Good Evening all
Today I woke up feeling a lot better
my cold wasn't as bad and my voice was a lot more normal!
So I was pleased. It isn't perfect yet but it's getting there!
I had quite a relaxed morning
I got ready to go out at 11am with my parents for an eye test
I had my eye test and it was all fine really
they said I could have glasses but they're so weak and as Im having no trouble
I may as well not have them. So that was all fine with me :)
Adam was there waiting for me ^^
We walked round and went into a cafe cus i couldnt decided what to eat
i was hungry but didnt know what to have
lunch is my least favourite meal of the day
The waitress came and I could decide so I said "sausage roll" my brain thinking
"sausage roll = sausage on bread" X wrong! what arrived was a sausage roll
a sausage in pastry which is exactly what a sausage roll is -______-
how dense am I at times!!! adam called me a donut and i burst out laughing
i ate some of it but wasnt satisfied
i looked up and saw mia with rob and her nephew they'd just come from the arcades
i knew she was taking her little man out today but i have no idea she was going city center
i couldnt see her cus i was eating
we walked down to the bowling alley to find that they had maintenance
going on so a lane would be free in 2 hours time
screw that
so we walked round the back to the pool tables
ahhhhh i havent played pool in soooooo long
and I imaged adam would be good at it. guys always seem good at pool
we had two games
first game i won due to default as adam potted the black which was followed by the cue (white ball)
so he said i won. i didnt even realize that was part of the rules. if he hadnt have said anything i would have thought he'd won.
second game i started out potting 3 balls consecutively i was on a roll~~~ and I won too!!
girl power~~
Then we went round a couple of shops
stopped in a cafe that was major rip off. note to self: dont visit there
expensive and portions tiny. but adam wanted chocolate cake and it seemed like the only place that had chocolate cake left so we went there
nether of us had been before
but i know not to bother again. i had carrot cake which was a first for me~ it was alright :/
then we caught the bus home to my house
we had a brew and sat then literally 10 mins later my parents came home
we talked about our eye sight tests
then me and adam went upstairs for a bit he just cuddles me
and we talked about stuff really
thought i'd upload the draft excluder i made for dad's sofa seat as he moans he gets a draft and his feet go cold. so i made him this he seems to like it actually surprisingly
tomorrow i have school
then i think adam may pop over after his gym session
he's got the whole week of work this week
jammy git >.>
Lookie Lookie Hora Hora
This arrived in the post today addressed to 'Jozu'
I knew instantly who it was from...my lil cousin ^^
Id sent her some stuff the other week but i never expected anything in return
and to have this was a lovely surprise indeed
i love Pote-Usa-Loppy and this one is grey like my prince!
So i was sure to add to my collection of mini kawaii plushies and thank her
I woke up at 8am coughing my lungs up
I couldnt get my breath i was coughing and coughing
got a drink and continued to cough
my nose was blocked so i could breathe through it
i was a state
what a way to start the day!!!!
I cleaned out the girls
then sat had my morning brew
the me and mum went round charity shops looking for a jacket for dad for work
we found him one and he's well pleased with it
im awesome in charity shops!
Came home and had lunch then read on my bed
and at some point i must have drifted off to sleep cus next
thing i knew it was 2pm
but i hadnt missed out on anything cus it was still raining --____--
so i decided to have a play with make-up I do this time to time
and so I washed my fringe, found a make-up tutorial i'd save
chose my top to wear and began
well that killed a good 90mins of the day as i was taking photos after wards
so i have new photos should i want to update my profile picture anytime soon XD
then i took it all off
i do hate wearing that much make-up!!!
then ive been on my laptop looking at make-up
and other stuff really
cus with the weather so rubbish, no one to see and no bunny
what else was there to do today :/
so im gonna dance now to burn off some energy
my parents are going to a party tonight
i was offered to come and i thought about it
but decided against it
i hate parties nevermind when i knoe absoultely no one!
tomorrow i am going into the city center with my parents
for an eye test at 11:45am i wasnt fussed but mum says whilst it's free i might
as well get them checked out. guess shes right
then afterwards im meeting adam and were going for lunch
then shopping and/or bowling
then catching the bus back to my house as i wont have my car!
should be a better day than today!
