so i gave him fuss
I did syringe feed him this morning and added probiotic, just to get his stomach going for the day. I havent seen him eat a lot during the day but mum says to see how he goes by himself now instead of syringe feeding him.
He has been more himself as well today

I did 40 mins of dancing
my hair was dripping but i wasnt really tired strangely 
but i stopped anyway as i didnt want to do myself in
i had a shower then i started cutting up the netting for the hammock

at lunch time i went with mum to go meet her friend on the park
it was quite cold to be honest and i was getting cold
but it was nice to see her
we had different cakes and mum made us sandwiches 
it was nice we had a couple of hours

i came back and thawed  out as i was cold it made me ache
after i had thawed out i went for a walk with mum
then i finished the hammock
it is cute X3
simple but cute

got my stuff ready to take to jacks
he did txt me about midday today i txted him when i got back from the picnic
he just says he had an off day yesterday which is odd and im gonna talk to him later about that
he still hasnt had the guts to ring up driving and asked if i would sit with him whilst he did it....i said "if you had said, i would have rang up for you" he said "i know you would have but i want to ring up myself" fair enough, at least hes asked for help i guess :/
he has also arranged a viewing for that house but its not til weds at 12:30pm so a whole week away

im gonna have a shower and sit with Oz then go jack's
we have work tomorrow

Oz is getting there

Evening

I actually slept pretty well
despite receiving a txt from jack at 9pm stating he had chickened out of ringing the driving school up. i even said to his face on sunday "if you cant ring up say now as i will do it"
he was like "no i can do it im getting used to it what with ringing up estate agents"
but he confessed to chickening out
which annoyed me
not that he couldnt do that, we all know how crippling anxiety can be
its the fact he didnt ask for help
we've been through this that we are team and we help each other. so why wont he come to me for help? it annoyed me and rather than send him an angry text message i just left it
it is now 8pm and i havent text him today or even heard a whisper from him
so god knows whats up with him today

i saw mia today
i was suppose to go get my table from her today so i txted her saying i was on my way to HER house
got there to find her car gone
so i rang her and she had gone to her mums....whats she like
so we just did a normal walk
i can get my table another time i havent got the stuff yet for it anyway
it was good to see her and have a brew with her

i felt knackered afterwards tho
i fell asleep for an hour
then had lunch then i went out to a garden centre with mum
followed by another garden centre -____- 
it was alright i guess i didnt mind i was just really really tired
i got back and just flopped on the sofa with Oz

Ozwald update
he has eaten some  pellets through the night
not many but he has had some and some carrot and a treat
i still syringe fed him and breakfast and lunch
he so well behaved he really is
im gonna feed him again tonight and hope he eats during the night again
but i have sat with him and he seemed to be doing alright he didnt seem in pain
and he has been out with the girls hopping round and eating grass
im trying with him
oh also tonight when i got him in, he had been in the girls run (whilst it was empty) for agesssss and i  went out to see if he was actually alright, he had done loads of poos like loads and they were normal as well so im happy about that. and when i brought him in he begged for a treat which he hasnt done in days and he about swallowed the treat too. so all good signs

i ate dinner and got crippling stomach pains
it wont go away and i ate almost 2 hours ago
i was planning on dance practice but thats not gonna happen
hurts to stand up right
so im annoyed as i havent done yoga or dance today just a walk
but i suppose we all get off days
i shouldnt beat myself up for not doing my usual amount of exercise

tomorrow
probably dance and stuff in the morning and then at around lunch time, mum is meeting her friend in the park for a picnic as it was her friends 50th last weekend
theyre having cakes and stuff and wondered if i wanted to join them
i said i dont mind but i cant sit on the grass as long as they can (makes me ache)
so as long as they dont mind me leaving after a while then thats fine
they said it was fine and mum's friend has known me since i was child so she knows my illnesses and understands.
so i will do that and come back then i should be staying over at jack's
as its wednesday and i usually stay over for school
but i havent heard from him
also i sent him a house last night and he was gonna ring that up today but dont know if he has actually done that ether.

I got more bed sheets in the post today
and i got the netting finally for the hammock so i can start that when ever really

anyway see what tomorrow brings

Eye patch kitty

Evening

I got to sleep at midnight and mum woke me at 8am knowing i needed to check Ozwald and i was seeing mia for a walk
Oz hasn't eaten anything
I was not impressed and quite distressed 
So I said I would syringe feed him
mum held him whilst I did that and to say he hasnt been syringe fed before he was quite good
i just literally added water and probiotic to his pellet food - wait for it to mush down and spooned it into the syringe, which is what we did for tillie last month
I have since fed him again at midday and im now gonna go give him his last feed
he has eaten about an inch of carrot, a treat, and some grass
so he is trying, he isnt drooling and poos are coming out so im very unsure what his problem is and im giving it a few more days until i see the vet
id like to sort this out myself without stressing him out taking him there

I went to meet mia at 9:15am 
we walked her dogs and i played with them throwing the ball and cuddling them
i love her dogs and love being round animals so it suits me
and theyre pretty well behaved just a bit hyper
we came back to her mums and had a brew then i came home at 11:30am

i sat and with Oz and did his feed and then had lunch myself
my weird table arrived today and my coasters!! i was so happy to see them i love them
well happy it was worth the effort it really was
i want to do more art work for the house!

