Good Evening~~
I couldn't get off to sleep last night
my brother has his tv on loud listening to the final of 'im a celebrity get me out of here'
my parents also had it on so it was double blasting XD
Even after everyone came to bed i still couldnt sleep
i had nightmares
i tossed and turned
got about 3-4 hours sleep
but still got up at 7am for school!!!
We did maths which i found difficult
followed by boring english
Nienke and Anouk were both off poorly
i txted Nienke but she didn't reply...slightly worried as they have never both been off together
and to not reply seems a lil off
but im sure its all fine
Nienke was suppose to teach tho today :/
I was tasked with making a card for her for the kids to sign
During lunch I was putting up a display for year 3
the teacher was pleased
the head teacher came round
"who has done the lettering for this?"
"me"
she gave me a smile and pat on the back =^.^=
after lunch i did odd jobs then it was art where i drew loads of random
christmas things for the kids
home time i came
I went to leave and saw the head teacher i told her i was leaving at christmas
she was saddened but understood that i needed to earn money
so we talked briefly before a parent needed to talk to her
i know the school will miss my presence i will also miss the school
i came
home had a brew
checked my laptop
went did 5 mins of skipping
shower and now im gonna dance i think
tomorrow i have post office to do~
im thinking of collecting my college folder also actually
i have cards and something for my hair dresser to make so i have stuff to do
my nails from last night
Konbanwa~
I woke up at 3am to here the washing machine going mental
i could imagine finding it half way across the kitchen floor XD
Dad was snoring like a warthog so that woke me
and at 7am helina's dog decided to have a nice long barking session
so i felt like i had a very interrupted sleep last night
I got up at 9am
The house was freezing! I checked the radiators - they were of...
WHAT THE HELL!?
mum says "oh i was a bit warm this morning"
she says with fleece pajamas and and extra fleece jacket >.>
take a flippin' layer off instead of making me freeze my arse off!!!
sheesh
So this morning mum helped me by packaging up my ebay stuff
im probably gonna make about £2 from all this trouble XD
all well~
Then I did some drawing
mum and dad were popping to the drug store before lunch
and i went with them
i needed odds and sods like body wash, deodorant, shampoo
all to keep me smelling nice~
i also picked up some hair removal cream,ive never had a go with it before so im gonna try it as razors are a little harsh on my skin during winter weather. so its worth a shot
came back had lunch - i was frozen despite eating porridge
i went into my bed to regain my circulation - i put on my winter fluffy socks, been waiting for december to whip them out ^^
I got up and did some dancing
then went into the garden with my skipping rope
i havent skipped in years!!!
i could still do it haha
but my god it was soooooooo hard!
I managed 5 mins or so but i was panting hard
so came in did some stretches and dances
hopefully try and burn some calories ><
then I decided i wanted to make Nienke and Anouk a goodbye card each
i did them british themed XD
i will photograph them sometime
i photographed my nails this week which have chipped pretty bad actually
tomorrow i have school
gonna wear another of my new charity shop shirts~
Good Evening~~
I survived last night
I was home safe at 11pm~
First today
I got up at 9:30am
I sat with my girls and told mum about my evening
I got dressed and went on my bike
then I went online
all the stuff on ebay sold!!!
I watched Lovelive Sunshine whilst I finished off the toast plushies
theyre done and photographed now
Then I went to bed
got up went for a walk with helina
she's lent me some wii dance games as im thinking of having ago
it might burn of some calories indoors
he wii isnt plugged in like mine so she wont need em back anytime soon
then I came home and had a shower and been dancing
got a few dances i wish to learn ><
Ok last night
I got all ready to go and left at 6:50pm to catch a 15min late bus >.>
When I got on the bus - one i havent taken in years
i remembered everything and how stressed i was going to college cus this was the bus i took to college my pre-driving days
no wonder i had a breakdown, i was constantly stressed! how i ever had friends i do not know
Anyway I arrived in the city which was full of late night shoppers and the german market was in full swing it was pretty all lit up
i walked down to the shop Nienke said she'd meet me at
i saw her and we walked to her apartment - i would have never found it
it was right next to the building i took my driving theory in 0.0
She took me straight to her's and Anouk's room
they were better than I had imagined and they had sooooo much stuff
seriously i have no idea how theyre gonna get it all home!
I met a few others who came to see me
then we went downstairs to the basement which was their living room + kitchen + lockers
bit of a weird set up
we set the 20 chairs in a circle and placed tables in the center
everyone started coming in and placing presents down
there was a good pile in the end
i was introduced to people as they came in but no way could i remember everyone
the dutch seemed to be the nicest people out the bunch tho
one dutch made a whole pan of hot chocolate whilst we pigged out on dutch biscuits
I remembered Neinke telling me theyve brought Cadburys's hot chocolate
which is not a bad hot chocolate so i was looking forward to it
when they were handed out i could really smell it
and it smelled quite strange
i took a sip and i got almond taste with something else
no way was this just cadburys hot chocolate
but i took several sips just to be polite
i noticed Nienke wasnt drinking hers
"how come you havent tried it Nienke?"
