my dull day off sick

 Evening

So today I had the day off

I slept like a log all the way through the night waking up at 7:30am

I had a dream that someone had stolen Flump and I found the guy who stole him, he owned a market and i broke into his storage and took Flump back, made sure to show the guy I had robbed Flump back then he started chasing me, which is when I woke up XD

My god today was soooo dull

I am unsure how I even managed to pass the day!

I did 40mins of very slow yoga this morning, simply to help my achy joints

had a shower

and rested really, I was back in bed at 11:30am for 2 hours

after my lunch mum suggested I see what's what

so I took my temperature which was 35.4 so that was lower than 'normal'

my blood pressure was 105/72 so that was low too

body of a corpse XD

I wasnt concerned, I suppose it just shows I have some sort of virus

I checked in with Jack throughout the day to see how he was

he said it was busy but he was coping and he had covered for me ^^

he asked if he could call me when he got home, and i said it was allowed XD

Mum took me for a walk for 30mins, just did a slow walk on none hilly areas as i was quite done in just doing a simple walk but needed to get out for some air you know?

Then once I was home I looked at home stuff, and then started doing a bit of digital drawing

didnt get far but it is a start and gave me something productive to do

Jack rang me after he had got home

he video called me

and i dont know but he just didnt seem his usual happy self, all week i feel he has been a bit off but im putting it down to the fact he is at his mums and not in his flat maybe?

i will talk to him this weekend hopefully and see how he is

I felt hungry and couldnt wait for my dinner 

i was happy eating it but once eaten i felt really sicky and off

mum had made cake and i cant face it right now but my god i am determined to get a piece down me! i am not missing out on cake!

I got my stuff ready for school as I plan on going tomorrow!!

even if i can not get through the whole day I plan on doing the day

jack said the first period is cancelled due to something or other so no lessons to have a mad dash to get ready first thing at least. He also said there has been a 2nd confirmed case in year 11 so head of science has said on A-level get any equipment/practicals now. We are giving nothing out to the other years apart from textbooks, which is quite sad really. But hey less work for us technicians!

so tomorrow shouldnt be hectic so I plan on  giving it a go~

I dont feel too bad, just very exhausted, achy and sicky. My heart is still beating out of rhythm and i  am unsure why. I will do blood pressure and temperature again later

a day off already

 Evening

I slept really well last night I was really tired tho

but when i woke up this morning i felt poorly, like more than my usual illnesses

i ached and felt sick and weak

but i was determined to get on with the day, so I got up and began the day

and i did start to feel ok

got to school and had loads of running around to do

just a mad morning really

after an hour of running around i had a quick sit down but my heart wasnt beating properly i felt weak and shaky and a bit dizzy so i told jack

he made me a sweet cup of tea and got some biscuits out my locker and told me to sit and rest

i got up and did a bit more work but just didnt feel that good

it hurt to carry things and my legs ached from walking

i told jack, and by 10:30am i made the decision to go home as i worrying about fainting and not being able to drive home. Jack was obviously worried about me but i said i was ok

i got home a 11am and mum came home at 11:30am i had texted her to let her know i was coming home and stuff. I had told her before school i didnt feel well so she knew how i was feeling

she got me a drink and pain killers and took my temperature which was perfectly normal

i wasnt sweating or anything, despite being wrapped up in my bed

i just ache, weak, dizzy, headache and feel a bit sick

kinda like my normal symptoms but amplified 

so im not concerned its corona or anything, theres plenty of bugs going round school at the moment. I have no corona symptoms so im not gonna go get a test or alert school that i could have it as they would make me have a test and take 2 weeks off.

im hoping to be back at work on thursday

i know i wont be in tomorrow as i feel rotten tonight so i need another day to recover

basically i need a wasted day in bed which i am not happy about id rather be in work

today when i did get home i  pretty much slept for a few hours

sat downstairs and went on my laptop looking at home things really trying to design things in my head to do with the bungalow as i feel thats the most productive thing i could today

tomorrow i might sit and draw if i am able to

so yeah tomorrow i am home :/

im annoyed as i havent even been back a month yet and im already taking time off >.>

first case

 Evening

I couldnt sleep last night, I was in bed for 9pm after doing my nails, which im actually happy with this week~

but my heart kept beating out of rhythm which is has been doing for a good week or so now, but in bed last night it was really bad and i was only laying down! it has been doing it when ive ran around a lot and when i have just finished eating. I am not sure why my heart is doing it but i dont like it but i am sure it will soon pass

