dad's birthday of grumpiness

 Evening~~

I managed an hour of exercise last night and was quite done in, Jack did finish gaming at 10:30pm then we watched inuyasha, I struggled to sleep tho. Took me til after midnight. Then I woke up at 6am...kept waking up til 7am as I knew my alarm was due to go off but once I saw Jack was up I managed to stay in bed til 7:30am but I was aching and needed pain killers. I was just so tired!!!

Jack went for his driving lesson, his first one of 2021 cus of lockdown. He left at 8am, I got ready and stripped the bedding and put it in the wash just my normal house stuff that has to be done and by 9am I had set off for a walk to the post office for a parcel I had missed. I came back and my mum had rang me as I left my phone at home cus I hate taking it. She was ringing to say that despite it being dad's birthday he was in a bad mood and had a bad day at work. However he didnt even need to go to work so I had no sympathy for him just sympathy for mum.

Jack came home at 10am and we had a cup of tea together then I went to bed for a catch up sleep that took me til lunchtime XD we had lunch and then I washed my car for the first time at my own house! jack helped me set up the hose pipe and helped me put it away. He was off paying bills on his computer. Then he was happy as his new power supply had arrived for his PC he just a bit apprehensive about fitting it.

We sat outside on my picnic blanket! first time we have used it, its friggin massive! like takes up half our lawn! it was lovely weather and Oz enjoyed the company of course.

We then went to mum's at 4pm, to find dad not home....I was like "where is he?" mum who looked rather peed off saying "he popped out to drop some keys off he said he would be 20 mins, hes been gone 2 hours. Wish I hadnt bothered. Ive got ready a BBQ and made a cake" I felt sorry for her cus yeah she did not look happy. However everyone cheered up eventually - basically when everyone apart from me had had a drink did people start to relax.

I cooked the BBQ which was so tasty - different flavoured meat for me basically XD

I ate a fair bit just to keep me quiet. As everyone was having cake afterwards T^T 

We ate outside and me and jack sat on the picnic blanket, Oz wasnt that fussed about us he was more interested in the guineas and the plants. 

Dad appreciated my gift. Thank god as he is so hard to buy for. We left at 7pm and came home with Oz who is tired and laying out on the floor right now.

I will take him to bed in a minute

jack is gaming with theo and maybe harvey soon too. Then he will have  the bath after me and we will watch Inuaysha and go bed. We did start watching fruits basket today for our lunch time viewing.

Mum gave me 3 breakfasts worth of leftover BBQ meat :D :D :D 

tomorrow

chore day and shopping day really

The wooper and mouse

 Konbanwa~~

I managed 1 hour of exercises last night but they weren't hard. No cardio or anything. We had digimon the movie on whilst I did it. Then I had a rather hot bath. Jo's face was red ><

It took me til gone midnight to get to sleep tho, then for a change I didnt wake up at 6am!! I slept through til 8am ^^ which was nice, however I then needed to get over to mum's in case my lighting came. But at 8:10am she txt me to say they had arrived!! I was very lucky indeed as it meant I know longer had a rushy morning. 

Chris txt to say he was gonna come over to fix Jack's computer. So I decided to go to mum's as it was gonna be nerd talk, then Jack potentially gaming with Theo in the afternoon then dungeon and dragons tonight. So basically - a long day by myself. I would go to mum's for company. I took my lunch over ^^

I sat in the kitchen drawing on my laptop whilst she made her soup then I helped her with tomorrows BBQ meat. We sat with the girls, had lunch and yeah it was nice. A parcel came for my brother which I knew what it was - he had ordered all 6 of the Piu Piu Molcars!! theyre plush key chains but too big to be key chains theyre freaking huge and very cute so I video called him asking if we could open them and he said we could so we did a live unboxing XD Luckily my big ball shelves came too so I had 2 rather big boxes to fit in my car! I came home at 1pm as mum was seeing a friend. I had been over 3 hours which was nice and mum appreciates the time with me :) make the most of it whilst I am off.