Oha
Today it has been 1 week since Tiffin sadly left us
it feels more like 2 weeks
I am lost without him
and the decision on whether to get another rabbit bates on in my head everyday
i have had several dreams about rabbits this week!
rabbits on the mind!
i got up for school
feeling absoultely dreadful
but i pushed myself to go
It was science day at school
and they were doing experiments with liquids
mainly to do with changes and the class was split into groups
id be taking groups outside to look for bugs
it was cold but i could tell i had a fever so the cold air felt nice
but i was truly nakerd and could not be bothered to be there!
I got home and went to bed for an hour
then went TK MAXX with mum
didnt want to but i knew id be annoyed if i had another wasted afternoon
it was worth me going as it turns out
i got two bras i was pleased with ^^ non wired how i like em ;)
and i got a pair of tights and a pair of joggers
went round pets and home for some guinea food
i saw bunnies for the first time since tiffin died
felt quite detached from it all
i didnt want them they were just rabbits. so i can tell im not ready yet
came home had a brew
sat with the girls and went online looking at hair and make-up tutorials
i want to play dress-up tomorrow if i can :) I want a new profile photo
but im going through a stage of hating looking at myself >< it happens time to time
tomorrow going charity shops with mum
cleaning out pigs
bathing pigs cus they stink!!
and maybe playing dress up
and theres a party in the evening i think mum is dragging me to ><
i want to do a face pack tonight
heres the baby blanket i made i forgot to upload!
Konabanwa~~~~~~~
I keep waking at 6:30am this week its very annoying ><
I got ready for school i ended up with quite a lot of free time
enough time to have a fuss of the pigs usually all i have time for is to get them out
and let them have a run around then mum puts them home
Think its because I didnt do much hair and make-up wise
School was alright really
nothing special to report
did some painting using hands and some paper mache
good at getting messy stuff out ;)
they did p.e. today instead of tomorrow as its science week this week
and the whole school is taking part in a science experiment
i have a feeling its liquids this year
last year i remember being in year 6 helping them with their experiments which was biscuits
wish is was biscuits again this year!! all those spare biscuits! *0*
I came home feeling quite done in
throat was raw, headache, no energy and nose felt like it had water up it
so i went to bed
and woke up 2 hours later!!! ><
then sat with my girls
did some cross stitch
looked at pet names online just incase i get another bunny i like to have a look at names for inspiration. god some times i just want a baby bunny to cuddle!!
im missing my prince A LOT
i had yoga tonight
our end position was Crow
now usually i cant do crow as it involves supporting your whole body on your hands
and usually im not strong enough but tonight i just did it!! and i held it for over 5 seconds too!!!
i was really shocked actually my teacher was impressed ^^
came home and had a look at bras online
but i cant buy bras online its really something you have to try on
im throwing them out but not replacing i have some left but theyre all under-wired
and under-wired isnt comfy im down to last non-wired one :/
so me and mum said we'd go shopping next week or something
tomorrow after school me and mum are going TK MAXX i believe
they even may have bras but its rare to find my small size there!!
I took a photo of the sewing machine necklace i picked up from the charity shop last thursday
Evening~~
I got up for school
another lonely morning without prince
mum cleans the girls out on a wednesday whilst im at school
usually she has tiffin weaving in and out of her legs and hoping into cages, picking up hay
but of course hes not there
she said she felt a bit upset and almost lost control of her tears
school was easy really
and it was a lovely day also
i came home had lunch - cheese on toast wooo
then went wilkos with mum
came back did a good hour of cross stitching
then at 3:30pm went to pick adam from the gym he was sweaty XD
went to his house, he got me a drink adn i sat and waited for him to shower
he offered if i wanted to shower with him but we all know the response he got for that one XD
he asked just to get a reaction out of me and i know it but still cant help giving that reaction
so i waited like the good nun that i was and waited on his bed
we went on ipad and looked at places to visit when we go away
then we played on pokemon on DS then i watched him play (he had internet access i didnt)
then he cuddled me and told me
"can i tell you something"
"of course"
"I really want to go out with you Jo"
"is there a but coming?"
