My Tiffin
my sweet sweet prince
life has been like some awful nightmare
i have been stressed
emotionally and physically drained
I just want my prince back to normal...
Yesterday
my god yesterday
I was meeting Ed, it was the only day we could both do and he was taking the train to my city
I had stress, as Tiffin wasn't good. We had taken him to the vets the day before and they
gave us some food to syringe into his mouth, and he'd had an injection to stimulate his stomach and an anit-biotic to cure his cough/sneezing.
Me and mum tried getting the food down him, he spat a lot of it out his mouth
we offered up every kind of food to him; treats, dried fruit, fresh veg, plants from the garden
he wasn't happy and was in discomfort
so yesterday i woke up after waking up many times in the night thinking about tiffin
when i got up i went straight to him and brought him into my bedroom whilst i got ready to meet ed
we had an appt to see the vets that morning before i went to go see ed.
So im there trying to get ready, feed tiffin, spend time with tiffin. i was stressed as tiffin was in pain.
he had eaten a little bit but he wasnt right.
i could have done without seeing ed. it felt wrong to even enjoy myself when tiffin was like this but its the way everything just happened.
i also had agencies ringing me left right and centre -____-
me and mum took him vets
the vet wasnt happy with his condition (we were seeing the head vet)
and said that tiffin would benefit from staying in the vets. to hospitalize my rabbit basically.
I couldn't believe it. i had NEVER had to hospitalize a pet before.
Im not good with others caring for my pets.
But I knew this was for his health and needed to be done
the vet needed concent for the treatment he wanted to give tiffin;
x-ray
strong pain killers
fluids under the skin
stomach stimulator
He managed to rack up the BIGGEST vet bill we've ever had to pay
heck none of my pets have even had an x-ray before!
Mum asked me "do you want him to go through this?"
I didnt hesitate, it had to be done. He was only 2 and I couldnt give up so easily.
so we hospitalized him. I was in a bit of a state at this point. I tried not to cry with tiffin as it would stress him out as well.
I left him, left mum and went to meet ed
mum said there was nothing i could do anyway and it would be a good distraction to see ed
i spend time with ed in the city center
we left the city around 2:30ish
I had been updated by mum, tiffin had eaten some food. The x-ray was good - there was no mass built up and he had passed poos so he was 'functioning' but he just wouldnt eat and was in pain.
We could pick him up at 6:30pm
Id come home with ed. We sat and talked and then had a massive play fight. God I was exhausted.
he could catch a train home at 6:23pm so at 5pm we left to go for some pub grub
then my plan was from there to take him to the platform and then go get tiffs
did it work out that way? did it hell
we were bloody ages in the pub!
we were there 1 and half hours!?
which would make sense if it was busy and were waiting for a table and food
but that was not the case. the pub was dead. and after each course they near enough brought out the next one, it didnt let my food go down at all
ed looked at the time "we'll ive missed my train, next one is at 7:30pm"
mum rang up saying where the hell am i
i had no idea time had gone that fast!! it was like being in another dimension!!
in the end me and ed went down to the vets and met mum there
picked him up on the way back i dropped ed off the station his train was late
and after waiting 20 mins in -2c i was frozen
got home showered to warm myself up then i got tiffs in
he was in a ball and wouldnt let me fuss him
hates me ><
he looked tired
he had dried blood down his face
he'd had a needle in his ear to administer his pain relief and tiffin had decided that he was gonna discharge himself and ripped it out his ear and it had bled and his poor ear looks sore.
i wanted to clean him up but he'd had enough of people faffing with him
so i tried him with food which he didnt want, i syringe fed him a little amount.
this morning he had an appt at 9:15am
so i tried to syringe feed him at 7:15am as it appeared he had eaten NOTHING through the night but on the plus side he had done some poos. not perfect but still it showed he was working and no blockages.I personally wanted him to stay at the vets again today. I felt they could do more for him than i could at home, i was afraid of undoing all their hard work yesterday if i took him home
luckily the vet advised tiffin to be hospitalized once again. so we left him there. i wasnt upset like yesterday cus i felt he was in safe hands.
i managed to pass the day
a lot less stressful.
we got a phone call, tiffin had perked up and could be collected an hour earlier today
so we were there eagerly waiting at 5:15pm
a different vet saw to us but we know her well as we've seen her for many years and shes lovely
she told us tiffin had eaten some kale and hay. hes been given fluids and pain relief. he'd been sitting on her knee as well whilst she tried to clean up yesterday's blood off his face.
she felt confident about his health. she told us to give him anything he wanted which we were doing. he has got to return in the morning
they said he could be the same or he could turn a corner and be eating totally fine.