I was having very strange dreams/nightmares too about ghosts and it was really quite freaky. To say i dont watch ghost films ether

so i was quite tired this morning when i got up, I couldnt face breakfast my jaw really hurt, even just to eat dry cereal so i had a hot chocolate and a cup of tea and i quite enjoyed that for a change actually.

School was fine, wasnt too busy and i ended up doing a lot of computer work actually 

but yeah it was an alright day really

I felt jack was a bit out of sorts today

he missed his tram stop so had to get off at the next stop and walk to school - he simply wasnt paying attention. When I suggested looking at his emails to see if we had heard from the roofing people it took him til the 3rd time of me saying "we should check to see if they have messaged you" almost like he couldnt face it. He was tired from the weekend as he did do a lot over the weekend. and i dont know he just seemed a bit off like he was forcing his smile.

its a big change for him tho moving back home and losing his independence and living how he wants to, but i hope it wont be for long for him. 

i got home and sat with Mum with a brew as my Ozwald was too busy outside. He had been helping mum in the garden a lot she said today X3 and had enjoyed his time outside bless him.

I got up and went for an hours walk as it was such a lovely evening then came back and had my dinner then i was looking at housey stuff online. ordered a bunny lamp for our bedroom-to-be and also a rug of a kitty sleeping for infront of the fire in the living room

its little random things i keep finding and liking, it will make the bungalow feel like home in no time

tomorrow

school really, got nothing major on just a few easy practicals

we have our first confirmed positive case of corona virus tho

so only matter of time before more people catch it and the school closes, but we shall see~

im not worried anyway. my brother keeps saying it will be me to bring it into the house, like i would intentionally do that >.>

about it really just hope i sleep tonight! 

Jack's moved out his flat

 PonPon~

So Friday

I had school and i couldnt wait for the day to end, kinda didnt feel in the mood to work really XD

also jack was leaving at 1pm to go get his drop foot looked at which involved being electrocuted at the hospital and stabbed with needles, he did not enjoy

so I was left with Julia to man the fort

after school I dashed home and got changed then went to Nigel's 

I complained throughout the day that - I did not want to go >.>

but when I got to Nigel's I felt ok and I told him how it was and so he did cupping on me which i asked for, a massage but not too brutal then the acupuncture needles he put little packs of herbs on the top of them and lit them!!! so weird having needles in you which are on fire 0.0 the room was so smoky it made my nose run, and yes i could feel the needles warming up so that was 8 needles in my back on fire. Then he told me he could help my jaw!!! wish i told him ages about it!! i had 6 needles in my left jaw - the problem area. it is a very strange feeling, having needles in the face but when he took them out it felt like i'd had a stroke! my left side of my face felt numb almost when youve had treatment at the dentist.

i came back and showered as i smelt smoky XD and was a bit oily from the massage

then i got my stuff ready and went to jack's

we order takeaway, we had Wagamama - japanese food

I had chicken katsu curry which was meh alright, easy on the jaw but didnt really enjoy what i was eating. those two had a main, jack had a side and theo had 2 or 3 sides i cant remember

then we ordered our desserts - what i live for

we racked up £40 worth of dessert.... 0.0 thats impressive

i had smartie cookies dough with fudge pieces and white chocolate curls, with custard (mircrowaved it all when it arrived)

jack had 'VIP' milkshake (which weighed a ton) and a cake

theo had the same milkshake and 3 other cakey/waffle things - i have no idea where he puts it

so yeah a lot of sugar in the room, i loved my cookie dough and it woke me up XD jack said my pupils had dilated which i am often told when i had a load of sugar at once XD we watched some scout zombie film but i wasnt watching it i was too busy thinking about the food i had just put in my body, so i tried to sleep so i could forget about the thoughts

we played on switchs in bed and went to sleep

saturday

i woke up after having slept well then had a bath and breakfast, a nice leisurely start to my day. Then I went shopping~ jack was packing and so was theo, kinda felt id only get in the way