I came back and Jack was about to start the mowing of our lawn. First time we have cut it as we moved in during winter. He did well but needs to cut the sides by hand with sheers yet >.> I kept Oz inside with me incase he wasnt sure on the noise of the lawn mower. He wasnt too bad actually. Then Jack helped me get my lights and shelves out my big boxes and we turned the boxes into massive tunnels for Oz and put them into the garage which he likes. However when we did this we found the mouse!!! it was in the corner of a shelf! it had climbed up the lawnmower handles and onto a shelf where Oz's food is (fresh unopened bags) and nibbled the corner and helped it's self! So we have had take everything indoors now which is a pain as its storing it all.

I had a sleep as my body needed it which is very frustrating. Feel like theres something wrong with me lately with how much I want to sleep!

We had dinner which was leftover stew and tasty. Then I was just on the internet whilst Jack showered. When he came out the shower I made him hang up the wooper painting! its gone with the other art work I have done for him on his study wall :) He loves it.

Im just with Oz now, I have exercises to do. Jack is gaming til late tonight cus some people werent on till late :/ He did ask me tho.

Tomorrow

I need to go post office to collect a missed parcel, dont think its anything exciting not compared to the Molcars! I might walk to the post office if the weather is ok in the morning.

Not sure what I will do rest of the day but it is my dad's birthday so we have been invited to go over for a BBQ as whatelse is there to do really. I think my mum said I might be cooking it but she will let me know. I dont mind ether way.

Anyway here is the wooper~

Jack's computer is broken

 Evening

So last night me and Jack had a good evening together, its been a while since we have done something like that together. I started off doing 45mins of yoga which Oz joined in with X3

Then I ran a bath an put a face scrub on with Jack, I went in the bath and washed then invited Jack to join me ^^ I was in the bath him for a bit then left him to wash as you cant wash with 2 people in the bath.

The whole time we were in the bath we were by the light of a vanilla candle, I took the candle into the bedroom and turned the bunny lamp on, put face sheets on and we gave each other a half hour massage which was nice and I hurt Jack a bit as his muscles are so tight from lack of use! we then laid under the blanket just in pants. It was nice to be so relaxed 

we both had hot chocolate and watched Inuyasha then went to bed.

I woke up at 6am needing a wee but tried not to get up, when I kept waking up for that same wee I did decide to get up at 7am I left jack in bed tho

I was suppose to be going a walk with mia in the morning but never heard from her til 11:30am

Which was roughly the time I had been woken up by Jack, after doing all my chores I was tired. jack woke me up and told me his computer had broke, smoke and everything...not good.

We had lunch and then mum came over to help me clean. She did my windows and a bit of dusting.  Jack cleaned the whole kitchen including inside of cupboards it looks much better. I dusted and also finally sorted out my dressing table! I can finally do my hair, make up and skin care there! 

I was done in afterwards. Mum didnt stick around as the girls had come over to play in our garden for the first time! they were ready to go home so mum took them home. I went to bed after finishing my wooper picture! it is done!! 

Jack woke me up at 5pm to do dinner, i did not want to get up but he made me a brew so its all good

after dinner i spoke to my brother. its dads birthday on saturday

now im typing with one hand and stroking oz with the other

jack is on his laptop with me. i have my exercises to do nooooooo

Tomorrow

probably will have to go over to mums at some point as my lighting is being delivered typically. Said 3-4 weeks so i didnt get it delivered here as in 3-4 weeks id be back at school. however it was delivered within the week! so i could have got it sent here after all! so if mum goes out tomorrow i will have to go house sit and wait for post man. 

I havent got much else in mind, chris may come over to help fix jack's computer

Finished my hours and sick of being tired

 Konbanwa~

I managed 30 mins of exercise last night but they were slow easy videos. I just about managed, had a nice bath then jack had the bath after me, we watched an inuyasha special - about 40mins long and went to bed. I had a lot on my mind so took me a while to sleep then woke up at 6am and then kept waking up til 7am when I finally had enough of waking up constantly i got up at 7:10am and woke jack up.