these things can take a few days and varies rabbit to rabbit.
since, i have managed to get 6 pieces of dried fruit down, bit of grass, bit of hay in him which isnt much but better than this morning. i hope he eats more and produces poos.
i was so relieved when the x-ray was clear. kip had to be put down due to a mass in his stomach that had got so big it was in-operable. i couldnt bare to see tiffin suffer the same fate but it looks like we caught it earlier this time
he has managed to maintain his weight somehow
the vet has weighed him every day in front of me and each time its surprised me
we dont know what has caused this just rabbits have such sensitive stomachs.
hopefully it never happens again
i just want him right
currently i have just mopped the blood off his face and ear so hes clean now
he is in a ball on my carpet. doesnt really want my attention but takes mum's affection >.>
like hes punishing me for taking him vets
I am hoping like mad he is gonna be better in the morning cus i cant bare to see him like this for another day.
my dad has very kindly paid tiffin's large vet bill >< so i once again am indebted to my parents.
dont know what i would do with out them. mum has been there every step of the way and helping me feed tiffin and she drives me to the vets whilst i look after tiffs in the car.
i just sat this morning crying on my bedroom floor whilst looking at him in pain
and i just couldnt believe it was happening.
hes only 2 years old and was in such pain. why do i always get the rabbits who suffer?
i couldnt believe it had happened to tiffin. my boy. my prince
it felt like a nightmare and i would wake up any moment and it all be fine.
we shall see what tomorrow brings
this morning tiffin looked like he'd given up
i hope we dont have a repeat of that
i want you better prince
i love you so much i cant be without you!
Good Evening~
My evening has had my heart pumping with excitement and nerves!
My brother this evening was on BBC NEWS!!!
He had a full on interview that was recorded and his photography shown on TV!
So we all watched with suspense his part on the news!
I can not believe a member of our family made the news~
I am so proud ^^
Basically on xmas day he went into the city centre and took photos of the emptyness it held
he then sent his edited photos to BBC Midlands yesterday and they got back to him and wanted to interview him! So exciting and nerve racking!
He said he only slept for 3 hour bless him last night
I offered to go with him but he didnt want me there ><
But it went well and I am so pleased ^^
I'll never achieve greatness like that ><
Today I went into the city centre with mum once again
I took my book back to water stones for a refund
I got some socks from primark that forgot to pick up the other day
look how many I got! £2 for 3 pairs that is incredibly cheap!! And they are cute ^^
I finally finally finally found some leg warmers
turned out primark sold them! who'da thought
so I got a pair of grey ones for £4 as i thought grey goes with more
I got a snood from Accessorize as they had a sale on
this was reduced from £17 to £3!! £3 for a snood!! So cheap! and very soft ^^
I hate rough scarfs >.>
Finally I got a couple of notebooks
small one for my bag to practice japanese when I can
larger one for my bedroom practicing japanese~
We came home for lunch
Tiffin still isnt well and yesterday he didnt eat much which has continued today
so i took him to the vets today got a last minute appointment luckily!
He had 2 jabs to get his stomach stimulated for food and 1 jab of anti-biotic for his cough
the vet said he needs to come back tomorrow
and i have to syringe feed him this veil food every 2 hours
bless him
he was sooooo good! And we took a yoga mat for him to be looked at on the floor and so he could grip the floor, i dont let him be examined on the table anymore every since he flung himself at the wall that time and cut his lip open. so that mat came in handy
he had his back feet on it whilst he laid his body on my folded legs
when the vet left the room tiffin was hopping round like he owned the place XD
i am taking tomorrow at 9:15am
suppose to be meeting ed at 10am and mum has work at 9am
so we have had to make the time for him as he is important everything else can wait!
I hope he recovers, im pretty confident he will :) just feel sorry for him
he HATES me at the moment. he doesnt even like me stroking him T^T
I went to karen's at 3pm, mum dropped me off on the way back from the vets
it was nice to see her for the first time this year ^^
i was there like almost 2 hours! and i had to walk home as i didnt have my car
so i had to walk home in the cold and dark ><
i asked her if i could ask her angel cards for a reading so she had them prepared for me ^^
I picked out 3
You can do it!
Make it happen
Follow your heart
They were basically saying im on the right path, this is the year that if i want anything to happen i can make it happen, i know what i want in life i have to visualize it and make it happen.
it was positive anyway ^^ karen was well impressed with my reading actually
seems like 2017 could be a good year for me
your suppose to think of a topic/question whilst shuffling and picking your cards
i thought about "is this the year I start dating, will i find a career i like, will it be a productive year?"