I picked up some underwear in the sales, a skirt for school which is grey wooly and elasticated waist for school for £13 and then a skirt for school reduced from £36 to £10! i picked bigger sizes as i feel i cant fit comfortably in my former clothes >.> hate tight confining clothes. I got some oven gloves for work too which i was well happy about

i came back and then i started falling asleep on jack's bed, it was lunch time but didnt want to interrupt his packing, i was hungry and was dreaming of doughnuts, so much so that i was drooling on the pillow XD jack woke me and there was so much drool. he said it was gross. that he thought he was gonna end up with 'a quiet, meek nerd girl' but instead ended up with 'an untrained pet' i laughed cus its true. i aint no lady. He warmed me up some soup and we had lunch together. then I took some pain killers and went to sleep on his bed whilst he worked. I was there if he needed help but i know it was stuff only he could do and sort really.

Theo's mum helped him take his stuff over to Harvey's then he unpacked there

we got a txt at 4pm asking if we wanted to go over to harvey's for dinner

i was happy to do that, me and jack walked over to harvey's whic is about a 30min walk

we got there and i was able to see how much work harvey had been able to put into his house. I found theo unpacking his stuff in his new bedroom XD

we had sausage and pork cobs which I cooked ^^

jack jokingly said "a woman's place is in the kitchen" harvey asked how i put up with Jack but i know he was only joking and had come to check on me several times to see if i was ok. harvey said i didnt need to cook. but to be honest i didnt do it for anyone else but myself! it was the warmest room in the house and it gave me something to do rather than sitting cold in an uncomfortable chair so i was  fine doing it. i didnt clear up - i wasnt gonna do that much!

theo said "can me and harvey have you as our maid"

i said "yeah if you pay me and supply the outfit"

he said "would you wear an an outfit?"

i said "yeah id love to wear a maid's uniform" ^^ 

jack said "what you have in mind Jo and what theo has in mind are two very different costumes" XD

i told jack quietly that i wanted to be gone for 9pm cus we had to walk back and stuff it gets cold and i was getting tired and ready for my meds

so at 8:30pm he kindly said we were gonna go ^^ i was glad he didnt make me stay there til 9pm

but to be honest i think jack and theo were quite tired from packing and cleaning, especially as jack had a couple of whiskeys 

we walked back together and he made me a hot chocolate and i took my meds then i played on okami in bed, i turned to see jack reading his phone but looked very sleepy. so we had an early night of 10:30pm

I didnt sleep tho

i woke up at 2:15am aching and had bad stomach ache, i felt sick as well

so i got up and jack offered to get up but i knew he had a lot on so i said it was fine he said "wake me if youre still up in 15mins time"

2 hours later i returned to bed

i had awful stomach pains and sickness, i worried i had eaten something bad. only when it passed did i return to bed

i moved jack out of his side of the bed and crawled into his side - it was warm XD

he cuddled me but i had my cheek on his chest and eventually my jaw said no more and it hurt, i crawled away from him and eventually dropped off at 5am 

got woke up at 7am by his alarm!!!! i was so mad. i was tired and didnt know he had set an alarm

i was so grouchy this morning, he found it cute but that annoyed me more

he made me tea cakes and a cup of tea and passed me my meds

and said "please dont kill me" XD must have looked rough and scary

i had my final bath this morning whilst jack packed and then once i was out i packed my stuff i kept at jack's. His step dad came and they packed up one car load. once they left i left really and i could see jack felt sad. he was happy in his flat and enjoying his independence and now off to his mum's

so i left him to wait for harvey, theo and theo's mum to turn up and help him clean the flat

i wasnt gonna make myself tired for monday when they had all that man power. 

i got home and saw Oz and pretty much went to bed i was shattered

think it was a combo of busy saturday - nigel's treatment and lack of sleep 

i got up and had lunch then did an hour of dance + yoga

showered and then went to put all my stuff away from jack's and what i brought from the shops

took me ages actually

since then i havent done much else been tired and spent time with Oz

designed my nails for the week that i will do later

i got my stuff ready for school too, got my new skirt and my new knee supports to have ago with. Oh and my jaw is doing a lot better!