We got ready for work and put the stew on, Oz had been out for a stretch but put him home with carrot.

We got to school to find it dead, people said before the holidays "yeah i plan on being in on the second week" no one was in XD no one wants to be there. I thought I had 4 hours to do left on my time sheet. I actually only had 1 left and ended up doing 2 hours today therefor i am owed an hour. As I cant leave early or start late to gain that hour back - cus i travel with jack - I will have to have a long lunch sometime! 

we got bits and pieces done, probably the most interesting bit was putting away our chemical order that had arrived. We had ordered a fair amount.

We left and came home for about 11:15. We had a brew and a sit then had lunch. Mia asked if we could go for a walk tomorrow morning which i was rather relieved about as I just felt so god damn tired. I am getting so fed up and frustrated of being tired. I did some house jobs, which made me want to cry and give up and go home and just give up on living away from home. I had had enough. simple.

I thought I would calm down and work on my painting. Literally did about 15mins and my mum showed up. I wasnt in the mood to be honest, I didnt know she was coming over. She bought the girls new outdoor pen for MY garden. It is this cheap horrid thing that required a lot of making and breaking of nails getting the clips on to hold the thing together. I was tired, achy, cold and I have also had an infected middle finger for 3 days that wont stop leaking puss. So having to put clips on with that was horrible. I lost my temper and ranted off at mum. She finished the job. I teared up and apologised. She said it was fine understood. Ive just had enough basically.

She came in and had a tea with me. I did calm down but I still couldnt be bothered to talk. She left me and I did a bit more of my painting. I would have loved to have gone to sleep but I knew if I did I would have screwed up going to sleep tonight. I bleached my eyebrows as I hated them.

We did dinner which took like 5mins as it was just a yorkshire pudding in the oven and dishing up the stew thank god for the easy dinner. 

Now just doing diary and going to see Oz for a bit

but tonight we said we would have a night together as havent spent any actual time together this holiday other than decorating. We said we would do face packs, a bath, massage one another and watch anime. Actual time together. Should be nice

Tomorrow

Maybe going for a walk with mia and the dogs tomorrow morning I am unsure how she has time off work but I will ask her. Shes also having her house valued tomorrow! I hope she lives even closer to me ^^ as of now she lives a 25min walk

Then after lunch my mummy is coming over to help me clean the house :D

Finally went shopping and Oz's cage photo

 Konbanwa~~

I was grateful to be in bed last night on time. I was done in, even the simple exercises took it out of me. I only did 25mins and I was just exhausted. I went to bed and slept til 6am then 7am which is when i got up, I thought I would have shed loads of time before I would need to go over to mum's but I was wrong...

I went to see Oz and half his face was wet and my heart sank as I thought "hes got an eye infection or has he got a blocked tear duct?" so I woke jack up and told him and he was like "could be from his water bottle" but that felt to easy. I decided to get ready and give Oz's face time to dry - if it would dry

Upon leaving the house I thought I would check him,he was stuffing his face in the garden, came running over and had a treat from me - all normal happy healthy bunny behaviour. His face had dried a bit. I studied him, looking in his eye lids and noticed round the back of his face towards his ear was wet rather than the eye area. I told jack to ring me if he thinks Oz isnt good but it was looking like a wet face from a water bottle.

I went over to mum's and was lucky enough to catch the girls still inside so I had a quick cuddle then we went off to TK MAXX we were both prepared for queues and to even come away if it looked too busy. But we got in the shop just fine and it was just dead inside like no one in there it was quite strange and not what we expected. I picked up A LOT of bargains as they had stuff to shift as the seasons has changed, I picked up bunny things as easter has been and gone and the shops remained closed. So both me and mum spent £190 however about £50 of my spending was on Jack which he will pay me back for.

We got back and had a cup of tea and then lunch, the we put mum's purchases away and I did a couple of little jobs but it got to 2pm I was tired, I had heard from Jack at lunch time saying Oz's face was dry and his water bottle was dripping a bit....I was worried again for nothing Ozwald -____-

that rabbit will be the end of me one day!