And that was my day really
i had a missed call from an agency
they left a message saying they had work for me!
im praying that is still the damn case!
I will phone tomorrow
tomorrow i am going to the city centre once again -____-
but im meeting ed so it will be good hopefully :)
Ive had to cancel my first yoga class of the year otherwise id have to leave ed early and it seemed rude as hes come all this way and stuff
so i think we'll have lunch together, shop, and catch up :)
should be good ~
just hope its not too bloody cold ><
Good Evening~
Last night I opened up my note book I had used a good year or so
ago to learn my Japanese I could not believe how much I had learned!!
A good 1/3 of it I have forgotten sadly especially the kanji I learned
So I got out a new notebook and started up, I didnt feel the need to start right at the beginning
as I can still remember a fair bit. But I wanted to re-cap some basics such as
numbers, months, days of the week. and the Kanji that went with them.
I felt so out of practice tho!!
I will do some later tonight :3
Agencies rang wanting to know if I was free this week >.>
I can't keep my days free til the last second in case they want me
I have already made plans so told em to call me next week
i felt a bit bad as the first one that rang me up i about bit his head off XD woops
bet he hates me now and wont give me any work!
Tiffin today bless him has been really quite
he didnt come out when the girls went outside
he didnt eat his morning carrot
so at 3pm I brought him in and his bottom was a mess
he's got upset stomach big time
so I had to bathe his bottom cus i couldnt leave him like that
he hated me for it, so much in fact he refused to sit in my bedroom!!! he never does that!
instead he chose to sit in a ball outside my door way -______-
i could tell he had tummy ache tho by the way he holds himself
so I gave him a syringe of water so he didnt dehydrate
he coughed only a little bit yesterday but today his coughing has been bad
all in all i just wish he was better cus hes not right today :(
usually upset tummy passes after a day, normally the next day theyre fine
im hoping this is the case!
This morning me and mum went ASDA to look round sales
I got a red hoodie which has a black spotted shirt underneath :3 its cool and only £10
I could wear it for work if i wanted to~
mum got a shirt and t-shirt
helina asked me what i want for my brithday again
but i dont know ><
ed rang me up to see when we're meeting up in town for the day
that is thursday~
Tomorrow not sure what im doing yet but I have karen at 4pm
I need to think of my question to ask her angel cards ><
I know i want it something along the lines of 'will this be the year i start dating?'
that kinda 'topic' but not sure how to word it yet ><
Here's a figure I won before xmas it arrived the other day
It is Rosette from Chrono Crusade - an anime I watched when I was like 14/15 years old X3
Konbanwa~~
I didn't sleep well, kept waking up
then i was having a great dream about destruction on a huge scale
so much fun it was like a video game but my consciousness knew i had
to wake up this morning cus mum was going out early and leaving pinks
in the hall for me
but i woke up before she left ^^
wanted to stay in the dream tho ><
I felt quite recharged today
as yesterday i didnt do anything it has given me some energy today
unexpectedly i have to say 0.0
so i took myself for a 45min walk once mum came back home at 10:30am
my ipod ear phones i have had for many years they were only £5 and have done
amazingly well but I have noticed recently that they are getting tired and worn
so i said to mum "next time i see em im getting a new pair!"
mine are currently all red and look like strawberry lace sweets XD
After lunch my mum went out with dad
dad was home as it's bank holiday >.>
I was able to do some sewing without mum there as I wanted to make her
something for her birthday
made pinks a new blanket to sit on, its nothing special but better than what she has now
and im sure mum will appreciate it :)
so thats done
i wrote down all the bits and pieces i have for her but just need a couple more items~
I danced for a bit
i really want to learn older morning musume songs~
mum and dad came home and mum had brought me some new ear phones!
they are the same brand as mine but when i tried them i realized the shape was different
and they were really hard whereas mine is soft
so i googled it and theres different types despite being in the exact same packaging -__-
so im gonna return them and instead brought a new pair off ebay for £5.99 - purple like my ipod :3
Im gonna start my japanese tonight!!!
and hopefully watch some more of the momoiro clover dvd :3
i thought id show it as it really amazing
its shiny and 3 disks, came with a photography booklet and a note from momoiro clover
to say it was second hand i am impressed :D
but the not is all in japanese - to be expected i know!
it doesnt look TOO hard so ive made a lil goal to myself that this time next year
i should be able to understand the note as currently i have no clue!
even if i can just get the basic understanding will be good ^^
tomorrow me and mum want to do something together
as we both have the day but unsure what to do yet ><
Happy New Year! 今年もよろしくおねがいします!
I wrote my post last night and upon finishing it the internet died
in fact it had majorly crashed til 10am this morning!!