i will drop jack a txt to see how he is getting on as im sure by now he has finished his cleaning and at his mum's sorting his stuff out. i just hope the bungalow comes soon so hes not on the sofa for too long

he might have the odd night here as my parents say hes welcome too but it means sharing a single bed. so if he stays it wont be til the weekend as if i cant share my bed and have a rough night i do not want to be tired for school so i need to do a 'test' night at the weekend first.

so thats it now the end of an era for jack his freedom has gone

both him and theo have enjoyed staying in the city centre and said they would have continued living there. so i feel like cus of me they have had to move on. But in a way its good cus harvey has been working from home and been getting a bit lonely and theo my god hes hated working from home so now they are together at least they have company. and jack...when we get the bungalow he will be happier im sure. 

im dreading seeing what mood he is in tomorrow morning...i will be ready with a strong coffee for him

let the next chapter start i guess~

takeaway and weekend soon!

 Evening

So yesterday I went to work and did the usual, and worked XD

it was an alright day actually, I had slept ok too apart from waking up to shift sides just to relieve my jaw against the pillow

after work I went to jack's

we didnt do a lot, i said i needed to exercise. he told me to take a night off and have a bath

so i did, and he gave my back a massage when i came out ^^

we had pizza for dinner which i kinda managed but after a while a gave in, i had had enough of chewing so i let him polish it off XD we talked with theo, we had hot chocolate and biscuits and i played on my switch for a bit but called it a night at 9:45pm.

i slept well actually, only to wake to turn sides on my jaw

this morning jack made me eat loads for breakfast damn him, i was so full

work was ok but my god it was hectic, i had 3 practicals across 2 floors first thing in the morning and hadnt been able to prep any of it yesterday due to it all needing to made first thing on the day. i felt like i had done my 10,000 steps by 9:30am! i was exhausted. 

the rest of the day was tiring as usual and i was aching bad, i had my pain killers a few hours earlier than i usually take them but i was just suffering pointlessly 

i got the day done somehow, its like a bloody achievement

it was nice having Luke back tho as he had his corona test results back within 19 hours so he only missed a day of school. 

i got back and had a brew with mum, Oz was busy chasing the pigeons outside XD

so i did 10mins of yoga and 20mins of dance and felt a bit looser then i had a shower, had dinner, sorted crap out and now i have my lunch to sort for tomorrow and meds then i can sit down with Oz then go to bed as i am done 0.0

tomorrow i have school

then i have nigel's at 4:15pm so its a quick wizz home, wizz out

i dont wanna go to nigel's but mum insisted i go, but the thought of more pain doesnt sit well right now as last time i went i hurt bad for days afterwards and felt no better. so i dont wanna go through that for nothing. i dont mind more pain if its gonna help but it did nothing last time - a rant i will put to him tomorrow! 

then i will see jack in the evening for a take away and sleep over!

making the most of being in his flat till his last day on sunday TT^TT

 Evening

I went to bed I think around 8:30pm, was shattered and had enough of listening to my dad's endless noises -____- that man is so annoying

I struggled to sleep tho my head was busy, I yawned on my pillow, just a normal action you dont think twice about doing, and SNAP my jaw cracked T^T it was already really bad but cracking it against the pillow really really hurt. I was in pain, it hurt to just lay my face on the pillow - ether side

and I can't sleep on my back or my front as it causes too many joints to ache.

In the end at 10pm I relented and got up for yet more painkillers (overdosing now) and a hot chocolate as I felt I needed to line my stomach with something

I went to bed at 10:30pm and tried to not get annoyed that I couldnt sleep as I was stressing about being tired for work the following day.

