Evening all~~
I got up at 8:15am
I stayed in pajamas til about 2pm X3
I managed to get many of my jobs done
I finished the skirt I was working on finally
I made Karen a birthday card I attempted at drawing a labrador
I did 20mins of yoga followed up with a 10 min walk
I started 3 hair bows that are unfinished
So I got stuff done really
i did drop off to sleep its this damn cold >.>
Adam seemed ok he said he hadnt done any personal bests and that his back hurt
hes just old haha i said im sure theyre grateful to him for his effort
I offered to see him tomorrow afternoon if he wanted to
Tomorrow I need to ring up the acupuncturist and also to ring the agency up
basically the agency i chose to work for at my old school pays £4 less per day
im gonna see if they can match the rate of pay of the other agency i work for
if they cant i will simply ring up the other agency and ask them to go through the school
cus £4 a day extra 3 times a week = £12 more per week!
before I didnt want to upset the apple cart as it were but now I think cus its a 6 week contract i'd like to address the situation.
I caught Oz chasing the birds again
dont know why he does
but the birds are cocky they get so close to him and they dont frighten easily
but i dont want him near them cus i dont want them pecking at him or if they carry any diseases.
I watched about 4 eps of vampire diaries today whilst working ^^
tomorrow i must do that damn job form ugh
here's another top i got in the post it kinda has its own choker attached ^^
Good Evening
Almost forgot to do my diary
I was that caught up looking at Japanese make-up!
I ordered a new mascara which is kinda burgundy colour
and my first ever Canmake Make up! for tear bags
I have wanted something Canmake for agesssssss
but its expensive to get over here cus you have to order from japan
but I could resist this~ I work - its my treat
besides I never spend much of what I earn really /:
Today I woke up at 7am but drifted off to sleep til8:45am
I got up and got ready
me and mum eventually went shops to get karen something for her bday
and we got some pet food stuff
came back I cleaned girls out
then I got changed and went over to adam's house
we sat with his parents for a bit
apparently his dad has done the hierarchy for the house its goes from the top to bottom
Me
his dad
adam
his mum
XD i was shocked at how i came out top!!
but I felt so tired and drained I probably wasnt my usual self round them
then we went upstairs for a bit
I robbed his bed covers cus I was F'ing freezing!! I was frozen
so I curled up in those til he caved in and joined me X3
I eventually got warm he is like a radiator
we were laying there -full clothed and stuff we're not that far
but he suddenly said to me
"you have never sat in my gaming chair have you?"
"err no"
"go and sit in it"
"wait this is a bit random and sudden. you're asking me to get up. leave the warm bed. to go sit over there by myself on your chair?"
"just please do it for me"
"this is strange, what you planning?"
"nothing now will you just please do it"
it was very very odd and I couldnt for the life of me think why the hell he wanted me to leave him laying there to go sit opposite his bed by myself. why? i cant work it out i really cant
i asked him several times 'why?' but I never got it explained
i came to the conclusion i probably didnt want to know
then we just gave me plenty of cuddles and kisses cus it had been a whole 6 days since we'd last seen each other XD
I asked him
"when you were with you ex, you had been dating a month and seen each other naked. We havent gotten that far yet. because of me obviously. does it bother you?"
"no no you know its fine and i want you to be confident and happy i wont push you im happy how we are so dont worry"
i sometimes wish i could get over my insecurities
im not sure even what stops me. i feel shame towards my body. i hate seeing it so i wouldnt want to show it to anyone. i think its apprehension as well cus im not sure how some stuff will happen and how it will go. and what im expected to do. so many insecurities
but he tells me i over think way too much but thats just me!
the last hour I was there I could feel my body protesting
i was literally dead on my feet
i needed the rest i owed my body
it was time for me to leave anyway
so i wished him good luck for tomorrow when he goes competing in his athletics
i came home had a brew and went to sleep
til dinner time and did myself some pasta and watched vampire diaries
then just been online really
tomorrow I have several jobs that need to be done
i plan on doing them all in my pajamas
job form
finish skirt
hair bow to make
make karen a bday card
do some yoga
here is a top i got in the post for £4 new
Good Evening
I was awake at 5am would you believe!
Jeez did I feel rough when I got up
certainly feel like im coming down with something /:
tends to be what happens when I push myself my immune system seems compromised
Anyway at school today
I spent the whole morning til lunch time in the art room
I was making the masks
I got 25 out of the 30 done in total!
The teacher was very pleased with them
I showed the kids and they loved them ^^
Mum picked me up for lunch were i stuffed my face
a lot of it sugar related cus i needed to get through the afternoon
In the afternoon I sat at a table til 3pm with different groups of children
and did a flower picture with them so it was relatively easy
so nice easy friday really
Came home collapsed on my bed til 5:30pm I was just shattered
I got up and finished sewing a top I was doing as it only took me 10mins
sat with Oz as well
Since I've been on my laptop
looking at make up and accessories just being a typical girl XD
found a few things online
I find I dont wear some of my accessories as I feel live grown up a bit in the last few years so some stuff i feel a lil childish wearing
Here is another top i got in the post £5
its got cats on it or Neko as theyre called in japan~
Tomorrow I am going to clean out my pets
also Im going to Boots with mum to pick karen up a birthday present
as its her birthday on 12th may!
