got my bedding

 Evening

I took two cocodamol last night instead of 1, it was bliss XD

I fell asleep around 10:30pm

After i had cried twice, just cus i was in pain, had enough of it all and was not looking forward to another sleepless night. But I did drop off, however I woke up at midnight! what gives!? well unfair!

so I laid there, and laid there. It got to 2am and I thought 'screw this, it aint happening'

so I got up for an hour, had cereal, pain killers, read a bit, the usual

i went to bed around 3am, fell asleep and woke up just before 8am feeling shattered

This morning and all day really it has rained

so me and mum made the decision to go to the home store

she drove me to the post office first tho to post of the piggie, cost me £23.....

I managed to get the duvet, 3 pillows (Jack sleeps with 2), 2 cushion inners, 2 dinner plates

so yeah it was worth getting as we now have all the bedding and finally 2 more dinner plates, these ones have bunnies and squirrels and owls on theyre quite cute

we left and came home for lunch which was pumpkin soup and then I went to bed dosed up on pain killers it was bliss for 2 hours, not being conscious and having to feel pain and stress

When I got up tho Jack said he wanted to ring me

basically the roof on the bungalow was suppose to have been looked at on monday but the guy doing it is self-isolating, so yeah thats on hold now. He also said that Chris had rung him saying someone he gets a lift to and from school has had a positive corona test :/ and me and jack were in chris's office on monday and if honest i think we'd forgotten about masks at that point. we get talking and walked over to his office and yeah you get hot and stuff and keep distance at first without mask on then whilst talking you get closer and closer as it human body language. its easily done. So jack said to be careful, i wasnt worried really. chris is fine. he may not have corona. he is gonna see how he goes.

i looked so pale talking to jack tho i looked bloody awful. he said it was his sister's 17th birthday today so they were off out for food in the evening, rather them than me i have to say. ive been put off eating out since i found out school kitchen staff caught corona.

I cleaned Oz out whilst it was only drizzling. He has been outside a lot today - getting wet >.>

such a tramp and then he drinks the rain water on the decking -___- like he doesnt have fresh water in his water bottle. he just likes to think hes a wild bunny

We sat with the girls and had a brew

then I did a bit of dancing as I was sweating anyway for whatever reason

i worked hard and my hair was soaked, 30mins of dancing~

then showered off

after dinner i drew out silhouettes of whippets as i want to make mia a couple of cushions for her birthday and im doing simple whippet designs    

then I rummaged through my fabrics and found what i needed to make these cushions. 

i just need like iron on fabric glue. then i can get going with it

might do a bit of work on squirtle tonight but im not liking how he is turning out but i said that about charmander and he turned out ok.

tomorrow, hopefully go and get some fabric glue and get going with these cushions.

but my god i hope i sleep tonight. so sick of it all right now.

i hurt after i had danced, how unfair is that? my arms and back hurt. so i exercise to help the aches but it makes more aches. it was my usual dances and within 30mins of finishing i got these aches. not fair. makes me wonder why i bother. why i continue at all

10 hours left

 Evening

So last night I decided to do 30mins of dance practice, learning Tsubaki Factory's Ima nanji

it went well, I got up to the 1 minute mark

then I went to sit with my Ozwald

and went to bed but didnt sleep well, was waking up every 2 hours so I dont feel I had much of a deep sleep then woke up at 6am for work but didnt need to actually get up til 7am so I just laid there trying to get some sleep but didnt achieve any

I got to school at 9am

Julia txted to say she went in yesterday and wouldnt be in today, so it would me and jack

I was looking forward to seeing Jack

but the way he walked in, he looked tired so I made him a coffee

but all day he was grouchy, stressy and just hard to make conversation with

we had house paper work to sign and when it came to bit he needed to google, just to confirm what we needed to write, i sat next to him as I have been doing when doing house stuff - for moral support - i was gorming out to be honest and he turned to me "can you not sit there! i feel like youre breathing down my neck" 0.0 i mean i was quite taken back by that considering i wasnt even looking at him.

I responded "god Jack, I wasnt even doing anything"

he asked me to sign something and i made sure to take the paper away from him and do it else where so i wasnt  'breathing down his neck' 

i couldnt wait to finish to be honest cus it was hard work and i felt all he could talk about was him moaning about living at home. 

I announced i was leaving at 2:30pm he gave me a hug and told me he loved me and apologised for being stressy i kinda just left. i'd had enough but didnt hold it against him as we all get off days. I feel his are more noticeable as he has far less off days than me XD

I have exactly 10 hours left to complete before June

I came home and had a brew with mum then fussed Oz as I felt i needed my spirit calming

but it wasnt enough, i was hurting and very tired so i started to drift off on the sofa but mum woke me!! rightly so, but it still felt unfair. But it would stop me from sleeping tonight

so i forced myself to do an hours walk, i felt pretty good whilst walking 

i came home, had dinner, showered and got into pyjamas

might do some drawing then i am sitting with Oz then I will paint my nails, im having plain nails all 10 will be a different colour tho. but i never have plain nails.

