Konbanwa
Tired ><
I got up at 6:45am once again for school
I got tiffin out and it seems he has managed some pellets!!
I put some guinea pig pellets in his bowl cus he likes them sometimes XD
im so glad hes eaten some pellets though as he hasnt touched them in a whole week!
shows he is able to eat hard food just fine
bless him i was relieved
he had managed other pieces of food in his hutch also!
School was hectic
i had 6 students to read to
I had a group doing some maths with them
I watched 16 children playing in the court yard
yeah i had some responsibilities today!
But it feels good to be trusted like that
and everything went just fine too :D
so many students gave me hugs
and a year 3 gave me a little key chain ><
jozu is loved and i am grateful to them all
at lunch time i was lining the children up for school lunch
i noticed today's pudding they were serving.....butterscotch tart!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh freakin' hell that was my favourite when i was there!
to see it again made my eyes almost sparkle! i was so happy to see it still going!
and the cook (who was the same i cook i had back in the day) she gave me a piece *0*
I was sooooooo happy
and ahhhhh it tasted of memories~
good lunch time for sure~
during lunch time~
i was talking to tom (student teacher and 22 years old)
i was talking to him about this boy who as of this week got in contact with me on facebook
i told tom the guy wants to meet up, hes single and on about bringing a friend who was in my form
tom said to me "yeah theres only one thing hes interested in"
i said "what?"
tom "well you"
eep >< i hadnt thought of that!!!!
tom was like "seriously!? how can you be that naive!?"
i was just worried about it being awkward now i know for sure its gonna be awkward
but i dont want chicken out as the guy was lovely to me in school
basically we shared DT (design technology graphics) for 2 years and i was the ONLY girl in the whole class! but he stuck with me and kept me company and helped me. he didnt have to at all
and we became friends :)
during the end of lunch i did some display work
beats sitting round doing nothing~
the afternoon was pretty simple
at the end of the day i stayed til 4pm i cleaned up and stuff
tom saw me out as i wont see him til february 1st now
he was like "enjoy your date" i could have kicked his face in XD
got home and i was tired
but happy when i saw tiffin playing outside ^^
sorted some fabric out in case i manage to do some sewing tomorrow~
tomorrow im gonna have ago being a dinner lady!!!
well excited ^^
here's a couple of things i made for new years party
a black choker and a hair clip~
I am shattered!!!
Not only did I not sleep well I got up at 6:45am ><
I had such a mad rush this morning but I managed to give tiffin all he needed
he has more of his personality back i can tell
as he fighting treatment and just being defiant
so someone is feeling better!!!
But he still isnt eating his food but he did managed to eat other things
I got to school at 8:20am
10 mins early for work ^^
the teacher i work with is lovely
and so many children gave me hugs and were dead happy i was back X3
Jozu is loved by many X3
I didnt get a break as it was wet break so we had to watch the children indoors
at lunch I left to go home and feed tiffin he was very hard work
i quickly ate my lunch and then went to school
the rest of lunch time i went and did some display work
then that lesson i worked on the display
the afternoon wasnt too bad
we didnt get a break tho so i have worked solidly today
i had vets at 4:30pm usually when i was student at the school i went home at 3:30pm
same time as the children but now im paid staff i had to stay til 4pm...
so I stayed helping out then I left very promptly as I had to rush home and get tiffin sorted
and get to the vets! i felt a bit rude the way I suddenly left but I explained to some people that I had the vets to go to. hope they dont think me rude >< I will go in fresh tomorrow with a smile~
tiffin at the vet
he was very stubborn in fact he embarrassed me really
as the vet tried to examine him and tiffin was having none it
in the end the vet gave him a injection that will stimulate his tummy
he looked so peed off honestly
so when i see him like that it makes me feel like hes improving because before
he was just in a ball in pain
got to give him his other bits and pieces tonight
tomorrow morning its same again~
mum isnt home for lunch tomorrow so i wont have to come home for him
just hope he manages to eat in the day!
the school have booked me for a morning on February 1st
which i was thrilled about but I am suppose to be doing some dinner time work at another school that day so ive had to alter the times so i can get from one school to another
but its worked out
I do my best!
and i hope tiffin tries his best for me!