"it's got alcohol in it"
ahhhhh thats why it didnt taste nice. both me and Nienke dont do parties or drink
so she didnt drink hers and i put mine on the side
it wasnt the alcohol it was the taste. no way could i drink all that
found out that the dutch girl had poured a whole bottle of liqueur in the hot choc
she said "i love them together"
what she should have done was made hot choc and asked if anyone wanted liqueur in theirs.
so those few sips i had was the only drink i had all night
we started playing the present game which was strange but i got the hang of it
after round 1 you opened what gifts you managed to keep
i cant remember what i had i think it was 3 things - i did quite well
then the second round came
now you could see what the presents were things were funny
i rolled the dice and got 5 which was pick two people to swap presents
this guy who had nutella and really wanted it, i made him swap it for a my little pony figure XD
he was annoyed and people laughed
then the timer went off
what you had was what you kept
i ended up with a packet of 60 incense sticks sandlewood fragrance which i was happy with as myself and mum uses incense sticks. Lucky too as no one else there could use them due to having a smoke alarm in EVERY room.
At this point I left to catch the bus
The city was still busy even tho it was late
I txted mum to say i was on my way home
got in at 11pm
got ready for bed quick
did 5min of yoga to wind down then read in bed for a bit
and finally drifted off with help from sleeping tablets and relaxing oils
so yeah it was good experience
just going to the city center at that time of night was an accomplishment
tomorrow i plan to make some cards~
Good Evening~~
I woke up feeling crippled this morning
i couldnt work out why i felt so bad
then it came to me
yoga
jeez karen works us >.>
I got up and did the rest of sewing the beads on the toasts
whilst watching lovelive sunshine - which isnt that good but im seeing it to the end
then me and mum went for a 40 min walk round a local park which was nice
cold tho i have to say ><
I came back and had lunch
then I went to bed for a couple of hours to gather strength for my evening
when I got up i went online for a bit
i had a phonecall from that school i didnt like saying i didnt get the job
i was so relieved! cus i hadnt got my speech ready on how to turn em down
i have been invited for another interview at another school
but upon checking out their school website i dont think its for me
plus my parents dont want me in that particular dodgey area XD
I have sold 2 more things out the 6 i put on ebay :D
everything is finishing tomorrow im hoping it all goes
but 4 outta 6 is still good :3
Im just trying to get my picture of Joe done but I have been neglecting my drawing this week
ive had a shower and prepared everything for tonight
i just need to do my hair and make up and eat dinner then im off!
i am a lil uneasy about taking the bus alone to the city that time of night
but im sure i'll be fine
im not staying late anyway im sure they wont mind
im taking my ipod which is good company on bus rides
heres my wall art for the school~
these 2 are in year 6 classroom
and this one outside year 3
it isnt complete as the teacher doesnt know what work to put up yet
Otskaresama Deshita
I didnt wanna get up for school this morning
but I did and wore my new shirt from charity shop
tiffin made a real mess of my room in the morning >.>
I decided to weigh myself as mum has been dieting hard i wanted to know
what my situation was. Cus I weigh more than this time last year
I weighed myself and was not impressed
so I have decided to diet
and yes i get the "you dont need to diet" rubbish but if your not happy in your own skin you want to change and feel comfortable
besides i dont need to lose much, im just getting on top of it before it gets worse
i know where i have put the weight on
it certainly never goes on my boobs thats for sure XD
So I went to school in the cold
having weight on my mind constantly
saw Neinke and Anouk and we talked about tomorrow's party
I was year 3
we had a fire drill which annoyed me as it was freezing and i didnt have a jacket!!!
so i was little niffed at that
did the normal maths and english
the the teacher tasked me doing a display for their snowman work
so i was messing with glitter and all sorts
took me ages
i have everything ready to up on the wall but ran out of time for it to go on the wall ><
I had art with year 6 then in the afternoon
which was ok but i just ended up being everyones personal drawer if you ask me
all i kept hearing literally every 10 seconds
"Jo! can you help me?" "Jo! can you draw me ...."
yeah it grated on me after a lil while as i dont mind drawing for others
its when i keep drawing for others who dont TRY to draw that gets me
but the lesson soon went
1st of stinking december today
where has the year gone
everything is gonna be more christmas intense i can feel it >.>
yeah im grouchy i know
i feel my depression is creeping in
and what with my weight i aint happy
so im gonna try hard now until the new year to lose the weight
so starting 2017 i will be me again
thats the aim!!
