Good DAY Minna-san :D
Last night after I had blogged I decided to make some earrings
as I had been looking online for some new ones but couldnt
find any I liked or that were cheap enough
so I decided to use what I had
and I came up with these two
Not bad huh, of course I like the bunny ones
but pink and black is a good colour combo!
Today when I woke from a bad night I decided to do
some dancing and I managed to get some recorded for Friday!
Altho as of yet it doesnt have an extra but I may get time to add that
I got really sweaty I look hot on the video ><
Then I sorting out my stuff for my lesson I couldnt find bits
so whats usually a 10min job was like 30min i managed to
put together a lesson tho
I arrived at work and the kids really enjoyed the lesson
it was nice but it was roasting in the school
and I have to wear my lab coat at all times!!
Tonight I have yoga and I plan to wear my new yoga trousers
theyre so different and cute maybe I should take a photo
i doubt I'll use them for anything other than yoga/exercise
tomorrow I have a massage and may see helina-chan & Mia-chan :D
Good Day~
I went to Zumba yesterday with Mum for the first time in what feels
like months! I really enjoyed myself and expected to be nakerd what
with not going in such a long while, but I did really well
I managed to remember a lot of the choreography from previous dances
and new dances I soon learned them I was very impressed with myself!
Today I woke up at 8:50am >.> late for me
I did my pet duties the little girls are getting used to playing outside :D
I uploaded a dance~
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Ua_8cZJ6QQ
My outfit
A dance I really enjoyed doing ^^
I love Halloween so dressing as a witch was such fun
but dancing in the cape was difficult I did my best!
At 10:30am I drove myself and mum to a meeting near town
basically to talk about my financial situation and to see if I could
claim for any extra help as I earn next to nothing
last a good hour I found it mentally exhausting but they were very helpful
A few internet goods came in the post
I plan on making an anime-patchwork wall hanging so I have been
collecting pieces over the last month or so
just waiting for one more item then Im gonna start it!
I have been browsing online for earrings for Jozu
but nothing I liked, saves money I guess
Done some dancing, was going to go for a walk but its roasting
tomorrow I have work
Id like to get some dances finished tonight so I
can record tomorrow morning~
Hiya Minna :D
I thought I'd do a more lighter blog today as I feel like the
last few blogs have been about my health and stuff
I hate talking about my health
so today I thought I would show you the pet canvases we have
we have the first canvas I got years ago done for mum as a birthday present
it has out first generation of pets
Left to right Sky (rabbit) Nutty (guinea pig) Buttons (hamster)
Sky and Buttons were mine and Nutty was my brother's
Next is the 2nd canvas with the Second gen of pets
Left to right Kip (rabbit) Lily (guinea pig) Pinky (guinea pig)
Finally we got one done of Hazel bless her
I'm thinking we need a canvas done of the 3rd generation of pets
that would be cute but probably wait for the little girls
to fully grow and fill out before they are immortalized on canvas!
Today I saw the signs going up for the Gedling Gala!!! 4th July
I can not wait, usually its a date with Mia-chan but this year
Helina-chan is able to make it!! shes not been in years! (due to work)
Today I felt like I couldnt be bothered to much
so I read a lot mostly outside keeping Tiffin company
and I did some dancing trying to get dances done for this week!
but theyre difficult! ><
I had work and the kids did my head ungrateful gits
I would no way bring my kids up to turn out like them >.>
Tomorrow Im going out with Mum~
thats all for now
tomorrow I am uploading "sally the witch" dance :D
Good Evening~~~
As some may know I am currently suffering from a few of illnesses
not my choice obviously, but it started in 2010 when I was just 18
As of 2008 I have spent every day, every single day
in pain...