My nurarihyon figure that came today :D
Evening~
After spending a lot of the night worrying like hell about tiffin
i woke up this morning shattered
I got up at straight away went to get him
it seemed he had tried a bit of grass in his cage and possibly some hay as well.
he had passed poos
so that was all a positive as after yesterday he didnt chose to eat at all
so i got him out
we started giving him his medication, syringe fed him
then i let him outside for a bit
he ate a little bit of grass
but he did seem more himself today like more energetic and his personality was there
he is still far from perfect though.
I have had him inside regularly
offering him any food he may like
to which he has turned his nose up
so ive had to syringe feed him and also syringe water into him
he looks quite fed up with it all at the moment
started fighting back and growling when being fed.
im taking that as a sign hes feeling better
today i mushed up banana and gave that to him instead of the vet syringe food he hates
i also mushed up pineapple later in the day
both her really liked
just got another round of vet syringe food and medication and a quick drink
then hes all done for today
i really thought he'd have to go to the vets today
but he doesnt seem to need it
hes still not well though
if he just ate honestly all his issues would go!
this morning i went for a walk with my ipod and new head phones ^^
it was good to get out as it was sunny and really mild
ive been doing a bit of japanese each day also
i cut some strips of fabric as i want to make mum something for her birthday
i got stuff ready for tomorrow as its my first day of work! my first agency job!
and fittingly it is at my old primary school - were i trained
i will be there monday and tuesday as a teaching assistant
i have got a proper winter outfit prepared as the classroom i will be working in is freezing!! it opens onto a court yard and so the room gets very cold very quickly
im looking forward to going back
the wednesday til february i will be a dinner lady at another school!
my mum used to be a dinner lady at my old primary school~
i hope i sleep tonight
im so very tired and still not 100% myself but i know its because im stressed about tiffin
stress makes my physical and mental condition worse
im hoping he improves tomorrow
tomorrow i have to get up and get ready and need to be at school before 8:30am
i have to give tiffin his syringe food and medication
i need to come home at lunch time to feed him again
go back to school
come home at home time and feed him again
then at 4:30pm he has a vet appt
tomorrow will be rush rush rush
a place i am looking forward to
my bed <3
with my pokemon bed sheets on~
i will never have a double bed i love my bed too much!
Evening
I'm so tired, emotionally drained and just not myself
which I suppose is how tiffin is also feeling
After yesterday feeling a bit more positive about his situation
today he doesn't seem as good.
He had managed to eat a bit in the night
He had drank. He had produced poos so his stomach IS working
and it looked quite positive this morning.
I felt he would be fine to stay home instead of another day hospitalized.
We had a vets appt at 9am
There was a lady waiting with us who had 2 ginger piggies ^^ so sweet~
The vet saw tiffin and said that he would like for tiffin to try stay at home
so I was relieved
We were given 2 medications to feed to his + his syringe food
I got home and let tiffin go out into the garden, the first time in days
I thought he'd enjoy that and I hoped he would eat plants and grass
but he ran straight to his hutch.
and thats where he stayed...
Me and mum have been giving him his meds, syringe fed him heck we even mashed banana down just to try and syringe feed that into his mouth because today he seems to have gone backwards.
but we can't work out why he refuses to eat.
There is no issue, I just don't understand it at all
and looking at him today he just looked like
he'd given up. All he wanted to do was crawl into a ball and go to sleep.
I could understand that if he was elderly but he's so young and normally so happy.
The vet had told us that he would like to see tiffin on monday
but to bring him in sooner if we had concerns
I told mum today that I think he needs to go to the vets tomorrow because he isnt right
and it is heart breaking to see him so broken and poorly
and it goes through your mind "am i doing the right thing?"
I want to keep going with his treatment as theres no issue
its basically like when we have a stomach bug and we go off food and liquids and stay in bed for a few days then we try bits of food and before you know it your eating full meals again
im waiting for him to just bounce back.