That is not a good service on new years eve!!!
So I apologize for not being able to upload my last blog of 2016!
Anyway last night
what a night ~
I got ready in my room with my little prince
I tried damn hard >< knowing full well how pretty some of the girls
were gonna be at the party not that im aiming to the best but i just didnt want
to look like a dog's dinner stood next to any of them XD
at 8:30pm I set off
I actually knew 90% of the journey it turned out
as i used to teach at a school like 5-10 mins down the road!!
So that put me at ease
I arrived and Mia answered the door luckily ^^
she looked amazing as she usually does
but the noise was incredible! so many people in one house!
She introduced to me everyone but having to remember so many names was not gonna happen
plus the fact that they all wore costumes and wigs so they didnt look themselves ether XD
Mia got me a drink of orange juice and we joined everyone
she kept with me a lot of the evening actually
i didnt expect her to as i was fine talking to her friends even tho i didnt know them
but i could feel the love in the room all these people had great bonds with one another
it was lovely really
i was introduced to a girl called "yuri" and she looked japanese
but i didnt want to assume
but turns out she came from japan 7 months ago! she was 27 and her english was amazing
for 7 months i was shocked
so we talked about a lot of stuff she loved me very much she truly did
i thought she was gonna take me home with her XD
all of mias friends were good people
they liked talking to me and saying things like "how come we're only just meeting you now!?"
i just dont get out much XD
but i didnt tell them that of course
everyone was drinking. a lot.
there was food but not my kinda thing
i ate a cup cake that was it but that was only to keep my energy up as my body
was protesting a lot actually
we played 'beer-pong' i have never played before
2 teams
10 cups of alcohol per team
2 ping pong balls
basically you take turns in your team to through the ping pong ball into the opposing team's alcohol filled cups. If you get it in, the person your playing has to drink, well 'down' that cup
the idea is to try and clear your opponent's cups
we lost haha
I wasn't bothered about playing as i couldnt drink so it wouldnt seem if someone got my cup and i didnt drink it. but mia assured me she would take the bullet for me XD
but as it goes no one ever got my cup but nether did i get a cup!
at this time it was 11:50pm
time had gone sooooo fast!
I decided to stay for countdown
so we watched the tv whilst standing (stood all evening ><)
and we all joined in on countdown then fire party poppers
then we joined hands and what have you
then everyone was hugging each other
i said to this guy next to me
"it would only take for one person to have head lice and the whole room would have em now" XD
he burst out laughing "what the hell made you think that!?" who knows
I went to mia and told her i was leaving
she told me a lot of times in the evening that she was grateful id come and that she loves me
think she'd had just a lil too much to drink
well i had to laugh when she picked up a cardboard disk from the party popper thinking it was a ping pong ball -_____- XD
I txted my mummy to say i was coming home
she'd already left me a message saying she'd gone to bed
i arrived home at 12:45 and by the time i got undressed for bed it was gone 1pm
i then read in bed to wind down and let my poor bleeding ears rest
this morning despite not falling asleep til after 2am
mum woke me up at 9:30am cus tiffin couldnt play outside due to rainy weather
i was soooooo tired
i got up at 10am for him
and crawled back to bed at 12:30
i got up 2 hours later
watched my new momoiro clover dvd, well some of it anyway
then i went on my laptop~
not sure what i will do tomorrow but im happy with the way i spent the first day of 2017 XD
me last night but the lighting and photograph isnt good!
Good Evening~
and Happy New Year to those of
you who have already
seen the start of 2017~
its currently 5:30pm for me
2016 X3
but its the last day of 2016
I have no idea why people make
such a fuss of a new year
i mean all it means is a date
change thats it
we dont celebrate each new
month do we
i get it if your looking
something to something major in the new year
like new house, baby birth or
marriage
but I believe most people use
it as an excuse for a binge on the booze
I didn't sleep well
in fact I didnt go to bed til
11pm O: thats late for me XD
I was doing my nails which I
ended up hating so I did them again
and I was watching something
funny on TV with my parents
but I couldnt sleep despite
taking sleeping tablets
so it was gone 12pm when I got
to sleep
then woke up at 1am from my
brother coming home
from there it was a crummy
night
I couldnt be bothered to get
up but got woke up
from the post man at 9:15
>.>
my morning was spent sorting
out a few bits and pieces
in my bedroom, getting
directions for tonight, sorting out stuff for tonight
did a lil dancing
cleaned pets out
tiffin seems a bit quiet today
played pokemon moon as i
havent played on it for 2 days
i have a Pichu ^^
that was my day really nothing
special cus im saving my energy for tonight
tonight is really out of my
comfort zone
this is the first time since
1999 I have 'celebrated' the new year
last time obviously being the
millennia to which Helina's family had a massive ass bonfire in their garden
and invited the neighbours it was awsum X3
This year Mia invited to a
joint birthday happening at her friend's house
her friend lives 40mins from
me -____-
I could have quite easily
opted out but i thought
"you know what Im gonna
come out my shell this year!"