I am relieved and very grateful as he is my life, here's his repainted cage~

I came home at 2pm and brought my bags in then went straight for Oz, bought him in for a fuss whilst I showed jack my purchases.  I was so tired tho after putting it all away and sorting a few bits out that I went to sleep next to jack for 45mins. Did dinner then had Oz inside again. My brother rang me and we talked a bit about stuff and now doing diary. its like 8pm and I have some form of exercises to do.

Jack and mum said I need to take it easy I am always tired and burning myself out. I need a few easy days I just find 'easy' days difficult >< 

my mum enjoyed today tho I can tell. She enjoys quality time with me and we havent been shopping together in months so it was nice. and I finally got some new things i wanted too.

Tomorrow

We are going into work for a couple of hours. Just cus I said I would not because I want to. I still have 4 hours to do on my time sheet so yeah doing 2 now and 2 in june half term then I finish with like 2 days spare XD but it will be boring going in tomorrow >.> and mia has txt to say if i want to do a walk so thats typical.

actually going shops tomorrow

 Konbanwa

I slept well but did take me til midnight to settle down. I woke up at 8am but left jack in bed for a little while. We did get up and ready tho and picked Oz up from mum's at 9:30am as we both missed him. We got back and I did some chores, whilst waiting for Mia to turn up.

She came at 10:30am with my dad's birthday card I ordered off her etsy account - lazymonkeydesigns

Looks really good I am pleased with it and said I would leave her a review

I enjoyed my walk but from the moment I woke up I have been pale and tired today, just dead energyless and my heart feels like it is working harder to keep up with the average day. So I was quite shattered when I came in. 

I had lunch then jack looked at me and said "why dont you have a nap" thats jack's way of saying 'you look like death and need rest' however I still had many things I wished to do. He talked me through things like things that dont NEED to be done today. And hes right. So I went to bed. I stayed there for 2 hours and woke up to jack gaming. He has done things today, he did some legal stuff for the house, changed all my sockets and light switches in the craft room, hoovered and tidied the craft room and moved my dressing table into there. So he has helped me a lot today but I think some of it was because he could see how dead I was today

This afternoon I sat and worked on my canvas. Its coming together a lot more and seems to make us laugh as well. Its such a smug Wooper XD which calmed me down a bit as I just ached so much it was starting to stress me out. I think what has made my condition so bad is that I was outside in -1c for almost 3 hours doing Oz's cage in all positions. It does look amazing and like a new hutch so it was worth it and it protects it too. If he cage ever goes outside again XD

Oz played outside til 8pm whereas usually i bring him inside for his evening play between 7-8pm but he was so happy I didnt want to disturb him. I bought him inside at 8pm but it was just so hungry so he only stayed in side for 10mins but he has been inside today and Ive sat outside with him twice so hes had fuss today.

I have got exercises to do T^T but I am not doing an hour because I feel dead. Also I have already been for a walk. So I have done something today. So I will do a couple of easy chloe videos and go for a bath. Jack isn't gaming with anyone tonight so he can leave his PC any time I ask he says ^^ that means I can have an early night :D 

I was quite shocked yesterday actually, I came out the bath and was doing my skincare, I could hear jack finishing up his raid on elder scrolls online - a game hes played since its launch which was about 10 years ago. He was asking the leader of his guild if they could find someone to replace him as hes getting very bored! It shocked me. I hope I havent influenced his decision as I have, on several occasions, slagged it off. I do not mind him playing that game or playing with others but he does the same raid over and over and over again. For what? to get new gear he says. But then they have updates a few times a year which releases new gear so they do the raid again for new gear. I told jack that I honestly see it as a waste of life. I feel he has been disillusioned with it and I have broke the spell as he has started to see it from my point of view. However I did not want to give it up, I just wanted him to enjoy it and get something more out of it. It all seemed pointless and neverending in my eyes. So yeah soon on a sunday - until they find a replacement - jack will be free to do something else. I said he can still have a gaming night but maybe ether with harvey and theo or with me.