I really thought he'd be good today
Im not happy
Im quite depressed with it all
I havent left the house
I havent done much all day i feel very much in a daze
I havent eaten a lot cus i dont want it
food is a huge chore right now
and my depression thoughts are quite loud too
tomorrow i will ring up the vets for an appt
they open at 10am I tried to ring today but they were already shut ><
I hope he is ok through the night
I cant bare knowing he is unwell by himself at night
i just want to keep him with me but he doesnt like my affection right now
he prefers mum -_____- which makes me feel like crap!
Come on tiffin dont give up
I need you so much
I will just be a shell of the person I am if i lose you like this
right im off before i start crying once again
My Tiffin
my sweet sweet prince
life has been like some awful nightmare
i have been stressed
emotionally and physically drained
I just want my prince back to normal...
Yesterday
my god yesterday
I was meeting Ed, it was the only day we could both do and he was taking the train to my city
I had stress, as Tiffin wasn't good. We had taken him to the vets the day before and they
gave us some food to syringe into his mouth, and he'd had an injection to stimulate his stomach and an anit-biotic to cure his cough/sneezing.
Me and mum tried getting the food down him, he spat a lot of it out his mouth
we offered up every kind of food to him; treats, dried fruit, fresh veg, plants from the garden
he wasn't happy and was in discomfort
so yesterday i woke up after waking up many times in the night thinking about tiffin
when i got up i went straight to him and brought him into my bedroom whilst i got ready to meet ed
we had an appt to see the vets that morning before i went to go see ed.
So im there trying to get ready, feed tiffin, spend time with tiffin. i was stressed as tiffin was in pain.
he had eaten a little bit but he wasnt right.
i could have done without seeing ed. it felt wrong to even enjoy myself when tiffin was like this but its the way everything just happened.
i also had agencies ringing me left right and centre -____-
me and mum took him vets
the vet wasnt happy with his condition (we were seeing the head vet)
and said that tiffin would benefit from staying in the vets. to hospitalize my rabbit basically.
I couldn't believe it. i had NEVER had to hospitalize a pet before.
Im not good with others caring for my pets.
But I knew this was for his health and needed to be done
the vet needed concent for the treatment he wanted to give tiffin;
x-ray
strong pain killers
fluids under the skin
stomach stimulator
He managed to rack up the BIGGEST vet bill we've ever had to pay
heck none of my pets have even had an x-ray before!
Mum asked me "do you want him to go through this?"
I didnt hesitate, it had to be done. He was only 2 and I couldnt give up so easily.
so we hospitalized him. I was in a bit of a state at this point. I tried not to cry with tiffin as it would stress him out as well.
I left him, left mum and went to meet ed
mum said there was nothing i could do anyway and it would be a good distraction to see ed
i spend time with ed in the city center
we left the city around 2:30ish
I had been updated by mum, tiffin had eaten some food. The x-ray was good - there was no mass built up and he had passed poos so he was 'functioning' but he just wouldnt eat and was in pain.
We could pick him up at 6:30pm
Id come home with ed. We sat and talked and then had a massive play fight. God I was exhausted.
he could catch a train home at 6:23pm so at 5pm we left to go for some pub grub
then my plan was from there to take him to the platform and then go get tiffs
did it work out that way? did it hell
we were bloody ages in the pub!
we were there 1 and half hours!?
which would make sense if it was busy and were waiting for a table and food
but that was not the case. the pub was dead. and after each course they near enough brought out the next one, it didnt let my food go down at all
ed looked at the time "we'll ive missed my train, next one is at 7:30pm"
mum rang up saying where the hell am i
i had no idea time had gone that fast!! it was like being in another dimension!!
in the end me and ed went down to the vets and met mum there
picked him up on the way back i dropped ed off the station his train was late
and after waiting 20 mins in -2c i was frozen
got home showered to warm myself up then i got tiffs in
he was in a ball and wouldnt let me fuss him
hates me ><
he looked tired
he had dried blood down his face
he'd had a needle in his ear to administer his pain relief and tiffin had decided that he was gonna discharge himself and ripped it out his ear and it had bled and his poor ear looks sore.
i wanted to clean him up but he'd had enough of people faffing with him
so i tried him with food which he didnt want, i syringe fed him a little amount.