Then Im off over to Adam's house
havent seen him since sunday /:
wont be seeing him again til next week ether
but i need to time to recover anyway
Evening~~
Been busy ><
Keep waking at 6am!!!!!! So annoying
I was a lil late leaving for school but still got there early ^^
I had another full on day
I had a group of 12 children to do hand writing with
Loads of jobs to do honestly the day goes so quick cus i just never stop
the last 90 mins of the day was bliss tho as I was in the art room by myself
creating these head bands for the 30 children
there was frogs, bats, parrots, snakes, spiders and elephants
I got 10 finished so all snakes and spiders are done
i had photos of last year's to go on but I added my own unique twist onto them
I think the teacher liked em ^^
came home and went to bed at 4pm
woke up and went for a walk with mia
it was good to see her top brace off and next week she is having the bottom one off
we went to vote together too
not that i knew what we were voting for
dont pay attention to politics at all
even if someone talks to me about them i turn off and glaze over XD
Tomorrow I am at school once again
same class and everything
hopefully i'll have more time to just sit in the art room and do more headbands
maybe maybe
it was really warm today says me who went in school with a jumper and vest
i got home and got in cooler clothes
then going for a walk with mia it got very cold and so did i
so yesterday i dressed for summer and it was freezing
im sick of getting it wrong!!!!
but tomorrow mum is picking me up for lunch so if i need to change for the afternoon i can
Here is a skirt I got in the post~ £8.50
It's got sailor moon pattern printed on and a bow on the back
kawaii ne~
Good Evening all~~
Once again I awoke at 6am
I got ready for school same old really
The class was really quite hectic today
a girl was sick 3 times in 1 minute at 10:30am
so we had that clear up
I had to assist in changing a boy's nappy (don't ask)
Someone crapped themselves at 3pm
it was just a really icky day! But its what you get for working in the youngest class I guess!
I was asked to come for the remainder of the week
as the TA im covering is really quite poorly
so I have to push myself for thursday and friday!
I was also asked if I would like to attend a residential a trip with the year 2 class
i'll be working with as of next week
it would be 1 night stay in derbyshire
im all up for it! but mum has asked me to find out more information about
it before I confirm my attendance but I would to go!
I got home exhausted and sat round with Oz
watched him sleep and twitch
I caught up with some crud online really
theres a school id like to apply for so i asked for an application form
and I got a sailor costume I ordered in the post today only £9! and I LOVE it!!
Here is the t-shirt new I won for £3.70 kawaii ne~
Not seeing adam til saturday now so its gonna be almost a week since
ive seen the guy. But today marks 1 month!! woo! gone so quick!
Mia rang me this evening to tell me tomorrow
she's having her brace off!! She was really happy and it was good for her to get
some positive news for a change
she told me about misty as well :( awful
Tomorrow Im back at school
working in the same class but different teacher and one i really like ^^
not going yoga tomorrow im seeing mia for a walk instead
so i will come home from school, sleep then see mia
Good Evening~~~
It's actually 5pm
which is earlier than I usually blog but I thought I might as well do it
Ive been awake since 6pm woohoo
I got all ready for school this morning
I booted Oz outside in the hopes he'd actually stay outside
he loves the indoors more than the great outdoors thats for sure
School was very hectic
I was in the youngest class and I was warmly greeted by them
and other students from other classes! I love my old primary school ^^
I did so much today I worked in my breaks and my lunch too
I was exhausted!!
And I found out they want me back tomorrow also as the TA im covering has
flu so shes still poorly.
So I have work again~~~~
I got home and collapsed on sofa
now im just in my room with Oz really not doing a lot
Im tired actually
Mia sent me a sad txt today
She has 2 dogs and 1 died today
Misty
Misty was her aunty's dog who mistreated and Mia's dad took it away from her
and brought Misty home were they basically brought her back to life
this was a good 10 years ago
and since she's just had the best of lives
she was glued to mia's mum's leg constantly and she had a very protective and hard nature
i know she will be sadly missed
Evening all~~~
I slept not too bad
but my throat still feels a bit sore
I spent my morning absolutely shattered
just felt so worn out and I have clue as to why
but thats part of my condition
i get good days and bad days
So I did a bit of sewing to a skirt I brought off ebay for £4.99
it was too short so I was altering it but it's been more time consuming
than I first thought it would be and Im not even sure now that I am happy with it
it puffs out too much for my liking but that could be me being fussy
so I will try it on and see what mum says she usually has a good opinion
I went to bed around midday cus i was zombiefied and not functioning
when I got up I was still sewing whilst watching vampire diaries
I went for a very short walk with mum
I made pasta dinner for me and mum she appreciated it ^^
She got a txt message from the head mistress at my primary school
asking if i could return tomorrow for I think for now just the day
but who knows
so im going back tomorrow to school in stead of the 10th!
Im looking forward to it
I found out Mia's nephew has got a place there and will start in september!!!
I kept meaning to upload these photos from when I finished before easter holidays
I worked with a child every morning
and her parents brought me a card and flowers!!! I also got a hand made card from the students of the class i worked in and they all signed it!! It was so lovely and I kept the cards the staff in the classroom also gave me a card ^^
So thats what Im doing tomorrow
Id like to ring up for acupuncture also at some point
cus I need to go but I do wonder if I need to go speak to someone about my mental
health that i feel is crumbling
but mum says to try acupuncture first cus that can be good for mental health
it could be a while tho til i get in and get seen to /:
