Hello all~
Last night I got a few dances finished
I have 3 now I would like to record 0.0
but lately I havent had the house to myself to do any recording T^T
today for instance I usually upload a dance on a Tuesday
but I havent been able to record therefore there is no dance ;(
sorry guys
I took mum grocery shopping this morning
shes still not feeling 100% which im really surprised about actually
i then have been working on my quilt, well i sat outside
and peeled my stick which didnt take as long as i thought
but i had to really clean my nails afterwards!
Later Mia had finished work at 4:00pm so she came over to pick me
up as she wanted me to go with her to the sewing shop to pick
up bits to alter her dress with, she wants yet another dress doing
this one is more complex tho! but i dont mind just means i gotta put my
quilt on the back burner a for a while
and yet when we came home i layed out all the design for her
and measured her, she changed the design again!!
so now we need to go back to the store to pick up more pieces =.=
she wants a watermelon style dress now
i can get started with a bit of it i guess
mia talked about the gala and such and said how much her
sister's boyfriend liked me ^^ he said nice things about me and so did
her sister, i mean i know her sister well and ive met her boyfriend
a handful of times but its nice to feel accepted :D
I agreed to do some extra work on friday
gonna have a busy day friday
i will have training in the morning then im doing extra work in the afternoon
or something like that :/
tomorrow is my last day at the school
teaching my worst ever lessson
god i hate it, so totally pointless
its just a box of toys - crap ones at that
and they just play with them "figuring" out how they work
no science or learning involved if you ask me tho
but i guess theyre only little so they will hopefully like it
tonight i plan to dance and i may do some drawing or something~
my current nails i painted sunday night
Good Evening
Today I took a life
I felt so guilty for doing it!
I chopped down a baby tree ><
I needed wood for my quilt to be hung up by
so me and mum went hunting and i was expecting to chop a branch
off a tree not to cut down an actual tree! T^T but I got what I needed
and it shall live on in my bedroom~
Mum did guilt me...im going to attempt to peal the bark off it tomorrow
anyway today I went out with mum to get my medication
we came back had lunch and went up to the woods armed with a saw
she dropped me off at Mia's and i went and got her as she wanted
to do some drawing at my house and thats what we have done all
afternoon; sit at the kitchen table chatting and drawing
i was trying to finish a picture i was doing ages ago of Popuri, its almost done
Mia was experimenting with ideas, her work is always amazing
she asked me to make her work digital so i took a photo to work from
amazing isnt it!! i love it so much!
so i might do a digital drawing tomorrow of it for her
she wants a dress altering too at some point XD
what are friends for i guess!
I cooked the dinner for my family, spag bol i make a good one ;)
everyone enjoyed it and theres leftovers for me and mum tomorrow :D
I have also eaten 2 pieces of cake today X3
I weighed myself today and found i had lost weight~
I need to do some dancing today for tomorrow!!!
Oha all~
Today I have managed to stitch all the anime patches
on my quilt :D But it needs to be boarded with pokemon fabric
and loops need to be stitched at the top
i have been looking for a whole hour online for some sort
of pole to hang my quilt off, i dont want just a standard curtain
pole or a piece of dowel >.>
originally my plan was to go up to the woods and find a piece of
branch for my quilt but my mum and brother dont seem to think
its a good idea, but because i havent had a lot of luck online
tomorrow morning im walking up to those woods and looking
for a stick damn it!!! >< cant hurt to look right?
I cant think what else ive actually done today
i have relaxed a lot actually
i felt pretty tired from yesterday >.>
I need to do some form of exercise yet
Ive had a lot of stomach upset today and so has tiffin :(
what have we both eaten i wonder :/
I know what I have eaten today; chocolates, white chocolate icing, cake mix, and cake
mum baked a cake and i love the left overs and of course the cake it's self X3
but my head is telling me to go run a marathon to go burn the calories off
my head can get stuffed altho it does drive me insane
as its not gonna shut off til i fall asleep now, i just know it
tomorrow im going for a walk up to the woods
and doing more of my quilt
i havent got any other plans
actually my week is pretty quiet
mate ashita~
Hiya All~
My god last night, what a storm we had!!!
It was all over England a kick ass storm
all I could think about were my pets
praying none of them would have a heart attack
So i got up at 8am and went straight to check I had them all still
and I do thank god
I cleaned my room today and i did my mum's too :)
I also cleaned the pets out~
I had to get ready to go out
today's outfit
Now that im all set its time to go!
I went to the Gedling Gala at 1pm with Mia, Helina, Clinton
It was warm today so I got lil sore on my arms and shoulders ><
me and the girls~
we cant wait for manchester!!! 24th were off together :D
we did some archery which was fun, I have done archery a few
times in my life, I hit the bullseye once :)
i took a random photo of some guy's owl
he had a lot of mess on his back 0.0 did he know? XD
I brought a lil cake to eat whilst Mia had 4 donuts and milkshake
clinton had the same as mia and helina had a 1/4pound burger
I cant bring myself to eat that food as much as I would I just
know the repercussions of me eating that, my head would love me!
We did the lucky dip, its £1 and you pick a bag with a random gift inside
I got a cute scarf!! I was so lucky!
Mia got a candle and helina got cheap perfume
I brought 2 plants for my mum as she has been too poorly to go out
to the garden center so i brought her those to keep her quiet
she appreciated them :)
Off a craft stall I brought this
she said it was a cat but I think it looks more like a rabbit to me!
ether way its a door stop for £3!!!! bargin, Ive needed one
since Tiffin has chewed the one I made >.>
I brought a necklace from the same stall I brought my bunny one
off last year, it was the only gray one there, the rest were white
we watched the dances and performers for a bit
I love watching dances and how I long to be up there
me and mia talked about joining a dance group like the one we saw today
at 4pm I came home as I needed my medication and i was tired and sweaty
so i came home for a refreshing shower :3
Now im gonna have some dinner and see where the evening takes me~
Konbanwa~
Another warm day but not as bad as wednesday
for the past 2 evenings it has cooled down
which is much a relief, the pets can play out~
Today I have been sewing my quilt~
Its coming along well
My mum is still poorly, so I have been cooking the dinners
i have enjoyed making the dinner and feeling useful
I had the office to go to
I stayed there a while to talk with everyone and see who
was attending training next week and camps~
It was fun to see everyone Dan was still annoying
and Seth's little thing he shows me this week was a math sum
i had to work out - but my brain was fried so david did it - the answer
will always be 4 1/2 and he put the answer on the table in the form
of 4 pennies and half a penny
they laughed as i found a sawed penny more fascinating
than the fact that Seth knew my answer would 4 1/2 XD
He brought his huge bubble kit
my god they were huge and wobbled like lily's tummy
i was dying to pop them and he let me so i was doing
some serious karate style kicks on them babies XD
so i had a fun time really, its always simple, but i always try
and make the room shine with my presence~
I have been reading outside a lot today
with my beloved Kindle
I really enjoy just sitting and reading in the garden with tiffin
sniffing my feet and wanting attention
I was doing Yoga in the garden last night and he was going
underneath me and leaning up at me
i can see why i dont bring him to class XD
I uploaded a dance which seems to have gone down
very well with people, im glad since it took a lot of time
to learn and a lot of effort to make~
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UznPAebKzWM
Tomorrow it is the Gedling Gala
Our village's little festival which has been going since 1977
i believe which was the Queen's coronation
I like to go with friends, kills a couple of hours in the afternoon
so im meeting with helina and mia and their boys at 1:00pm
should be fun, but what should I wear!?
mate ne
Good Day
Thank god today is cooler~
Apparently yesterday's heat wave caused a lot of people's small pets
to die D: shocking! I am so very grateful I still have all mine
they were so hot yesterday tho
I let Tiffin play out til 9:30pm simply because he was unable
to play out all day
Today I had reflex at 9:30am
So I headed off to Karen's~
She said her pond had turned into a jacuzzi with the heat
and so lost more 15 fish!! They hadnt realized it had heated the water up
so they tried to save as many as they could! awful
I was a lil annoyed as my feet gave me away...she looked at the and without
even touching she said "have you been feeling down lately?"
damn my feet!! I have no idea how she can tell that just by looking
at my feet but then she has been doing reflexology for about 10 years
so we talked and I talked about things I never speak of
the thought in my head
We came to the conclusion that I am having Anorexic thoughts...
Her daughter has suffered with Anorexia for 5+ years
so Karen knows just a thing or too about the condition
I think she was quite shocked to hear just what goes off in this head of mine
im at war with myself all day long
I told her I had attempted to come off anti-depressiants and it turns out I need em
there for I have depression
why cant I just have a normal mental state
I tried to talk to mum about it she called me mad =.=
I fight my head everyday i just fear the day im too weak to fight
the thoughts and go along with them
I will not get poorly again I will not go down that route
I must fight!!! I just want my head on my side damn it >.>
anyway came home and took mum to the doctors
as she still isnt feeling well, they think she has a water infection
so i have been tending to her needs today :)
I have been sewing my quilt anime blanket and its looking
really good I cant wait to see it on my wall!
We skipped yoga last night, I was feeling 100%
and mum was poorly, the weather was roasting
so we gave it a miss, we never miss yoga class tho ><
Tomorrow I have got to go to the office, woopie
a chore I hate doing I have to say
I shouldnt complain really
Other people have to travel further than me to get there
Id like to do some dancing but room is very hot =.=
Atsui nee~
Jeez it's hot today!!
35c!!! 35 degrees!! Insane
I can not remember the last time it was this hot here
and it just leaped up from the low 20's to 30's! shocking!
My pets looked dead...seriously collapsed
so we have had a fan on them today and changing their water
giving them cold foods from the fridge (carrot, apple)
Poor things
They play outside first thing in the morning and late evening
doing all we can for them
Today I woke up to found I slept on the outside of my bed sheets XD
I must have looked a right state haha
I had to get up and motivated tho as pets needed to go out ASAP
and I needed to be out the house for 8:15am
normally at 8:15am im having breakfast!
Me and mum arrived in the city
for my "interview assessment" basically i applied for a benefit
a benefit that helps those who are sick/disabled but are trying to work
I am worse of financially working than was on sick benefit a year ago
and it doesnt seem fair somehow as im doing my best
but currently if i was to work longer hours, slowly id make myself poorly again
and i will not see that happen
money isnt everything but its worth a shot, i have nothing to lose
So we went in this building that seemed to have
air conditioning, apart from the room we had the 1 hour assessment in....
god i was dripping and i couldnt understand a word the woman was saying
she had such a strong accent!
we left after we had melted in our seats to go home
I stitched 3 more panels onto my quilt its gonna look amazing when its done
I had work which was stupidly hot that school cant be legal
i saw the kids come through i said
"have you poured water on you head?"
kid "no"
"oh youve just had P.E.?"
"no"
jesus they looked that hot like they had ran a marathon in the heat
i felt so sorry for them that they had been stuck in here 6 hours
trying to concentrate in this heat and i had to add an extra to their day
but they enjoyed it and got a lot out of it
I had a well earned shower as I was dripping
i had even, for the first time ever, not worn my lab coat during class
its too hot just too hot
tonight i would like to sleep
We are not going yoga as mum is still poorly and
im feeling off myself and what with this heat
i feel like id only pass out
so im unfortunately giving it a miss!
oh here's my lovely new Whitby lights