this morning he had an appt at 9:15am
so i tried to syringe feed him at 7:15am as it appeared he had eaten NOTHING through the night but on the plus side he had done some poos. not perfect but still it showed he was working and no blockages.I personally wanted him to stay at the vets again today. I felt they could do more for him than i could at home, i was afraid of undoing all their hard work yesterday if i took him home
luckily the vet advised tiffin to be hospitalized once again. so we left him there. i wasnt upset like yesterday cus i felt he was in safe hands.
i managed to pass the day
a lot less stressful.
we got a phone call, tiffin had perked up and could be collected an hour earlier today
so we were there eagerly waiting at 5:15pm
a different vet saw to us but we know her well as we've seen her for many years and shes lovely
she told us tiffin had eaten some kale and hay. hes been given fluids and pain relief. he'd been sitting on her knee as well whilst she tried to clean up yesterday's blood off his face.
she felt confident about his health. she told us to give him anything he wanted which we were doing. he has got to return in the morning
they said he could be the same or he could turn a corner and be eating totally fine.
these things can take a few days and varies rabbit to rabbit.
since, i have managed to get 6 pieces of dried fruit down, bit of grass, bit of hay in him which isnt much but better than this morning. i hope he eats more and produces poos.
i was so relieved when the x-ray was clear. kip had to be put down due to a mass in his stomach that had got so big it was in-operable. i couldnt bare to see tiffin suffer the same fate but it looks like we caught it earlier this time
he has managed to maintain his weight somehow
the vet has weighed him every day in front of me and each time its surprised me
we dont know what has caused this just rabbits have such sensitive stomachs.
hopefully it never happens again
i just want him right
currently i have just mopped the blood off his face and ear so hes clean now
he is in a ball on my carpet. doesnt really want my attention but takes mum's affection >.>
like hes punishing me for taking him vets
I am hoping like mad he is gonna be better in the morning cus i cant bare to see him like this for another day.
my dad has very kindly paid tiffin's large vet bill >< so i once again am indebted to my parents.
dont know what i would do with out them. mum has been there every step of the way and helping me feed tiffin and she drives me to the vets whilst i look after tiffs in the car.
i just sat this morning crying on my bedroom floor whilst looking at him in pain
and i just couldnt believe it was happening.
hes only 2 years old and was in such pain. why do i always get the rabbits who suffer?
i couldnt believe it had happened to tiffin. my boy. my prince
it felt like a nightmare and i would wake up any moment and it all be fine.
we shall see what tomorrow brings
this morning tiffin looked like he'd given up
i hope we dont have a repeat of that
i want you better prince
i love you so much i cant be without you!
Good Evening~
My evening has had my heart pumping with excitement and nerves!
My brother this evening was on BBC NEWS!!!
He had a full on interview that was recorded and his photography shown on TV!
So we all watched with suspense his part on the news!
I can not believe a member of our family made the news~
I am so proud ^^
Basically on xmas day he went into the city centre and took photos of the emptyness it held
he then sent his edited photos to BBC Midlands yesterday and they got back to him and wanted to interview him! So exciting and nerve racking!
He said he only slept for 3 hour bless him last night
I offered to go with him but he didnt want me there ><
But it went well and I am so pleased ^^
I'll never achieve greatness like that ><
Today I went into the city centre with mum once again
I took my book back to water stones for a refund
I got some socks from primark that forgot to pick up the other day
look how many I got! £2 for 3 pairs that is incredibly cheap!! And they are cute ^^
I finally finally finally found some leg warmers
turned out primark sold them! who'da thought
so I got a pair of grey ones for £4 as i thought grey goes with more
I got a snood from Accessorize as they had a sale on
this was reduced from £17 to £3!! £3 for a snood!! So cheap! and very soft ^^
I hate rough scarfs >.>
Finally I got a couple of notebooks
small one for my bag to practice japanese when I can
larger one for my bedroom practicing japanese~
We came home for lunch
Tiffin still isnt well and yesterday he didnt eat much which has continued today
so i took him to the vets today got a last minute appointment luckily!