I did some dancing and got hot and sweaty
then i looked online at houses and sent one to jack which doesnt look too bad actually
so i think we might ring for a viewing 
its not our style but has potential and i like the area

I sat with Oz for an hour bless him
i could hear his tummy and he was holding himself like he was in pain or discomfort 
i am loath to take him to the vets for pain relief tho as it usually upsets their tummies and he has only just got rid of the runs so i dont want to upset it again
im hoping he will recover especially if im syringe feeding him to get his stomach stimulated 

i did that cat drawing for Luke and sent it him this morning
he loved it and said he was going to get it printed so i said if that was the case, would he like anything changing. he asked for an eye patch (the poor thing before it died had an eye removed at only 4months old) so i drew that for him and sent it

he loved it X3 
so i was happy i did that for him 
tonight i want to try get back on my switch
its been over a week since ive picked it up
just havent been in the mood and have gotten out of playing and i want to finish pokemon
i only have 5 badges!

tomorrow i am seeing mia
i am going over to her house
we will do a walk with the dogs
then i am gonna bring home the table she took for rob's grandads so i can take it apart and decopauge when the magazines arrive - woo!

watched lion king

Evening~

Yesterday I didnt sleep well
ended up getting up at 3am feeling sick so went and ate some cereal
and crawled back into bed til 7am
I saw my Ozwald and cleaned his cage out
I did my morning dancing and was sweating
made sure to sit with Oz before I left
he had eaten very little but had managed to eat something and had done poos
so i felt i could leave him but told mum if he doesnt look good for whatever reason then i will just come straight home

I picked jack up at 10:45am
we went round a town between my house and his flat
he picked up a couple of books from charity shops
we walked through a park and then went to his flat really
Harvey met up with us and we walked to the park near jack's flat
the 'adult's gym' had re-opened its basically just exercises on non-electric free to use frames
and Theo has been waiting for it to be open again
i went running over to theo cus i wanted to join in
harvey and jack watched whilst eating brownies XD
i did about 5 or so minutes but my joints started hurting so i stopped
i was quite surprised how sensible i was actually
i came over to jack with my tail between my legs and said "its hurting my joints so ill stop"
he said "oh Jo, but probably for the best"
i said "i want to do more, i like seeing what i can do"
he said "its not worth it tho is it"
i said "no its not and were doing a walk and i did 30mins of dance this morning, so im good"
then we sat in the shade in the park
i couldnt sit for long cus i ached but i tried

me and jack left theo and harvey and went to rest at the flat and get my pain killers
then later on we headed for boots as i wanted to print my art work off but sadly cus of the virus that service has been cut off so i was about to leave when i decided to look for at the offers
andd they had bath salts on offer a 1kg bag of ones suppose to help muscle pain
i asked jack if i can put them in his bath - as i dont have a bath tub
he said it was fine so i brought a sack

we made food later on
and then i wanted to try my bath salts as i was aching from doing those 5mins worth of exercises...and my god that felt amazing i felt soooo good after i came out the bath i was well happy. best £5 ive spent in a long time

and then the three of us watched lion king the CGI one
or as we were calling "Live action version" XD
my brother brought me the blueray for christmas and i havent actually watched it yet...
so yeah we watched that and it was alright, we all said we liked the cartoon version better
then we went to bed
me and jack couldnt sleep cus there was a few drunks outside til like 1am
so we were tired

this morning i woke up at 8:30am and needed pain killers
i sat beside jack after id gotten up for a wee and brushed my teeth
he didnt stir
i cuddled him, he muttered "I love you jo"
still didnt stir
so i was right near his face
still didnt stir
so i thought "huh maybe hes had a rough night, he usually wakes. i will leave him"
i went up stairs for pain killers but i didnt eat with them as i didnt want to eat without jack so my stomach quietly rotted away -_____- 
an hour later a rather sleepy jack arose 
he was like "Im so sorry Jo, how long have been up?"
i said "an hour"
he was like "oh god im sorry. i bet you want you meds dont you?"
i said "ive had them"
he said "is your stomach rotting" i nodded
he said "why didnt you wake me. or next time make breakfast its ok you know. dont suffer"
i told him about trying to wake him he said "dont remember saying i love you" XD
turns out he had slept he just couldnt wake up XD
we had an easy morning but i was tired if im honest and i drifted off to sleep whilst jack was in the shower, and he left me - sometimes im sure its cus he likes the peace and quiet