Oh Jack brought me pumpkin earrings and a little bat plush that matches some other plushies i have X3 I will photograph them

tomorrow

I am going post office to post the piggie

then i think me and mum are going to a home store if she feels like it as she has a flu jab in the morning and sometimes you can feel a bit off from it. so we shall see~ I have stuff i can get on with tho

Finished multi coloured guinea

 Evening

My god what a sodding night

I did decided to do half hour yoga last night which did help unknot some muscles. I went to bed feeling tired but for whatever reason I could not get off to sleep, it reached midnight and I eventually drifted off. But for 20mins....what gives!? thats well unfair. I ached - of course - so I got up and had cereal and pain killers and crawled back to my bed. I did fall asleep but I had a nightmare - I get nightmares when Im stressed - it was so freaking creepy, it was to do with dolls and yeah it was like watching a horror film. I woke up sweating and I saw my doll - Himeko - facing me and its the first time that she has ever given me the creeps, I fell asleep straight away and fell back into the nightmare. When I woke up i about launched out of bed not wanting to relive the nightmare again. I went downstairs and was prepared to sod sleep at it was like 4am. I stayed up til 5am and had cereal then went to bed and woke up just before 9am feeling quite rough but was grateful I had achieved some sleep.

This morning I did 20mins of dancing but wasnt my best I could tell I couldnt think straight but I think its because I had been taking pain killers throughout the night. My morning brain was foggy

I got showered and then me and mum went to chemist for my drugs

then brought some flowers as it would have been grannys birthday today she would have been 85

so we went and put them on her grave and gave her grave a quick clean

we went for a walk down the river which was nice just a bit cold

I got back and had lunch

then I started and finished the guinea pig plushie for my friend Tom

she this is going all the way to Australia~

Came out pretty cute and different

I fell asleep for a while and did not want to get up

after dinner we had cake as I managed to convince mum cus it was grannys birthday that we should have cake :3

I did 30mins of dance practice, i have started learning Tsubaki factory's ima nanji

then I wrapped up the guinea pig

and now I am gonna sit with my Ozwald

I have been eating a satsuma at night and he seems to have gotten a taste for it >.>

he harasses me til i give him a segment, its hard to peel with his  nose all over the satsuma XD

Tomorrow

going work ugh >.> I have some hours left to kill and I want to see Jack

so I aim to get there around 9am and then do a few hours, I have lunch ready so yeah I will just stay til I have had enough. Cant be bothered but it will be nice to see Jack I have missed him. its stressing me out more than I thought it would. I was scratching in the night so my legs and face hurt. scratching and nightmares. ugh

started colourful guinea plush

 Evening

Despite waiting for my evening pain killers, they did literally nothing

I stewed in bed til 10:30pm when I decided to get up as I was not gonna get to sleep in that state

my parents were still up and mum made me a hot chocolate, i was fine making it but she insisted on making me one, and she massage my legs with the massage roller

they went to bed at 11pm. I stayed up and took some more pain killers, waited for them to kick in a bit then when to bed at midnight but still took me an hour to sleep. From there I had disturbed sleep and my bed was a tip in the morning -_____- so I dont feel like I have actually slept

This morning I went for an hour's walk by myself which was quite nice then came back and showered and had a brew with mum

then I started working on the guinea pig plush, I got quiet far with it today with a sleep and breaks in between making it. Shouldnt take me too long to actually get it finished.

I made my dinner and ate it by myself

had a look online for christmas gifts, i keep ordering bits and pieces when I get ideas on what I could get people. I have finished a few people now. Luckily I have very few people to buy for as i little friends and hardly any family. Still, i would like to get my christmas shopping finished during these holidays if I can

might do some drawing later but I will see, my eyes are very tired to be honest

tomorrow

me and mum might go out somewhere, I have convinced her to have the week off work to spend with me :3 but we said we shall see how i feel tomorrow as my health hasnt been good this weekend

might get into pyjamas and do yoga tonight? who knows, not sure what I am in the mood for!

first day of rest and done charmander

 Evening

My first day of rest u___u

My god I needed it, I didnt sleep too badly

once I woke up I climbed into mum's bed with her for 10mins

then we went to see the pets, dad had already let Ozwald out so he was doing his morning patrol

I had a very slow morning, didnt start exercising til 10:15am

I danced for 30mins then went for a shower then went for a walk with mum

I came back and had a brew and a sit, followed by a tea cake then I went to bed

I didnt wake up til 3 hours later!! it was such a deep sleep too, the house could have been on fire and I wouldnt have known about it! The whole time Oz was outside like a wild bunny

I got up and had a brew with mum then I went to do some drawing, I was tired - still - but did some drawing and I think I have finished charmander now

He looks cute and vampirish XD Next is squirtle I guess

I had my dinner which I made and then I looked through fabrics as I have a guinea plush to make tomorrow so I was seeing what I had to use. So thats all on my floor waiting to be cut up

Thats tomorrow's plan anyway, that and staying out of dad's way

I hope I sleep as I have slept so much today

well done for doing the first 7 weeks

 Evening

I've done it, I've bloody done it. This half  term, these 7 long hard weeks are over

I can finally rest for 2 weeks 

I didnt sleep well last night and ended up getting up at 5:45am

I put on a cute red and black tartan dress and had a red bow and a black bow in my hair and even curled my hair I wanted to look cute today 

I was just leaving the house and mum said to me "you start later today dont you? 8:30am?"

i said "ahhhhh i forgot" -______- i could have had more sleep!!!