He had 2 jabs to get his stomach stimulated for food and 1 jab of anti-biotic for his cough
the vet said he needs to come back tomorrow
and i have to syringe feed him this veil food every 2 hours
bless him
he was sooooo good! And we took a yoga mat for him to be looked at on the floor and so he could grip the floor, i dont let him be examined on the table anymore every since he flung himself at the wall that time and cut his lip open. so that mat came in handy
he had his back feet on it whilst he laid his body on my folded legs
when the vet left the room tiffin was hopping round like he owned the place XD
i am taking tomorrow at 9:15am
suppose to be meeting ed at 10am and mum has work at 9am
so we have had to make the time for him as he is important everything else can wait!
I hope he recovers, im pretty confident he will :) just feel sorry for him
he HATES me at the moment. he doesnt even like me stroking him T^T
I went to karen's at 3pm, mum dropped me off on the way back from the vets
it was nice to see her for the first time this year ^^
i was there like almost 2 hours! and i had to walk home as i didnt have my car
so i had to walk home in the cold and dark ><
i asked her if i could ask her angel cards for a reading so she had them prepared for me ^^
I picked out 3
You can do it!
Make it happen
Follow your heart
They were basically saying im on the right path, this is the year that if i want anything to happen i can make it happen, i know what i want in life i have to visualize it and make it happen.
it was positive anyway ^^ karen was well impressed with my reading actually
seems like 2017 could be a good year for me
your suppose to think of a topic/question whilst shuffling and picking your cards
i thought about "is this the year I start dating, will i find a career i like, will it be a productive year?"
And that was my day really
i had a missed call from an agency
they left a message saying they had work for me!
im praying that is still the damn case!
I will phone tomorrow
tomorrow i am going to the city centre once again -____-
but im meeting ed so it will be good hopefully :)
Ive had to cancel my first yoga class of the year otherwise id have to leave ed early and it seemed rude as hes come all this way and stuff
so i think we'll have lunch together, shop, and catch up :)
should be good ~
just hope its not too bloody cold ><
Good Evening~
Last night I opened up my note book I had used a good year or so
ago to learn my Japanese I could not believe how much I had learned!!
A good 1/3 of it I have forgotten sadly especially the kanji I learned
So I got out a new notebook and started up, I didnt feel the need to start right at the beginning
as I can still remember a fair bit. But I wanted to re-cap some basics such as
numbers, months, days of the week. and the Kanji that went with them.
I felt so out of practice tho!!
I will do some later tonight :3
Agencies rang wanting to know if I was free this week >.>
I can't keep my days free til the last second in case they want me
I have already made plans so told em to call me next week
i felt a bit bad as the first one that rang me up i about bit his head off XD woops
bet he hates me now and wont give me any work!
Tiffin today bless him has been really quite
he didnt come out when the girls went outside
he didnt eat his morning carrot
so at 3pm I brought him in and his bottom was a mess
he's got upset stomach big time
so I had to bathe his bottom cus i couldnt leave him like that
he hated me for it, so much in fact he refused to sit in my bedroom!!! he never does that!
instead he chose to sit in a ball outside my door way -______-
i could tell he had tummy ache tho by the way he holds himself
so I gave him a syringe of water so he didnt dehydrate
he coughed only a little bit yesterday but today his coughing has been bad
all in all i just wish he was better cus hes not right today :(
usually upset tummy passes after a day, normally the next day theyre fine
im hoping this is the case!
This morning me and mum went ASDA to look round sales
I got a red hoodie which has a black spotted shirt underneath :3 its cool and only £10
I could wear it for work if i wanted to~
mum got a shirt and t-shirt
helina asked me what i want for my brithday again
but i dont know ><
ed rang me up to see when we're meeting up in town for the day
that is thursday~
Tomorrow not sure what im doing yet but I have karen at 4pm
I need to think of my question to ask her angel cards ><
I know i want it something along the lines of 'will this be the year i start dating?'
that kinda 'topic' but not sure how to word it yet ><
Here's a figure I won before xmas it arrived the other day
It is Rosette from Chrono Crusade - an anime I watched when I was like 14/15 years old X3