tomorrow it's neinke's and anouks party
im a lil nervous about going to the city center that time of night via the bus
its out of my comfort zone but you have to go out your comfort zone now and again
it wouldnt be so bad if i had company but i dont -_____-
anyway thats tomorrow
here is this week's nails - one i actually broke today T^T
Evening
I slept really quite well last night
towards waking up i dreamed that i was with other adults
we were in this big play room playing different roles
i was playing the role of a dog and i really enjoyed myself XD
This morning I prepared myself for my interview at the school
i was nervous and excited
i dressed simply
I arrived on time and got there ok
the school was big....
Two ladies saw to me who were really nice
they jumped straight to the observation/group work id have to do
i had no idea what i was in for
they grabbed 4 year2 children
all foreign....
now im not by any means racist but i do find it difficult to work with children who dont have english as a first language
so i couldnt understand what they were saying really and also i could not pronounce their names
1 child also had severe learning difficulties
i was not warned or told about any of this
the kids got on with it but the kid with the difficulty was just making a mess
what the point of jumping me in at the deep end like that i have no idea
i couldnt wait for the lesson to be up
then the interview
that went fine, the woman were nice and it went quick i feel i answered
everything well enough. its all practice at the end of the day
they said they had been keen to meet me as i had been the best candidate so far
but that could be a load of bull for all i know!
I left the school
drove home in a bit of daze really
got home and i was drained
completely drained
mum was home 5 mins later
i made us both a brew mine had double sugar -___-
I told her how it went and stuff
and i got upset big style
i had a bit of a break down about it all
like the lid to the jar of my insecurities was opened and i couldnt screw the lid back on
i cried about not wanting to be at that school
mum said that was fine and theres no rush in getting a job
i cried about thinking it will be impossible for me to find a nice quiet small school, ive chosen the wrong career i did my qualification and training for nothing, agency work will be hard if i get given schools like that one, what will i be left with after christmas when i leave my primary school? just loads of stuff piled out
i was done
i went to bed to cry it off and rest
when i got up dad wanting me up at his work to test drive a Polo car he has
its a whole 3 years newer than mine
i was so not in the mood
i test drove it and didnt like it he said that was fine
i love my car its gonna be pretty hard to beat it
but dad hates my car XD
i went over to taras for an hour had a catch up with her
came home and applied to some schools i visited whilst i was with mad science
to see if they had an openings, well its worth a shot, you dont know unless you ask!
tomorrow i am going school
i feel a lil deflated about everything right now
but i hope i will feel good about life tomorrow
tomorrow is a new day
Konbanwa
I slept quite well last night
and this morning I certainly must have slept deeply as I woke up
at 8:45am and I didn't hear anyone getting ready
My morning consisted of getting stuff ready for my interview and lesson tomorrow
I have decided to do some Aboriginal Art
I learned this 'lesson' back in 2007 when I did some work experience at an art center
so I thought it would be a nice one to do as I only have 15mins to do it in
I printed off an Aboriginal tribe to show they live in Australia and all that
Then Examples of Aboriginal Art
Then the one I did
I did two actually the one above is done with finger tips
this one is done with the end of the paint brush,
when i first learning this we used ear buds
but i dont want to faff with that
so i tested finger tips and that works fine
im gonna be with 5x 7 year olds, so its gotta be simple and quick
I have some shapes to draw round for the center of the hand
i chose a hand as its simple to draw round your own hand
the shape in the middle is my idea tho
praying tomorrow will go ok, i am excited to teach but im bricking it about the interview and stuff. I went on the school's website today and it looks like quite a multi-cultural school. I hope i dont have any children with tricky names >< I hate when i get names wrong
mum was giving me tips but it was all stuff i know XD
I packed my bag, got my outfit ready, and my item of choice which is my pokemon necklace - which i will be wearing!
Then I applied for another school, 2 agencies rang me today. 1 saying they need one more reference then the other said i can actually work for them!
I got a dance done this morning
i wasn't going to as i was gonna go college to pick up my folder
so i got in my car and it didnt start ><
im not shocked. It was very cold this morning like below freezing and i havent used it in a while.
so i told my teacher i'll collect it another time
dad came home and fitted me a new battery :D
he hates my car and wants me to have another >.>
in fact tomorrow he's on about me test driving a car 0.0
i'll be sad to get rid of my car tho ><
I had Karen's today which was nice
and good to have a catch up
then i came home and showered
did some hand sewing
and thats my day really
i hope tomorrow goes ok i really do
i hate interviews i try to appear confident
anyway im not gonna think and worry over it too much
thats at 10:15am tomorrow!