i got up and showered and then had lunch with jack
we took some cookies and went to a park and sat by the lake and ate them
it was soooo warm and so many people around
we called into a carpark on the way back and looked at the shops but there was plenty of lines of people waiting to go into the shops - shops just arent worth the hassle of going in anymore now theres a limit on how many humans can enter each shop at a time :/
so we headed back
we relaxed on the bed i was shattered
then i came home

checked on Oz as soon as i came in - didnt even take my shoes off
he was happy to see me in the garden
he eaten a little bit again and done small poos
but im glad he hasnt had the runs for about 5 days now
im keeping a close eye on him

i did 30mins of yoga and then had dinner
had a shower and did a face sheet and my diary
now im gonna sit with Oz then paint my nails
just doing simple sparkly ones this week
feel the need for sparkle

seeing mia tomorrow for a walk hopefully
then i will dance then god knows XD

kitty doodle

Evening

I had to get up last night as I couldnt sleep and started scratching my skin
so my face is a bit sore ><
I stayed up til 1am
then a neighbour rang the doorbell at 7am, git >.> 
got woken up damn it, i like my 8am starts XD

I was aching a lot today
so I went for a walk with mum to try get things moving but it didnt help
and it all felt like a massive effort but somehow i did 30mins of dancing
i was dripping afterwards

i went to bed afterwards
i was tired and fed up of being in pain so early in the day
i got up and had lunch and stuff
then i started doing some drawing
i had a could of files to sort 
drew a cat for Luke as it's his birthday on monday and he sadly put his 5month old kitten to sleep this week so i thought id draw the kitty for him

i hope he likes it

ive sat with Oz a few times
he has had a clean bottom all day and done normal poos too so its looking good ^^
im gonna keep him on the limited diet and probiotic 
he seems a bit grouchy today tho so i dont know if he has tummy ache or anything
i cut his claws which he wasnt too impressed about but he let me get on with it

i looked at stuff online as well
i ordered 2 cushion covers they were only £3 each! and theyre soooo weird XD
jack has no say in anything so far XD
the cushions i brought one has ghost on it and the other has a scarecrow 
as you do
then i was talking to mum, and i told her mia had robbed me a coffee table from rob's grandads house. its just plain wood nothing amazing
i was looking this morning at how to decopauge furniture and i told her i was thinking of recovering the table in japanese fashion magazines. i showed her the magazines online and she said i should have ago. gives me something to do. and it should cost me around £20 to do
and considering i havent paid for the table i think thats alright.
so that will be another project
im gonna tell jack all this tomorrow
he has no say XD

tonight i will get my stuff ready to take to jack's tomorrow
as i am seeing him at 10:30am we are going into a town and just having a wonder round and might get some lunch and go for a walk then just go his really
nothing amazing but gets us out the house a bit
i'll be back sunday night as im seeing mia monday morning.
dont know what else i have planned for the weekend tho
we shall see.

50ml in one day Oz

Evening

I went over to jacks last night
we didnt do a lot
we sat and talked to theo whilst drinking hot chocolate
and then we talked in bed as its been a week since we have seen one another
i can tell he had missed me
i told him i had needed space really, just to mong out and relax
not space from him

i kinda slept but wasnt a great nights sleep to be honest
so i was a bit tired this morning
we woke up at 7:15am and then stayed in bed for 10mins
he wanted to cuddle but i wanted to get up but i decided to give in and cuddle X3

school was fine i literally spent my time painting display work 
so it was nice 
i spoke to hannah luke and chris
all my plants have black flies on them, they are covered in bugs....jack says we will get new ones and throw these away. im still sad about it.
and we actually left on time for a bloody change

got back and had lunch and stuff then i died on his bed for a while
we talked when i woke up and stuff and yeah then i went home
he offered for me to stay for take away but i wanted to get home and check on Oz
mum had kindly txt me at 8am saying he seemed fine but hadnt checked his bottom to see if he was clean or now.


I got home and mum said that Oz had been at his water bottle
i was worried the propbiotic in his water might taste funny then put him off his water
but it has had the opposite affect
he has guzzled X3 hes drank 50ml in one day!! i didnt even know he could drink that much in one day. he is gonna be be peeing for england. im not complaining tho as i want him to have the probiotic
im gonna go sit with him in a minute

i havent done a walk today as it has poured it down alllll day
i did 30mins of yoga
and been too tired to do anything more
i will catch up and do exercise tomorrow tho

tomorrow not sure what to do
i was thinking of drawing me and jack as creatures
i said to him id be an imp and when he thought about it and even googled it, the creature he was most like was a goblin XD or other cave creatures. i was like "im not drawing you like that!"
i asked chris and then theo's opinion on the matter and they both said "yeah a goblin is about right for jack" my god man XD what do i go out with
so unsure on tomorrow 
mum is on about spending the day with me but i dont know what to do
if my netting comes then im making my hammock