"no, no buts. I havent asked you out yet because I dont want to rush you or stress you or for you to push me away so im giving you time"
"well your doing ok so far. im happy at the moment. just give me a lil more time and im sure you'll know if theres a right time to ask or it may never happen who knows. but if you keep being good and getting your gold stars on your sticker chart you never know"
at that point i got a bad tickling XD i hate being tickled!! but i couldnt resist haha
its nice someone saying that kinda thing to me as i do feel like ever since i got sick that im 'damaged goods' in a way and 'who would want me' people my age tend to be in relationships already or theyre the kinda people you dont want to even know. so i didnt hold a lot of hope for someone being interested in me. who'da thought XD
so we're still taking one day at a time
but jeezz that guy is patient!
just as i was leaving his parents turn up ><
i havent met his parents
they were nice normal people ^^
his mum used to be TA so we were talking about the job and i saw his dad briefly
adam txt to say they liked me :) when i had left for home
then not done a lot tonight really
tomorrow its yogaaaaaaa and school of course
boo hate school on thursdays and fridays
i got 2 new posters in the post
for a bargin of £2.80 from japan
from the anime 'kiss on my deity' theyre double sides but i liked this side best
Evening~~~
Lonely with out my prince :(
I have to stop myself saying habits like "whats prince done today mum?" "how is tiffin?"
I still look for him out my window in the garden
Im sad without him
I got up for school, Id slept quite well
but my throat was really quite bad
School was alright I was able to stay in the classroom
a lot with the child which meant that I didnt need to personally
entertain the child. Which makes me life much easier :)
I came home and had lunch
I spoke to mum about rabbits
i must sound like a broken record to her
Then I went to bed as I had a bad headache, sore throat and just tired
I got up then had a brew then went to karen's
talked to her about stuff. she said my body wasnt in great condition
but thats understandable what with losing tiffs and having a sore throat
came home and i was suppose to be going a walk with mia
but she cancelled due to a headache
so thats tara cancel yesterday and mia today
do i smell or something? XD
suppose to being adam tomorrow, will it be a hat trick?
tomorrow is school
but wednesdays are easy for me
p.e. and music so i dont have to do any entertaining!! i say entertaining i mean teaching really XD
I took a photo of some make-up I ordered
the brand is HolikaHolika I have a few of their products cus theyre good quality actually
my concealer was running low and it was pretty rubbish actually. quite cakey and didnt sit on my skin well so i wanted to try a different brand and thought id try this one
i was impressed actually as its so soft and smooth
i only use concealer and powder and blush on my face no foundation, creams, contouring
im not into putting that much make-up on my face it doesnt suit me at all im too pale for any of that and i dont think it gives a cute fresh feel which is what i aim for
my concealer came with 2 free sachets of face cream~
Evening~~
I got up for school
I didn't really want to start my morning
simply because it was my first working morning with tiffin
my routine has been taken
his little face would light up my day start my morning
I got to school and sorted a few bits and pieces out ready for the day
i hardly have any voice so it was hard going at times
we got the work done and had time to play and stuff
it was a quick and easy day
came home and had lunch then collapsed on my bed for a while
i was suppose to be seeing tara but she ended up working late
so in the end i saw adam
he made his way over and we went for a walk together which was nice
and then we just sat and had a brew
he cheered me up i guess
now just in my room
with out tiffin
i can tell mum doesnt want me to have another bunbun
but i feel like having a rabbit is a pleasure to me, a hobby almost and i feel like why should i have to give that up? yes i work now and i didnt used to there for i had more time for my pets but i've always managed, why should i give up what i love just cus of work? surely my pleasures are more important than my career. i dont want to just work all my life i want my own life and do my own things and chill out and do my own stuff
im so confused right now
i dont know what i want to do in life right now
trying not to think about the future cus it only stresses me out and gets me down
school tomorrow
then should be seeing mia that evening which should be nice
here are this week's nails i took a photo of my left hand for a change
I must say today the child i work with i told her about tiffin
well after that i think every member of staff knew about my rabbit
as she couldnt help but tell everyone
she even picked up a grey rabbit toy and came to sit with me and gave me the rabbit
now i dont usually think children are sweet but that moment i believed was a sweet moment.
i just got fed up of telling people about tiffin it was like rubbing salt in a wound