usually my new years eves go
like this
10pm "im off to bed mum
see ya next year!"
in bed asleep, woken up at
12pm by people who insist on having fireworks
im there in my room half
tempted to shout out my window
"keep it down out
there!!!"
and fall back to sleep once
the fireworks die down
thats it
this year i've had to dress a
vintage style as that is the theme
of the party, so ive got a
black dress and tights and i will try do myself up best i can
i will drive by myself to
place i havent been to before, in the dark...
im a lil nervous about driving
but i know i have my satnav and my notes so i should be fine
the party makes me more
nervous
i will only know rob and mia
out of the 20 or so people going
mia being a co-host wont have
a great deal of time for me
i havent been in a crowd of
people my age for quite some time
even when i went college i was
the youngest there
so it will be different for me
and i want to try
i have never met mia's friends
before
cus usually when they get
together its for clubbin' which i don't do XD
so 2016
trying to think what happened
this year
well february i enrolled at
college. again.
i completed my course this
year a whole 4 months early so now i am qualified
i signed on to some agencies
for work
pinks turned 5 years old
millie and alice are now 1
years old
dom no longer wants to speak
to me
me and mia celebrated 20 years
of friendship
to be honest not a lot
happened to ME this year
no one in my family died, my
car is the same, i live in the same house, im still single
so no real changes
as for 2017
each new year i wonder 'will
this be the year i manage to drop some of medication?'
that would be nice
I will be working officially
as a Teaching assistant in schools
I will be teaching myself
Japanese once again (dropped it cus I had other studies to do)
im still not sure on my idea
to go for a hot drink each weekend. I suppose i have a lil longer to think
about that one. Im kinda 70% want to 30% not
I am gonna be more open to the
idea of dating now I have sorted myself out but I can't see a rush of guys
begging at my feet XD
but we shall see anyway what
the new year brings~
Enjoy your evenings~
Konbanwa~
I slept a lil better last night
mum woke me this morning cus we were gonna head off for the city centre
so we got ready to go, we always every morning find time for the pets before
we leave the house, we left at 9:30am
The city centre was really quite
a lil creepy really cus we expected it to be busy
so we cracked on and just stuck to the places we needed
mum managed to find a few things in the sales
we went to a jewelers (where i got my ears pierced 10 years ago) to look
at silver chains for this charm necklace granny left me
i love it, its very heavy tho so it needed a good chain the chain she had
was simple stainless steel god knows why she had a big silver charm on a crappy chain
i dont wear it cus the charm keeps falling off so i need it to be 'soldered' together so
it physically cant leave the chain its on
but at the moment we through we'd have a look at chains
mum wants to do this for my birthday (feb 7th)
so I tried some chains on with my charm
i found one I liked it is 24" long the current chain is 28" which is too long
i was glad I found on. So mum has the chain, I have the charm as I need to get it soldered still
but she says she wants to pay for it so it will be all nice and finished for my birthday
ok the pieces i found
helina told me that primark had a load pokemon stuff in
i dont shop at primark but i thought 'i gotta check this out right!'
and luckily cus the pokemon stuff had been in for a while it was in the sale!!
so I some bed sheets for £13 (will photograph as some point)
I got a hoodie for £5 it was the only one left and my size!! fate i tell you!
a t-shirt for £3 again there was only 4 left
a pajama top for £5
mickey mouse joggers for £8
we went to next to see their sale
mum picked up some stuff
i got 2 halloween t-shirts cus i love halloween stuff and i'll wear em any time of year X3
t-shirt was £6 and longer shirt was £7
I wanted to go water stones as i really want a japanese work book
and i cant find one online as you cant see inside the book on line
i really had to see them in person to see if they were right for me
i found one i fell in love with
my plan was to write down the author and get it off amazon but i couldnt be arsed when i had it in my hand, also i hadnt seen this particular one online so i got it £11.99 didnt cripple me compared to some which were like £25
you can write in it like a proper work book which is what i wanted ^^
and that was all~
worth going in and we didnt even go all around the centre
it was starting to get busy so we left and were home for 12:30 :)
we had lunch I put the stuff away
rested for a bit
then i stitched helina's tea towels which are done
photographed her apron too
that was my day really
tomorrow i have the new year party!