Did not sleep well as I kept waking up to move my jaw as pain was waking me up T^T

I woke up eventually at 5am and kinda napped til my alarm but ended up getting up at 5:50 as I had had enough of waking up every 10mins thinking my alarm was about to go off >.>

I was quite shattered this morning and my head couldnt think straight

i somehow made it to school on time

school was fine, we obviously didnt have julia there but luckily there wasnt any chemistry practicals going off. I didnt have any practicals ether, just handing out microscopes. so we were able to get the day done without killing ourselves off. I have got an a-level practical tomorrow tho but its a small one involving cheese and ethanol 

i even had time to paint some display work today! so yeah quite a good day really 

i struggled to even eat the sweetcorn in my soup at lunch, anything the requires biting down really hurts and sends a shooting pain from my jaw joint down my neck and up to my temple. sadly nothing can be done about my condition it has to just naturally heal by its self

what I have is called 

Temporomandibular disorder

I got home and sat with mum - Oz was too busy in the garden, and by too busy i mean digging tunnels under bushes -______- the mess and destruction that rabbit can do at times is impressive

I did some dancing as I felt like doing that rather than going for a walk, i was amazed after 30mins how sweaty i was but i felt a bit looser for doing it, a lot of joints cracked...

had a shower and dinner and packed my stuff to take over to jack's tomorrow after school

we are gonna eat pizza after school so i hope hes chosen some good flavours from the shop today, also i hope i can eat the damn things. i gave up eating all of my dinner today just cus id had enough of the pain of chewing even tho it was only pasta!

it will get better its just cus i made it worse last week and last night...

so yeah tomorrow is school then jack's

checked dungarees

 Evening

didnt go to jack's in the end

he didnt get home from his friend's house til 7:50pm to which he said "home now if you want to come over" i said "it takes me 15-12mins to drive over, I'll be in bed in an hour's time. it doesnt seem worth it" cus yeah i'd literally only have an hour with him til id want to be in bed for school in the morning so I couldnt see the point really. So i unpacked my bag, got my pyjamas on and had an hour's long sit with Ozwald on the sofa

so much for having an evening together doing what i want to do and eating treats >.>

I didnt sleep well due to sleeping on my jaw, it kept waking me up being in pain -____-

this morning I got to school to find one the taps in a lab had been left on over the weekend...?how?

so the lab was like flooded so I had the job of cleaning that up, not sure if it was my job or not but all well, can't work with a lake in a classroom. I got back to the prep room to find Jack on the phone

Julia was on the phone - she wasnt coming in

last week her eldest daughter had only been in school 2 days, saying she felt poorly and so Julia let her stay home. But Julia then said that over the weekend she didnt pick up and now has a temperature and her stomach is still off - both of which are covid symptoms in younger people. So Julia was taking her to get a test done, therefor wouldn't be and won't be in until the test results are back :/ 

I suppose she wants to be safe than sorry

this meant me and jack had to cover for her, whilst it was tempting to say "sorry chemists no chemistry practicals today" we looked and both of us had a quite day and could actually do the chemistry practicals. So thats what we did. And it was like the good old days when me and jack first met - him doing the chemistry practicals, me clearing up and washing up XD

I did help more than when I first started, but of course jack gives me the washing up to do >.>

and my god did some of those chemicals stink!!! awful awful stuff. So i couldnt leave the washing up festering in julia's prep room. It was that bad that the smell had stunk out the classroom/lab so the next class afterwards actually changed rooms! i must say the stuff did give me a headache and i well ventilated that room too.

I have got all my stuff sorted for tomorrow so I can cover for Julia once again as I know she won't be til at the earliest of thursday.  

School was tiring but I survived, think the super long rest over the weekend helped somewhat

Jack paid attention to me XD think he dared not after last night. and he wants me over wednesday night and asked what id like to eat and said he would get it all in ^^ I kinda want pizza I think I can manage that on my jaw...if i eat slowly enough i hope.  then he said him and theo are having a supreme takeaway on friday as its the last one together XD so it involves dinner and pudding, he has invited me so i said i would join in. i know i already feel guilty about eating take away and i havent eaten it yet!

I got home and had a brew with mum and Ozwald

me and mum went for a walk then i had a shower as i stunk, and then had a salad now im on here. Got to get my stuff ready for tomorrow and get ready to start it all again.

Oh and i several comments on how cute I looked today and people saying my outfit was great. it was the first time i had worn my checked dungaree shorts to work ^^