I hurt all over there is never any relief
I do take pain killers - morphine - to help ease the pain
But I never truly free from it
Last night I awoke in the middle of the night
which is normal for me, it's rare I sleep through the night
I awoke to find myself numb absolutely numb
I couldnt feel anything and thought it was maybe me
just being half asleep or dreaming because I never felt like that before
I decided to stay awake and enjoy this feeling
the feeling of being pain free
but I fell asleep, and awoke a few hours later to find I was still numb
now this was werid, as its usually pain that wakes me up in the night
I fell asleep again and when I finally awoke at 8am I was still numb
but I knew the moment I would move I would
fully awake and the pain would come flooding back
I slowly got myself up and I was still numb I couldnt even feel the
temperature difference between my bed and my room
At this point I was really starting to wonder just what has happened to me during the night
Had I been drugged? Had my parents sent a hypnotist over? Had I got better?
I ran my hand under the tap trying to feel temperature and i could just about tell
the difference between hot and cold, i pinched myself but barely felt it
now, i was wondering:
A)had I actually gone "numb"? Had i had a stroke in the night?
B) had my pain gone away and this is what it felt to be "normal"
I got on with my usual routine, holding back the urge to scream to the world
that I was pain-free. I felt like the moment I announced it that the pain would come back
just to spite me, long term pain doesnt just disappear one day not just like that
so I kept quiet and went down stairs, at this point I would be dosing myself up
but instead I just took my other pills leaving my pain killers alone
i didnt need them, why take em?
Half an hour from waking up I was sat in the garden with mum and Tiffin
i told I hadnt taken my pain killers this morning
she asked if I felt too sick to take them
then I filled her in, she wasnt over joyed or anything i think we both knew not to get
hopes up so we didnt
i would say I ended up having an hour of this numb feeling until slowly pain started
to creep back in, until at midday i ended up taking my pain medicine
still it was nice whilst it lasted!
I sat sewing my brooch which I'm pleased to say is finished~
Helina-chan came over, we did a short walk as it began to rain - again
then she stayed over at my house for a couple of hours just chatting and catching up
it was nice to see her. :D
I hope to do some dancing tonight~
and see Tiffin of course
I downloaded 7 new books last night ^^
tomorrow I have got work round the corner from me
so its an easy journey but the kids are bratty :/
Evening all~
IT'S RAINED FOR 24 FREAKIN' HOURS!!!
What's with England? why is it when we have nice
weather we are punished for it?
It means the pets havent been able to play outside at all today
even Tiffin, he's usually out everyday
but I knew he'd get drenched going out in this
I prayed that the little girls coped in last night's rain bless em
but they seem ok :)
Today I read a fair bit of my book, its been such a long , gripping,
interesting, different and steamy book
honestly im wondering how many pages it has
im expecting it to suddenly end you know?
id buy the next one no matter the cost!!!
I sat looking through the 2 new craft books I got lately
as I havent had the time to, I decided to make a brooch for my
new 2015 coat :) I have cut the pieces out I just need to make it
Been sat with the pets today thats ate a lot of my time
but I do not mind its nice being with them
you cant buy that time spent with them
I ate lunch and felt terrible it was only a salad mum made
my stomach hurt and i felt like i just wanted to bring it up
so in the end i decided to escape using sleep :3
when i woke i was cured ^^
I have been dancing for a while now just getting on with it
as i cant go for a walk in this weather and i feel i wanna do some exercise
besides the dancing im learning are difficult so i need the practice
tomorrow I am seeing Helina-chan :D
Good Evening
and it is evening 8:10pm D:
Im not showered or done any dance practice!
what are you playing at Jozu!!?