So as I had my shoes on at this point I decided to go in anyway and put the time on my time sheet

hannah and luke were in anyway so I had company

but I just put music on and painted some cans for physics and yeah just sat quietly and did that

Julia and Jack came in around 8:15am

i said "I came in 40mins early today!!!"

jack said "why did you do that?"

i said "cus I forgot we start later!" he said "youre an idiot" dont i know

still its another half hour on my sheet so i've done 22 hours out of 37 now :3

I did a bit of prepping for when we get back

then chris came and said could I come work with him this morning rather than the afternoon so I was lead to his office. He told me what I had to do for the school and I went back to my desk and had ago on some seriously old photoshop and a mouse. I wanted my laptop with my graphics tablet. I was getting frustrated as I couldnt do what I wanted to and when I did have a go at it, the computer crashed!!!!

so I gave in and texted chris asking when was the due date - thinking it was today

he said "anytime" so i asked if i could do it at home in the holidays and he said that was fine :D

we had free food and free tea and biscuits and tidied the prep room and went through what practicals are coming and if i needed any chemicals 

it was an ok day I guess i just was shattered and achy

I came home and mum made me a brew and I sat with Oz who had decided to play outside the whole day bless him. I was suppose to do exercise but I was so spent. I went to bed! and I slept for a good hour and didnt feel much better

I got up and dinner was ready shortly after, then I had a shower to relax me and got into pyjamas 

i told mum i felt guilty that i hadnt done any exercise and i said i need to just feel a sense of achievement for completing the first half term and not beat myself up for not exercising

i will exercise in the morning i am sure. I am just dead....

me and jack are gonna do some hours on tuesday as chris said he is going in also on tuesday

its the only time i can see jack as households arent allowed to mix and meet up :/ 

So my plans for half term

I need to make a guinea plush thats the first thing!

I am gonna plan out and maybe start an quilt to hand in the bungalow living room - i know the design i want to do.

I am gonna see what i need to buy as christmas presents for everyone, as i currently have the time to do that, when I have the house I will not have the time, money, or energy for it

and to clean my room

and do some art~ 

theyre my plans

god i hope i sleep tonight~

just tomorrow then I can rest

 

Evening

I actually slept pretty well last night but I was shattered I hardly read for long cus I was just gone~

I needed my alarm this morning that is a fact

I sat with Oz and stuff this morning, the usual, but got mummy to tie my hair up as I wanted a hair pony and i sometimes struggle with that one

School was ok really

nothing special happened

I wasnt a shivering mess on the floor tho

i did however shed a few tears as basically i looked at the time and it was 9:30am, i thought "my pain killers have kicked in by now" but it was like I hadnt had anything i hurt...bad

by 11am I took some pain killers and felt better, by 1pm I wanted more and shed a few tears cus i was in so much pain it just felt cruel. I wanted nothing more than to take a lot of medication and go to sleep and not think or feel. But sadly I had work to do

I somehow powered through

I did some display stuff and yeah passed the day somehow i guess. It did feel slow

I got home and didnt drink my brew but fussed my Ozwald whilst talking to mum. didnt really want my tea, then did 30mins of yoga which i must say i couldnt be bothered to do 

then I went looking on a website 2 people recommended to me at work today shein.uk

i found some stuff i liked but felt very much like i would have been buying for the sake of buying so i left it i did however enjoy looking at their halloween section seeing as every UK shop has got rid of halloween stuff this year :( i love pumpkins and bats T^T

Tomorrow is the last day of school for 2 weeks thank god cus i need to recharge and get myself together, me and jack have said however that we are gonna come in during the holidays. I want to kill more hours off before i have a house so that for the next few holidays I have off i can dedicate my time to the house and not have hours to do at school. Jack has almost completed his hours but I suggested to him to earn hours (as we cant earn over time pay just time off in leau) so that he can have the day off to move his stuff over the bungalow when we finally get the keys which he seems to think is a good idea

at school tomorrow I have got to go through all the topics that will happen in biology from now til christmas and see which practicals will happen and if i need any chemicals ordering, its really dull stuff. Then after lunch Chris is robbing me to help sort out some documents to make the layout better and such, stuff i can have a go at at least.Its design stuff anyway.

I get to wear non-uniform tomorrow :D and get free school meal, insec days rule XD