We shall see

tomorrow

mummy has taken the day off work tomorrow for me! She wants to spend time with me.

So we are getting to TK MAXX for 9am, the shops in britain opened today and we said we would go tomorrow, I just hope theres not a big que to get in. We said if there is a big que that we would leave it. I plan on taking soup over to mum's so I can have lunch with her. I dont need much from the shops, jack however NEEDS clothes and underwear. So I am going more on his behalf. He has given me permission. I had to almost blow the dust off my handbag as its not been used in months! not been round shops since early decemeber or maybe late november.

Day of chores, and introduced to Pui Pui Molcar

 Evening

So last night I set my laptop up in front of me and just let it run through jpop music video whilst I did 40mins of yoga, I then spent forever in the bath, and even when I came out I was treating my skin to products. At the end of it I actually looked healthy and refreshed it was quite a shock. jack even commented on how well I looked. He then spoiled it by saying "you look almost...clean...wont last long tho" >.> damn him. He knows I sweat for britain and make mess. I have practically worn a paint bucket this week T^T

I was grateful of the early night of 10:30pm. I slept til 6am, rolled over grabbing hammington and slept til 8am! 

This morning we went and did our food shopping which wasnt too bad.

I went outside and started cleaning Oz's hutch, disinfectant, scrubbing tools, and a stick. The layers of wee and sawdust were so thick in areas....if I didnt use newspapers and clean him out at least once a week I would hate to see the state of it. It still smells tho Im disappointed to say. Just reeks of bunny wee. 

I got really cold doing it as I was just in tshirt and joggers and it started to hail. Today we have had sun, hail, snow sometimes all 3 at once. The weather has been whacked out today.

I came in bloody frozen and used detol on my hands I just felt very unclean after that job. Oz came to help but didnt make the job any less grim.

We had lunch which helped to warm me through.

Then as soon as I finished my last mouthful I was out the door going to my mums (quickly stripping the bed and putting it in the wash) I took Oz with me, who did not want to go! Got out my hands putting him in the carrying case. But he was fine once he got into mum's garden. I then spent the next 90mins doing things with my family. Quite tired when I came away from there. Best bit was sitting with my mum and brother whilst he put on TV something him and mum have been secretly watching Pui Pui molcar....if you have never seen it, see it! only 2mins long each, its unbelievably cute. I can tell my mum and brother like it as its just guinea pigs basically. I was glad to have truffs on my lap to stroke whilst watching it as it was just so damn cute!!! I have since come home and ordered a key chain for my mum :) cant wait to surprise her with it.

I came home and decided to get Oz's cage done as I want it dry for him tomorrow morning.

That took me 90mins!! And I did get cold doing it. 

I came in and assisted Jack who was putting up my curtain pole in the craft room. I then went to go clean the bathroom before dinner. I could have quite easily not have done it as I was shattered but I didnt want to do it tomorrow it needed doing. Then when I finished I was doing dinner, no time to sit down on this job T^T I was cooking for an hour as I had to do my meat breakfasts for the week.

I ate dinner and fell asleep after I ate, jack waking me up as I wouldnt sleep tonight otherwise so he let me sleep whilst he did the pots. So I am shattered T^T just so tired and I have my exercises to do yet 

Not sure how much I will do tonight tho. 

I was happy when my stronger brother weighed himself today on my scales and I have 5% more muscle than him. He was like "just cus you have a higher muscle percentage doesnt mean youre hench it just means how much muscle your body is made of" yes I know >.> 

Tomorrow

I am hopefully collecting Oz early morning as I know he wont want to stay over night tonight and I want him back I miss him. Then at 10:15am mia is coming over and we are going for a dog walk. After that I have nothing planned. I would like to do some more of my canvas. Get the craft room finished but I need to wait for Jack to finish changing plug sockets and light switch. Then move my dressing table in. Think I have found someone who makes desks in the next city, dad said he would collect it for me.