I have been browsing the internet ><
Last night was my brother's end of year show
it meant a lot to him especially as a printing company
had sponsored him and printed his images out for half the price
we arrived and missed my brother receiving "best in show" certificate
so we looked round and it was busy and loud
but i went in order to support my brother who was buzzing that evening
we decided to come away after we walked round
I hate coming out with my Dad his driving is stressful but he also
gets me on edge im very tense round him
and last night he showed his true colours, i was on the point of wanting to murder him
basically on the way home we decided to look for this place i have a meeting at next week
i wasnt fussed and was quite happy to find it myself
but dad being Mr.bighead decided to show me
that was it then evening ruined
a asian lady was in the middle of the road trying to park her estate car
the was a man in the passenger seat and about 4 kids in the back
she could not drive that was plain to all to see so my dad waited
then another car on the other side of the road was waiting
til this woman finally got out the way (my dad had done a lot racial cursing by this point)
dad drove by pipping his horn in anger and to say "im coming by"
this lady then pipped back.....big mistake....
dad "right im having her"
my mum and me pleading for him not to, but it didnt stop him
my dad - always in the right
all we could do was watch as he stormed over to the vehicle
i felt sick thinking "one of these days he's gonna get beat up"
and when that day comes i dont know weather i'll cry or join in to be honest
so he was arguing with this lady and man, he came back to the car
explaining to us that there was kids in the she had no license and was learning to drive
without any L plates on the car
dad was then ringing the police, for gods sake why!? this was my brother's night
and i just wanted to enjoy it you know?
i knew i should have come in my own car im not going with him again
each time i lose confidence in going in the car with him
the lady then came and opening my dad's car door!
begging for him not to call the police and that " i have license"
the police picked up and dad started speaking and asked the woman to go away
dad over the next few mins was talking to the police
i was in the back of the car wishing to be anywhere but here
he then went and continued to find this place like nothing had happened
i was stressed out my wits
we got home my brother arrived shortly after all happy about his evening
me and mum were so very stressed and peed off at my dad
how he can change and snap into this horrible mean racial man
he snaps he goes from 0 - 100 in a second and its scary
and i have lost count how many times i have been the target of his rage
hes not a nice person, the person i saw last night was his true self
and it disgusts me to my core
i dont ever want to be like him nor do i want to be with someone like him
no not ever, it disgusts me his blood runs through my veins
makes me sick
today i went with mum to a little town and market
i picked up some new shoes for £3 theyre red tartan :3
and i picked up a vest/shorts onesie to take away with me
so dom doesnt have to see my sleeping in my t-shirt & pants =.=
I had to go to the office i was there an hour it took ages
but it was nice to see people and have a laugh with them
even if at some points we were talking about how small my chest is ._.
i dont mind im used to it
painted my nails for last night
Good Day
Im am currently blogging at 5:30pm in a dress with my hair up
I am going to my brother's End of Year Show tonight :)
Its gonna be hot and stuffy so I only have a dress on
no tights or jacket for coolness
Today I went to the doctors at 8:50am mum had time before work
to come with me which was nice
I got the results from my blood test and it was good they have finally
got me on the right dosage of hormone for my thyroid
and it means I dont need to have another blood test til 6-9months!!! :D
I also had a review on my endless list of medication and he advised me to
try and come off a few if I can now as I am doing a lot better than I once was
little did he know that I have spent the last 3 weeks weening myself
of the anti-depressants I've got myself down to a low dosage
hopefully next week I will be off them for good! My body doesnt
seem to have missed them so I am happy :D
Also I got the mole checked out on my face, Ive had it since a todler
and Ive always always hated it, one time I even took scissors to it...
anyway I noticed that lately it has gotten bigger
and he looked on my records and I have been mentioning my mole for
one reason or another - bleeding, dryness and soreness
and he said to remove it would leave a bad scar
so the other option is to biopsy it which would half the size
and mean it gets tested for any nasties
so Im tempted to do it but worries about it, such a wuss I am!
I got home and spoke to Lynn on the phone followed by my brother
then I did some dancing and got Sally the Witch recorded!
It was such fun especially as I dressed up for it X3
then in the afternoon i went into town to drop something
off of my brother's he had forgotten, mum drove I was just keeping her company
we got home and went for a walk together which was nice
then I read my book at home, very steamy chapter 0.0
the guineas are doing well they have seen grass today!!!
they ran around loads, they were really happy ^^
tomorrow I am going to a lil town with a market with mum
then I have to go into the office~
